Monday, October 11, 2004

   lot has changed
I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve updated, but I’ve just haven’t had any time to do any thing out of my routine. Most of my time is taken up with school, work ,and seeing bandit, that is my routine.

In school I’ve been accepted into the National Honor Society, and I’m in the French club. If that wasn’t enough I have to start leaning how to teach a class for J.R.O.T.C.

Also now every Friday Saturday I work a domino’s from 5 to 8. there are these two girl a work won just likes bossing me around the other is real shy then there is nick he is the only on I can actually relate to he is one of three in the whole world.

Luckily for me I can and do see bandit almost every day that is the highlight of my days. The only thing I look forward to is seeing her and being with her.

This week has not been a good week it all started last Sunday night when just as I’m walking out bandits drive way my right tonsil splits open. I went to the E.R. then I went insane because I was at home at the time during school will I would have bin seeing bandit, but I managed to “talk” the doctor to letting me go back to school early. Then I found out that I have this viruses so I’m taking this medicine that if you take to much you die but if you don’t take enough you’ll start convulsing and maybe pass out.

I LOVE YOU!!!
by Karen rodriguez

BABY...
as i sit here alone i am thinking about all the love that i have for you and i am sure its going stay true only 2 you,
i am here in the cold, lonely in The dark and i wish u were here but you are set apart,
i feel cold, cold deep dark down inside,
your so far from me and i miss you...
please come here so i can kiss you!
i want u right next to me so i can feel like ecstasy,
i need u right here holding me, kissing me, just to feel like u truly mean when you be saying u love me,
when i am with you everything feels so DA YUM right....
oh baby can u come over here now and hold me tight?
i never knew love could be so tough,
but now i No cause the time with you just ain't enough,
when u ain't near bye it just makes me want to burst out and cry,
i wouldn't wanna go 2 sleep cause id miss you all night baby
just know that you are my everything.
i never realized i would miss u so much...
but now i know love...because you are my love
and i will never let you go
all u got you know is that i love u and i wish u were here boo...I REALLY DO!!!
without u in my life there is no me...
it be like life in misery
your like the air i breath, i would die if u leave...
Ur love is so strong DAT it got a n**** waited impatient...thats crazy sh*** ain't it???
i miss u but I'm going to stay solid and keep it real
Ur my love for life and Thats how i feel
u got my heart and i cant live without it
the love i have for u is so much...i know u want it...
i was told a long time ago DAT u shouldn't hold in Ur feelings cause its What u DON'T say that u regret,
so saying that I'm going to be here 4 a while....so just be real and know how to value it....love u ALWAYS
Exactly how i die
by Hope

I know exactly how i will die
it will go something like this
i will come and meet you somewhere
and give you one last kiss

I wont tell you my plans
wont give a clue
ill act like its all good
then say goodbye to you

Thats all i have to do
before i die
you were all i needed
so please don't cry

I'll pick up this knife
I'll raise it up high
don't want you to stop me
don't want you to cry

The blade goes through my heart
feel the blood pumping fast
it'll pulsate through my body
till my time is up at last

My last few thoughts
will flood my head
in the next few moments
i will be dead

I got board this morning and found out that these are the two songs you never let someone listen to when they question their relationship.
LINKIN PARK LYRICS
"Don't Stay"

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go

[Chorus:]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

[Chorus]

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

With no apologies

[Chorus]

Don't stay

Don't stay

THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS
"Home"

I’ll be coming home
Just to be alone
Cause I know you’re not there
And I know that you don’t care
I can hardly wait to leave this place

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home

By the time you come home
I’m already stoned
You turn off the TV
And you scream at me
I can hardly wait
Till you get off my case

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a

Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home

I’m better off alone

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a

Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home





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