Friday, April 27, 2007

Hallo Everybody.

Wie gehts? I am not well. I found out that Melissa is dating his guy named James. I now know that I can't trust her. I know that I was wasting my time with her. Now she is an enemy. I will not talk to her any more. So, the now the rest of my "friends" are with Emily or with Melissa. So, at school I have no friends in 9th grade. I only have friends that are 10th, 11th, and 12th gardes. I did hope that all of my old friends would get over there diffences but, now I don't care. At school we now are talking about what to do when there is a shoting. Most of them think they would run not try to stop them. I want to know what you would do? Auf Wiedershen.

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Hallo Everybody

Wie gehts? Ich ben gut. I found out today that Melissa is going to be fine. I guss all of my praying worked. But, now I am trying to find out if or when she wants to date me if I will want to. Because right now I don't know if I can trust her. Also if I really do love her. I feel as I might. But, also I feel as I don't and I am moving too fast. I think why she didn't want to be my friend was because she thought I was moving too fast. But, also I don't act like a normal teen. Because of my disesae I don't have the hormons that the rest of you have. So, I don't love her for only her looks. Why I think I love her is because of who she trully is. But, I don't think she really understands that. I did tell her but, I think it was too much at one time. So, I have a question for you all. How should I explain it too her better? Also how should I start the conversation? Auf Wiedershen.

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Monday, April 23, 2007

Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? Well, I was told today that Melissa is not doing well. She goes to the hospital wednesday to find out if she is okay or not. She is having problems with both of her knees. She might need to have surgery on both of them. I was also told that she is tring to do the right thing. Meaning she doesn't know which one she likes the best. Meaning between James and I. I don't know any more if I even what to date her. How I had things planned she would just get in the way. But, I do feel as I love her. Which most teens my age you would think is saying that because they want something. Well, I don't when I say love her means something more. I also don't know if I can trust her. Because of how she said that we were never friends then she goes and says that now we are friends. Well, danke for listening to my boring life. Auf Wiedershen.

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? Ich bin gut. Today I am going to church. Melissa and I are friends again. But, I can't trust her yet. That will take some time. Just like it is going to take time to trust me. Also friday we found out that this girl that goes to my school was molested by her grandpa some time ago. She had a kid and no one thought that happened. She is only 15 too. So, when we go back to school monday it is going to be talked about. Sorry that I have not been going to your sites. I just didn't feel like it because of the problem with my friends or so called friends. I now don't talk to any of them but, I do talk to Melissa. I will talk to her because she seems happy when I am around her and when I talk to her. I did go three days without talking to her. For those days she was like despondant. That is why I think she is hiding something. Auf Wiedershen und danke, for listening.

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? Ich bin gut. I went to Gretna for districs friday and today. I was in Concert choir and B#s. I also had a solo there. The choirs got a 3 which is the worst. My solo I got a 2. Which is better than what the choirs got. Emily was there too. She is in B#s. She acted like nothing was wrong today. Which made me so mad. Also Melissa is in the Concert Choir. After we sang. We were going back to Wahoo. When she said she wanted to talk to me. She told me that she was sorry and we can be friends and that she is not talking with Emily anymore. We talked all the way back. She also told me that Emily thinks everything is okay now. But, to Mel and I things will never be okay. Auf Wiedershen.

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? I taked to Emily in person and I try to make an agreement. But, she was acting like her stuck up self. So, she just kept walking. Now, I don't talk to any of my old friends. All of you otaku people are my friends I also do have some friends at my school. Last night I went to my concert and I had to sing my solo in front of a bunch of people. I did good but, at the end I had a problem. Auf wiedershen.

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Monday, April 16, 2007

Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? Today I had to sing my solo in front of the class. I did very bad. After school I went to B#s at 6:30 and Emily was there too because she is in it. When I was there Hillary was talking to me and I truned to listen I Emily started in with her drama again. After Emily called me and so I called back three times but she thought she was funny by not answering. But, then she texed me and she told me why don't I care about her feelings and some other person. So, when I called back I yelled at her and said at one time I did care about your feelings but, now I don't because I stood up for you when people were calling you a hoe and other words. Then you do this to me. Then she changed the topic and said that I know for a fact that Melissa doesn't like you and your not friends. I ask how do you know she said because we are best friends. Then she said I know what she thinks all the time. I know that we are not speaking but we still are friends. I told her that she told me that she was and is my friend. But, before I was able to finish talking she hung up. So, I am so mad at that lier/bitch.

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Sunday, April 15, 2007

Hallo I forgot to say something.

I also served communion today at my church. I was very nervous too. I hope you all know what it is. If you don't pm me and I might tell you. We have wine at my church some has grape juice. So, after if their is some left we have to drink it. I don't like it because it makes me sick. Like right now I am still a little sick. It is about 3 and a half hours later.

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Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? Ich bin zer gut. This week we started talking about Germany and World War 2. My teacher said that Germany is proud of the money that they get for the Holocaust memorials. That made me so mad. Now, to the friend problem. Emily is now mad at Melissa and they are in fights on and off. Melissa is my friend now she told me that she was not just acting. I also hope that the fight started between them was not because of me I hope some time we all can be fiends again. Auf Wiedershen und guten tag.

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Thursday, April 5, 2007

   Hallo Everone

Wie gehts? It is Maundy Thursday. I hope some of you were at church. If not well you don't need to be church to talk to God. I am feeling a little beter because God is in my life. If God says they should not be my friend or if He says I need to be away from them then so be it. So, now because I have a faith and believe in God and you don't want to be my friend because of that well you go on like that I don't care. I hope I have not made any of you mad. So, now Melissa and many others don't like me. Some of that is because of what I believe and the rest I still don't know why they are mad at me. Oh!! Tomorrow I will go on a cross walk. Will walk about ten miles. We will be caring a cross. I have one question for all of you. How care one that you thought you both loved one another trun there back on you and break your heart? I also hope that some day all of you see God's power. God bless all of you. Auf Wiedershen.

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