Monday, November 3, 2008

Apples could be better
The title of this post isn't anything other that it is; my though as I decided to write this. It's been a while since I ate some fruits, and when I do I get old ones... u.u

Anyhow, I feel I must give you an explanation. Writing in english isn't as easy as I first thought it to be, so this kinf of keeps me from posting more. Anyhow, I decided to keep all postings here in english for the time being.

And today, the main reason of me posting now: loneliness. It's really hard when I want to talk to someone, but there isn't anyone who I could talk to online. Yes, I could try doing it offline, but it sounds easier that it really is.
Of the few people that I used to talk, most of them or don't want to talk with me anymore(for various reasons) or they now have something better to do with their lifes...
T-chan still won't talk to me, but at this point I strongly feel I have nothing to talk to her anymore. I'm much better talking with D-tan for the time being, and if not getting in touch with her, having a good friend around is always good.
N-chan... it's complicated when I talk with her, most of the times she acts like she likes me, even though she doesn't answer when I want to talk something trivial with her. Humpf, I though I could cheer her up by remembering her that there were only 9 years now 'till we needed to meet, and she went to the point of putting '9 years' at her MSN's subnick, and throwing after it the sentence: A loving heart can never be worthless. I don't know.
R-chan is still studing for her exams I think, and it's been some time since we had a chance to talk for some time. I miss her so much... To the point where, if I could talk to her, I'm sure I wouldn't mind of being alone here right now. But even though I feel she feels like this about me too, I'm scared of losing touch with her; she doesn't know how many times I kept thinking about her when feeling depressed to get rid of all bad feelings, or how much I though of how I could hel when she sent me an email saying how she was sad... Anyway, I don't want to suffocate her, neither do I want her to forget about her life to talk to me; so for now I just wait 'till she has some free time so we can talk again ^^'

I guess some of this feeling of loneliness comes from having too much work at the university to do, and having nothing of interesting to do when I'm home. I mean, of course I can watch Sailor Moon Live Action, but my connection isn't fast enough for me to watch more than 1 or 2 per day.

Anyhow, it's time for me to try playing some zOMG!, Gaia's nem MMO. It's kinda fun, but again, since my connection isn't really fast I can only play when I'm the only one using the connection.

It was good writing again, even because having a MyOtaku account is only known by me as far as I know. Maybe I tell someone of this, maybe I don't ^^"
Cya!
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