Thursday, November 30, 2006

   hello i have written some new poems:
It semed as though it was yesterday when i had hurt you,
But thats when i realized i do that everyday,
I try hard to please you and keep you safe in my heart,
But unfortunately i am only human so i destroy everything i touch,
I wanted to protect you,
But i only made things worse,
I wanted to kiss you,
But was afraid you would turn to ash and fall to the ground,
I was afraid to lose you,
But you came back to me,
I dont understand your reason why,
But i guess love never will have an explaination,
So why does it need a reason,
It doesnt,
Now how shall i explain my love for you?
I cannot for it is impossible,
But i can show you.


by:me


Your arms around me tight,
Everything was just right,
I thought you were the one,
Til you said that we were done,
Thats when you broke my heart,
But that was only the start,
Then you walked away,
As though there was nothing left to say,
No sound left not even a dogs sweet bark,
I cant believe you left me standing there in the dark,
I sat thee and cried through the night,
What you did to me just wasnt right,
But now we are through,
Theres no more me,
Theres no more you,
Theres nothing left that i can do,
Dont expect me to come and chase you.


also by:me



crappy i know but i dont care i like them so hmmmph!!!
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   today has been good
we dont have any school today cuz the weather is bad and it snowing!!!yaaaaaay!!! that makes me happy then that means no more william for the rest of the week woohoo!!!so how is everyone doing today i dont know what to talk about but anywho im listening to german reggae again is kicks @$$ i love it so much well im going to go find something to do oh!!!i got it!!!think of a girl or guy you like and how many #s are in their first name after you get how many #s are in their name pick that same amount of #s from 1-10 (you can pick each number at least 5 times so choose wisely) incase you dont understand heres an example:


name i picked:amber
name of letters:5
numbers i picked:2,3,6,1,9

then you pm me for your results it is fun cuz it tells your future in the next week with you and that person so lets play!!!!!


amber
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

hello everyone how are you doing today
my day has been good except clint reid was looking at my chest i hate him he thinks i belong to him but i dont so hahaha im so happy my birthday is this saturday and i may not be in school tomorrow cuz we might have snow the weatherman said about 1ft. so woohoo!!!that makes me happy im listening to german reggae right now its so cool cuz the forgein exchange student (andi in 11th gr)likes my sis jody so he is always over and crap anywho so he introduced me to german reggae so i love it its so cool !!! ^_^ well i dont know what else to say so byebye




love always,


amber
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Sunday, November 26, 2006

   hello
how are you doing today my day was kinda crappy my mouth hurts cuz already one of my brackets came off while i was eating BREAD!!!!!!! bread is fucking soft a bracket should not come off while you are eating bread thats messed up i hate braces grr!!!!!lol my friends keep telling me that Miah (short for jermiah) is going to ask me out and blahblahblah its stupid i dont want to go out with him he only likes me cuz he thinks im hot(but i think he needs to adjust his glasses lol)so anywho today has been ok except for the bracket crap that makes me angry i didnt get a chance to go horse riding today so that sux i dont want to go to school tomorrow to put up with williams shit about how he was talking to his mom or sum shit you know how most guys get when they get caught but not all thank god for that anywho i have sumthing to say and that is that i am not mysterious cuz so many guys ask me out and when i ask them why they want to date me they say cuz you are soooo mysterious and here i am thinking yeah ok screw you too lol but i do not think i am a mystery i think they want me to feel better but it doesnt work anywho i have nothing else to talk about how odd i am always talking about something lol well toodle ooooh lol




amber
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Saturday, November 25, 2006

i am so happy
my birthday is in 7 days im so happy i cant wait well December 2nd here i come lol so how is everyone doing today im not doing so bad my friends and i did do that camping thing but when we went horse riding jessie kept telling me that i was inexperienced and i have been riding longer than her its stupid then every time there was a gate that needed to be opened she went and told me to get and when i told her no that she could do it herself she made up some excuse and hailie agreed with her then today we went riding with my family and she went and wouldnt let me open the gates cuz she said that she would since she wouldnt want to be rude and stuff what a terrible friend no offense its just that she is bossy and always has someone do stuff for her instead of doing it herself grr i broke up with my bf cuz i caught him with another girl i must be terrible with guys cuz they always break up with me or i break up with them because they were cheating on me or something stupid i always screw things up its terrible i keep thinking all these guys like me for me but they always lie or cheat i cant stand being a displayed barbie it sux balls so the next guy that comes along hopefully will think more of me then a displayed barbie and if you are a guy who does then thank you lots




amber f.
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Thursday, November 23, 2006

HERE YOU GO CUZ IM BORED
mommys little dancer is dancing her life away shes lost out in a different world from ours bout two thousand miles from here
dont chase her just let her fly
just let her fly away from here to go where she pleases
shes gone there is no stopping her now
let her go dont chase her
just let her fly
she will survive if she takes it day by day
but if she does hurry then she will die
there she goes shes making her way to you
greet her with open arms if she survives
hope she takes it day by day
let her go dont chase her
just let her fly
just let her fly away from here to go wherever she pleases
mommys little dancer is dancing her life away

that was a good poem not really what do you peoples think about it???


amber aka goddess


1:13 PM

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*SNIFFLES SADLY*
i am very sad today but i dont know why my mom wants to see me again and my grandparents wanted to invite my dad down for turkey day but i said no because for one he wont come anyways two i dont want him to cuz he had treated me and my sis like crap so he couldnt come anyways cuz he had to work his new wife had left him which i kind of feel bad but not really i hope that doesnt sound mean but today is gonig ok i guess its all quiet at my house no one is talking maybe i shall sing and dance lol i actually like to sing and dance im happy my birthday is in 9 days so i am very excited woo hoo so what is everyone getting me lol j/k well pm me whenever cuz i am bored so yeah cya you all soon hope you have a great turkey day/thanksgiving day/gobbler day lol thats my favorite i love you all (on some days lol) byebye



yours truly,



amber aka goddess

12:51 PM
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   today is turkey day
*rolls eyes* oh joy lol no actually today will be fun i got to call my friends from connecticut so it has been good so far my friends and i are going camping tomorrow so it should be good well i forgot to tell you all HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!!!so how is everyone doing today have anything you would like to share because i dont know what to talk about lets talk about ....ok i got nothing so here you go take this quiz:
1.Why are you here?
2.Do I know you?
3.Do you know me?
4.Are you my friend or do I need to get out my tranquilizer gun?
5.Do you think I am sexy?lol
6.How did you find my site?
7.What is your name?
8.Why are you staring at my chest?
9.How well do you know me?
10.Are you male or female?
11.If you could describe me in one word what would it be and why?
12.what do you think of me?
13.Do you still think that way about me now?
14.What would you do if I got hurt?
15.If I died would you poke me with a stick?
16.If I threw a wild party would you come?
17.If you could take me anywhere where would you take me and why?
18.What do you think I look like and why?
19.Do you have any brothers or sisters if so how many?
20.Do you love me why or why not?
21.Whats your favorite song?(mine is hinder-lips of an angel)
22.Why did you take this quiz?



by:Amber aka Goddess
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

here is my life story:
well lets see.........ok ok i got it........it all began when i was born on a cold wednesday night on december 2,1992 ....skips a few years .....one day when i was five i was playing with a bouncy ball when a bee lANDED ON MY BACK SO I WAS crying and all cuz it was SOOOO scary then it flew off (days later) i was in school and got in trouble for not singing a song about colors same year i was in a tornado and over at a friends house then while they all ran to get to safety they forgot about me and there i was standing and crying in the middle of the living room(years later)ok this is the good stuff right here here goes one day i got in trouble gfor calling my third grade teacher mrs.elma mrs.elmo (oops my bad)yeah i got recess detention for that one(next year)my mom was arrested for child abuse so my sis and i spent two weeks in foster care which sux big time i always got in trouble for something that i didnt do i hated it then i ended up living with my grandparents for two years which was hard but i survived after that i went to live back with my dad and his new wife and step son i hated it so much she always told my father some sort of lie that made him angry at me i spent almost all my time at my friends houses cuz it was so bad then finally after calling the cops on my dad my nieghbors bought my sis and i plane tickets to come back to missouri so then all the way to the airport my father just lectured us about respect then when i told him that he should have tried earning iit he slapped me across the face so now here i am in Laquey,Missouri but this is way better than Connecticut its not so busy here but im happy here cuz i met all of you caring nice people ~pulls out tissue and blows nose~well thanks for listening to my story


yours truly,

amber
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   today is great
today was a nice day so i called two of my friends to see if they wanted to go riding horses so we left and we got lost it was still fun though cuz we got to explore and stuff then when i got home we decided to ask our rents if we could go camping in our field out by the woods i think it will be fun we want to do it this friday cuz thats our only free day to ourselves we dont know if we can or not but i think it would be fun well anyways happy one day early thanksgiving i hope you all have fun over the weekend i know i will except that everyone is coming to our house for thanksgiving this year so it will be crowed i dont like big crowds of people byebye


yours truly,



amber
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