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• Frost

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

what a fuck up.....

well im a total fuck up... i lose a close friend it seems...all cuz i have a bg mouth and try to tell her i liked her...im stressed out about soooo much and i was hoping that i could come talk to ali today but i guess ya....it seems she doesnt want to talk to me and i told julia that i felt unwelcome and she asked why so i told she to ask ali and the talked and now ali like doesnt want to be around me and..... i always fuck something up somehow...... ya sooo i dont know...i just want to jump off a cliff right now... bc sucked ass most of myu family took one look at me and hide...belle make it that much worst... i was ready to kill her... i went to my uncles open coffin thing.....thatn was a mistake... i just want to go into a dark corner and cry.....fuck i feel sooo weak right now..... Peach not being here is the worst thing ever...we talk but its not the same...i need him here...i have to call ju too but i cant bring myself to do it...theres sooo much shit going on and i dont want her to worry even tho she probilly is... i havent talked to mitzy in a while... wonder how she is...wish i could call her but i have no money to get a calling card... ali was aparenttly coming to see me but she's still not here...fuck i wish i could just take back want i said friday before i left.... i had a feelng that is would get fucked up if i had said anything but Peach kept saying i should tell her and i did and look what happened. i swear its like im meant to be alone...after amber and i broke up nothing seems to work and everytime since then i sure its goin to work but it never does.... maybe one day....most likly not tho. no one really knows how depressed i am at all well now that im posting this...well thats if anyone reads it. life is just soooo fucked up right now... and theres no way out... im trying to be strong be tough....i dont know how much longer i can keep this up....before i break.... lose hope in life not like its not already happening... im not going to take the easy way out i dont see any point in someone taking their own life...but i might get sit in depression so awhile..... a long while... i dont know what im doing anymore...i dont think i even know myself right now... i dont want to bring anyone down or hurt anyone .... fuck life is hard, blows ass and right now i feel that i lost two very imporntant ppl in my life ali..and my uncle... well i think im goin to take off. sto boring all of you with my shit -Frost...

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