Sunday, August 21, 2005

Bitter is thine defeat upon a broken sunset. Face the morn alone to greet the day anew. Rise above the great and set thy faith above the distorted memories. That keeps the fight in me battling on.
Shall thou wake another day, across the tormented storm. Grey approaches me sweetly with crimson water held strong.
Tender has my mind become, destroyed from endless years of solemn tradetiy.
Tenaciously entwined in cross fire of hate and love for life's entirety.
Begotten shadows force the life to prevail and forget the fralty.
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005

  sunset has been broken now the darkness has conquered me yet again. I do not know the steps I must take in order to heal. I really am lost and I am losing myself more and more. I can not withstand the pain of not having y brothers and sister around, the pain is enough to make me become a bitter and broken soul. I have been engulfed with my own selfishness to realize that I am this way. How to change, to start anew, is a question I have not been able to answer for quite some time. I am slowl hating everything and anything, why must I become this way. Why must I become something I have been that I said I would never be like. I am a fool for my own hypocritical behavior. I can not stand this horid person I disguise myself with. Why do I wear this mask. The truth I want to discover but I am not willing to change it. WHY!!!!!!!!! I hate who I have become how come I am not willing to change. How come I am saddened all the time. How come I am am bitter towards the man I love? It is not him I am bitter against its myself and that I am not willing to change. I am bitter because I see the wa I really want to be in him and I am unable to become this. Its so hard, I just want to wake up from this terrible dream and realize I was always that way and I hope one day I might be able too. If there was a magic potion I might be able to take to be the person I once was, I know I would be happy again. What is the first step?? Please let me know I want to change but the first step is hard to see so I put it aside so I can't figure it out.
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Monday, June 27, 2005

Today was a drag,. I woke up to only go to work an a few hours later, also having to stay late. Man it sucks being a waitress. Oh well, I posted something the other day in the poetry section but unfortunately it was proper enough to post in this particular forum. its called Vampire...
Saddened before the closed door,
pouring into the glass the eternal darkened mourn,
of demening embrace of the shadowed night,
cascading its vengence into the moonlight.
Whispers draw around my clouded mind,
saught to the confused, blinded by the sublime
figures of serenity captured throughout time
a taste of tomorrow hast shown this shrine.
A furtive moment caressed in societies challice,
pursue the lips to poison with madness,
of benign cloaks of elvenkind,
lasting throughout this eternity, immortality is mine. So thats it. I hope that I can improve on my writing still. It still needs some work but thats ok.
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