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Thursday, June 23, 2005

  Another hopeless day has passed and I feel that I achieved nothing yet again. When will a day pass where I feel like I have accomplished something great, something worthwhile. I have to go to work tomorrow, another night of misery. It's so demening to my name. I feel like I am just a show for others to be amused by, bringing them their food and staring at me with alcohol upon their breathe. It makes me feel so unclean to work at a place that makes me feel like white trash. I was hoping for a better job today but alas that was virtually impossible. From the sounds of it they were just a gimmik, yeah that sounds great to be in a place where you have to sell an item to get paid, I would rather not.... Thanks though. The only thing I have that is worth everything and anything is my beloved Jason. He is the only thing in my life that I feel I can actually be something with. I really crave his attention to much though, especially when I know that he wants to go on the computer. I think I only do it because I want to always have his love. I have lost others so I dont want to loose him as well so I crave him. He is the only thing that keeps me alive and I really am thankful for that. Although I wish that I would be able to live for myself I highly doubt that will ever happen. I feel to low for me to think highly of me. I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day where I can actually feel alittle bit better about where I work, where I am and who I am, i know that will take time but I will wait until then, hopefully its not a long wait. I hate long waits. I had to wait a year once for something I really wanted but let me tell you having to wait that long just makes it that much better. BELIEVE ME!!! I will go until tomorrow though. TOODLZ,

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