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Monday, October 4, 2004
SALVA MOI.
french, anyone? the title is from 'Salva Nos', an ost of the anime NOIR. instead of 'Salva Nos' which means 'Save Us', i made it 'SALVA MOI' which means 'SAVE ME'.
last time, i said i wasn't feeling well. and i still am not feeling all that good. why? because i did something terrible to the one i love the most. honestly, i feel very very funny. i don't know. tears wouldn't cease to drip and it annoys me. i feel really really bad. why is it that i always hurt those that i love? why? i love them but why can't i do something good for them? why do i always hurt them? WHY? damn it. why did God create me this way?! why?! or is it the way i grew up? then why did i grew up to be this pathetic? why?! i always said to people, 'just be urself', 'u can do it', 'ur more than that'. then why can't i apply it to myself? many sees me as a happy-go-lucky person. always smiling, as if i don't have problem. i seem to be ordinary and simple. but deep inside resides a pathetic and pretender.
i pretend to be ok, but i'm not. i pretend to be cheerful, but i'm not. and i pretend to know, but i don't.
i don't know what to do anymore. my mind's so full, i don't know what to think anymore. i feel funny and sad and mix. i don't know. fuck, i'm screwed up.
sorry about that. now you know me better. why here? i got a lot of other blogs but why rant this here? i just want you all to know how stupid i am...how pathetic i am...i don't know if you'll understand, but hopefully...
ja ne~
me loves raijin-sama...
P.S. nobody's to blame here but me. it's because of things that i do without me thinking. again...sorry for the rant...hope you understand...thank you...
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