Monday, April 17, 2006

   I feel drugged...heh....*hold head* stupid animals....I have a cat and dog in the same house together...The dog barks and barks at the cat and the cat kicks the dogs ass....I have a headache from it...my mom came into my room while i was sleeping and then the dog came in and the cat was laying right there next to me and the dog jumped on the cat...she knows that my animals don't get along...heh...and and....*thinks*...oh yea....them stupid kids are gone and they are back home....Teaca hates me now b/c she says i hate her kids....i don't hate them..i love them...i just hate the things that they do....i can't hate kids b/c some day i plan to have kids myself...which i never wanted to do but some thing lately has changed my mind....but when she called me an asshole for watching her kids so they didn't kill each other and break stuff in my house i just got so pissed off..i didn't talk to her or my mom...i even refused to say i was sry...mom said "the least u can do is say sry to the kids..u don't have to say sry to Teaca just the kids"...i said i was sry to them...then Teaca had to go and try to make it out like she called us all assholes..she said "i ment to say that u all were acting like assholes not to just call u one...Its just every word u say to them is mean..Why do u not like us anymore...I rememeber when u were younger u used to love playing with them and coming over to stay with us..Now u just seem to hate us"....i was so mad that i decided to be the better..well almost better person by not entirly not saying anything....so b/c of that insident she left with all her kids and went home..i know i am mean....but i am not mean enough to call her an asshole....but my mom said something to her and she now hates us...i just simply said "u can hate me now all u want b/e i'm not here for u to like me...I don't hate u..but i love u guys and u hating me won't change anything"...thats how i view it....but now it so quiet..i can sleep in...no kids running around the house screaming their heads off...No kids getting yelled at....just my mom Danielle and me....just three ppl....so yay....i love kids....and some kids love me...i just lately decided that when i properly get my life together and go to college like no one else in my family did then i will settle down with some one and have as many kids as i or the man can handle...lol....now enough with my troubles....how is everyone?....and sry for all the trouble i cause....the om thing is so screwed up right now...so its hard to pm...heh....so i'll talk to all later...bye love all of ya...and i would like to talk to 1nonlycloud..and another person and he knows who he is...
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Saturday, April 15, 2006

   hello....today i got called an asshole...and then the person who said it was trying not to get into trouble and said that she said kids...she lied.......and tried telling my mom that...grrr...lol....i just can't stay mad at her...but i refuse to look at her or say anything to her and refuse especially to say sry...i only say that to ppl who have earned my respect..like most of u....for now i have to go...so i shalll ttyl....
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Monday, April 10, 2006

this maybe my last day as ghoshiagenrei.....so much effort....and yet it must start anew....i will create another site...this site has to many....mememories for me...but i want to know if u all think i should start another one?....
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Sunday, April 9, 2006

   I hate to say it but.....I am glad that it is sunday....b/c i am going to go back to my grandparents house and i won't have to deal with these ppl anymore...lol....*jumps for joy*..and i can go home and watch my fav anime and go for walks..up here in mansfield if u walk ur more than likely to get shot....Alot of mansfield is Ghetto....so yea...i live in the Ghetto....but its peaceful on our street...so yea....lol...but a week or two ago someone about a block away got shot......Its like there is a Mob that lives in mansfield....its like "u betrayed me A1....U know the punishment for betraying me u must die"....its like the Ghetto Godfather one oh one....its just weird...lol....i can't be all god father....but in away i like the Ghetto...its very interesting...its like a hiden synticate..lol..well i got to go..and this is my last day on AIM till next week..lol..so see ya
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Saturday, April 8, 2006

   Hello...sry thati haven't been talking to anyone.....But i have no regrets...But i have to live in the same house with 5 other ppl....And its just HELL all over again...so i hope u all have a nice weekend...really i do...and i wish ppl would get on IM....so i could talk to them....SO bored...i rearranged my room last night....i like it the way it is and it is very clean.........My mom likes it..but my computer up there won't work so i am using the in the living room..lol......well..lets hope that by the end of next week when i come back to my mom's that they are gone so its just me my mom and danielle....lol...
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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

   Sweet Raptured Life
Hold on to me now
U know i can't stay long
All i wanted to say was i love u and i'm not afraid..
Can u hear me?
Can u feel me in ur arms?
Holding my last breathe..
Safe inside my self are all my thoughts of u...
Sweet raptured life
It ends here tonight
I miiss the winter
A world of fragile things..
Look for me in a forest hiding in a hollow tree..
I know u hear me..
I can taste it in ur Tears
Holding my last breathe
Safe inside my self are all my thoughts of u..
Sweet patured life
It ends here tonight...
Closing ur eyes to disappear
U pray ur dreams will leave u here..
But still u wait to know the truth..
No ones there..
Say good night
Don't be afraid
Calling me
Pulling me As u fade to life
Say good night (Holding my last breathe)
Don't be afraid (Safe inside my self)
Calling me (are all my thoughts of u)
pulling me....
Sweet raptured life..
It ends here tonight..
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   hello again...i am so....happy...b/c we were laughing really hard at this stuff earlier...Like Ariel was spinning around in circles...and like she fell and was twitching on the ground....And her mom arrived and she was walking over there and she was walking all over the place cause she was so dizzy and she ran right into the van door and then she opened it....it was funny...b/c she stooped on her way b/c she was walking past it and she turned her foot to face the van and continued walking...LMFAO....i just can't believe she did it tho....lol..so how is every one today?
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Tuesday, April 4, 2006

   hello...i just wanted to say that....and IDC if there are many ppl out there would don't like me....oooo an i just joined xanga........and its pritty cool.....if u want u can mail me...Ghost_Sword....the name only suits it.....lol..so how is every one today?....i hope all is well...and how many of u are religious?....
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Monday, April 3, 2006

I love them both and don't want them to hate me..and i know that they will talk badly of me and alot of other things....if i break up with some one then i do not exspect them to talk to me...but i don't want them to hate me....i do not like it when i make people hate me..and its not fair to them that i treat them this way...but sooner or later i will have to choose and I will cry....i am torn between them and i do not know what to do.....some one please help me...
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i am......missing being with One n Only Cloud....i love him..yet i have another...and i am.....thinking about him all the time..and i think he hates me..and when my Boyfriend finds out he'll hate me to.......
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