Sunday, January 8, 2006

*sigh*...


Pictures say a thousand words... and the text should not have to be there to explain this picutre... but it's a very good one... I liked it alot... Alot of meaning to it...
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Monday, January 2, 2006

To me New Years dosen't mean too much so heres something random...

Which Kingdom Hearts Character will you share a Paopu Fruit with? by blindkey
Name:
Age:
Gender:
Favorite Character:
Least Favorite Character:
Who:
Their reaction:	They smile and glomp you.
Quiz created with MemeGen!

....Odd....

Alright, alright.... Hope you all had a Happy New Year and that it continues... While I'm at it how did you guys do...? Did you celebrate...? I just went to my sisters... but it turned out to be alot of fun... Fireworks... Food.... Booze and *cough* *cough* weed..... *cough* Yeah, it was pretty sweet...

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

*_*
I had a dream that I had this lollipop... and it grew and grew so big that it was like an ocean... I started to swim in it... What was even weirder was that there were these candy canes... they were moving and acting like fish... They were regular size though... They were swiming with me... Then they started tickling me as they swam... Odd if you ask me... but for the first time in my life I awoke.... laughing....


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Sunday, November 6, 2005

okay yea ..............
... i am a guy but i see how the last post is confusing ... see some people think i am bi or gay becuase i am very tense around people but for some reason they assume that it is i am tense around people that i like .... which i see no point in them thinking this becuase i am just tense around everyone ... but yea people think different and take it wrong and so some bi or gay guys will come up from time to time and ask me out ... but my friends now i am not bi or gay so they sometimes jsut sit back and get a kick out of it ... sorry for all the confusion ....
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Saturday, November 5, 2005

sorry to say that i havent posted in a while ...
aheh ... last friday someone guy came and asked to make out ... and i had no idea who he was ... and a friend of mine ( another male ) was sitting by me when it happened ... and saw i was really not interested ... so he immidiately jumped up and said ' YES LETS KISS !!! ' ... omg it was halarious how fast that strager ran ... yea ... and then the friend of mine who warded away that other guy jugged down some energy drinks and even got me some ... god all day we were hyped ... he even gave this really gunny rpesentation concerning a veggi and an Edger Allan Poe story ... omg ... yes it was fun ... well i hope yall had a good week as well ... later ...
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Monday, October 10, 2005

... i got bored ...

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	.... Sunamaru ... ( sand and the ending to a boys name in Japanese .... )
Birthday:	10/13/05
Birthplace:	hopefully a hospital ... but you never know ...
Current Location:	living with a breeder ... its gunna get so crowded ...
Eye Color:	dark brown ...
Hair Color:	brown with some natural highlights ... it gets darker as it goes down ... and i have considerabley long hair ...
Height:	5' 5'' i think ...
Right Handed or Left Handed:	both ...
Your Heritage:	er ... i guess just white what ever ...
The Shoes You Wore Today:	eh ... not wearing them yet ... but i only really wear my converse ...
Your Weakness:	people i care about ...
Your Fears:	throughing up ... hospitals ... pills ... ... and a certain someone ....
Your Perfect Pizza:	ew ... pizza ....
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	help the people i care about through problems ... and perhaps through the prosess surcvive ...
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	' ... im sorry to hear that ... ' and *hugs*
Thoughts First Waking Up:	i hope roberta isent already online ....
Your Best Physical Feature:	my ... uh ... skinny little wrists ... yes ... i have really little wrists ... does that count ... ?
Your Bedtime:	whenever i feel like it ... it usually veries from 1 to 3 am ... but sometimes i just dont sleep ...
Your Most Missed Memory:	.....
Pepsi or Coke:	um ... pepsi ?
MacDonalds or Burger King:	burger king ...
Single or Group Dates:	single ...
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Arisona and Fuze ...
Chocolate or Vanilla:	both ...
Cappuccino or Coffee:	both ... ish ... i would rather tea ...
Do you Smoke:	nah ... i got outa that ... asthma and all ...
Do you Swear:	yes ...
Do you Sing:	erm .... mabey .... when no ones around perhaps ....
Do you Shower Daily:	well ..... sometimes its uh .... forgotten ....
Have you Been in Love:	...... i would lie to say i havent .....
Do you want to go to College:	kind of ... depends on which one ...
Do you want to get Married:	....
Do you belive in yourself:	at times ... when the people who care believe in me any way ...
Do you get Motion Sickness:	not often ...
Do you think you are Attractive:	alot say so ... but how could i know ... ? i am not attracted to myself ....
Are you a Health Freak:	not usually ... i am if a freind is doing something unhealthy ...
Do you get along with your Parents:	..... not really .... i get along with dad ... and robertas bf ... but not roberta .....
Do you like Thunderstorms:	hell yes
Do you play an Instrument:	used to ...
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	aheh ... heh ... i have a hang over right now ....
In the past month have you Smoked:	nah ...
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	well ... geodon ... but for different purposes than you may think ...
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	... no ....
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	i believe ... but i do not like public much ...
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	yes ... mint oreos rock my world ...
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no ... *wishful thinking ... *
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope ...
In the past month have you been Dumped:	.... no ....
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	never ...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	i dont believe ...
Ever been Drunk:	off my ass ... plenty of times ...
Ever been called a Tease:	no ...
Ever been Beaten up:	alot ... my brother liked hitting me when we were itty bitty ... but that has stopped ...
Ever Shoplifted:	no ...
How do you want to Die:	knowing that the people i care about are happy ....
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	i dont know ... i am thinking a manga-ka ...
What country would you most like to Visit:	erm ... dont really know ... i guess going to Japan would benifit my manga-ka idea ...
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	just something unique ... different ... but a dark color such as brown is all the same ...
Favourite Hair Color:	dark ... black or brown ...
Short or Long Hair:	eh ... lingthy ...
Height:	does not matter ...
Weight:	does not matter ...
Best Clothing Style:	dark ...
Number of Drugs I have taken:	eh ... does not matter ...
Number of CDs I own:	alot ... ?
Number of Piercings:	does not matter ...
Number of Tattoos:	does not matter ...
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	... lets not and say we didnt ....
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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Saturday, October 1, 2005

' It was because of me '
You tried to get so close ...
I tried to push away ...
But somehow you didnt see that ...
Thats why it hurts so much ...
It was because of me ...

You think you are still right ...
That I am so wrong ...
You say you wont give up ...
That I am worth this pain ...
It was because of me ...

I feel you cannot see the guilt ...
Buried in my soul ...
You will never understand why ...
Ill just keep pushing farther ...
It was because of me ...

I see tears that I have caused ...
Knowing I have done so before ...
This is always what happens ...
I am a poison that will not fade ...
It was because of me ...

I think I must have caused the pain ...
That killed someone I really loved ...
And you wish to get just as close ...
I will protect you from this fate ...
It was all because of me ....

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Thursday, September 29, 2005

...
well ... i really only came here to tell people that i will be gone this weekend ... i will be at my fathers and will not be online ... but i think theres someone out there who needs to know something ... i am ... very insecure ... aspecially when it comes to being and getting close to people ... i am sorry if it hurt ... but i really believe it is best for you ...

~Sunamaru Gaara




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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

   ' Lonliness '
I know lonliness ...
I am alone ...
I am hiding ...
In a box with but one door ...
There is me ...
Darkness ...
And my soul ...
My soul as a flower before you ...
Love is it 's sweet sent ...
You follow this fragrence ...
Opening the door from outside ...
Coming close to touch this flower ...
To feel what smells so lovely ...
Yet hides in the dark ...
Your eyes adjust as you grope ...
You see a whithered flower ...
Beware the thorn ...
But it has already pricked your touch ...
And the poison begins to spread ...
A trickle of blood falls to the roots ...
Quickly it is absorbed ...
More the flower withers ...
The door slams shut behind you ...
There is no longer sence of escape ...
But dont fear , it soon ends ...
I must become alone again ...
The only way out now is death ...
Will you die to escape me ...
As others before you ...
So I am again left all alone ...

hey ... sorry i havent been around in awhile ... i am planning on fixing this site up and updating much more often ... i really havent been keeping track ... i will try alittle harder ... for now enjoy the poem ... and if you notice any changes feel free to comment so i know whats good and what isent ... good bye for now ...


You are a demonic demond!You are the highes levle
demond there is you don't have loyal friend and
thats fine with you ,you didn't tust them any
way.You are ether feered are respesterd and you
like it that way.You show no compashon.who need
love any way?


what kind of demon are you? (this quizz is for tiffany)With anime pics.
brought to you by Quizilla

~Sunamaru Gaara
9/28/5


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Sunday, September 4, 2005

' all i want is your smile '
' all i want is your smile '
i know that your upset
i can tell by the silence
you take me by the hand
and get me all alone
you tell me then whats been bothering you
i see you crying to me
i hold you tight to let you know
things will be okay again
you just need to believe
that today and everyday i am here for you
so let me comfort the pain
until it goes away
and then let me see you smile
when we have fought away the tears
show me that even for this little while
things are alright
you dont have to say a word
just proove it to me with meaning
when i see that in your smile
i cant explain the feeling
the happiness and love
so let me stay with you forever
so i can help you fight the demons
and watch we will smile at victory
in this way in another life
we will be strong enough to fight
even all alone
so we will be strong enough to find each other
no matter where we have gone
all i want is your smile

~Sunamaru Gaara
09/03/05


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