Nothing has changed. Still looking for an job. Still hate my dad and step mom. Still has the deprestion and the disease. How are you guys? What you all been up to?
Wie gehts? Ich bin okay. I am sorry I have not been on. Friday, had to talk to my dad. It was like for one hour. We were talking about how I feel. Cause he knows not how I trully feel. That is cause I have to do and act and look like what he and my witch step mom thinks I should. So, I have this side of me that is not who I really am for them. My dad and I talked about why I don't want to go there anymore, why I have deprestion, why I tryed to kill myself(don't worie I am fine now), what has been going on at school, how tried I am with the insults I get from my step mom and his mom my grandma, and I told him about how tried I was with all the lies he and my step mom and my grandma says, and they all saying that my mom is the bad one that is the lier. And that it is my choice if I want to go and see him or if I don't want to go see him. I hate him and I hate my step mom. That was the main reason I have deprestion. Also is why I am in the state that I am in with my deprestion and always trying to hid my feelings. Sorry you all had to hear about that. So, like I asked in the start of this post how are you all? Auf Wiedershen.
I know how stupid this sounds. But, I need to ask you all what you think. Okay it is about the Melissa thing. Most of you know what has been going on but, those that care and what to know pm me. Okay, back to it. I destoryed the friendship that was rebuilt. Cause I try to explain a letter I wrote and she missunderstood or something and we went some to something else. Then we started to fight. Then she said something and I thought she said I do not care. When I read it again I noticed that it said I do care. Cause I thought it said something diffrent I said something to her that now I really wish I didn't say. I whatI am asking you all is sould I just try to forget her and move on or should I try to rebuild the friendship? Cause like before my heart loves her but, my mind is telling me from everything I see going on that I should forget her. I am sorry about talking about this again. You all are don't like hearing this anymore. And I am sorry about that.
Wie gehts? I am okay. My oldest sister got out of the Hospital. She has some type of sist. She also has very low blood platlets. They need to take the sist out but, if they were to do sugery she might die cause of how low the platlets are. She was in the Hospital from sunday to thursday. So, well that is why I have not been on. I am sorry.
Hallo, Wie gehts? How are you? I know I sound so stupid. Cause of how I still feel about Melissa. But, you all should be gald to her that the feelings are starting to go away. Those feelings are of me loving her. Wie dershen. I will post about the con later.
Sorry for no clip. Wie gehts? Ich bin sehr gut. I am now at my cousin's house. I will be staying until sunday. Today I got my hair cut. So did my cousin. She also dyed it. The colors are red and black to look like Gurra. I think that is how you spell it. Mine is not to look like someone else. Just got it cut. I changed my mind about what I am wearing to the anime con. I am going to wear this suite like thing that is Japanese I think it is more modern then traditoinal. It is black with dragons on it in silver. I also I Japanese shoes to go with it. The shoes are to only be wore inside. The update on Melissa is the she is too busy to reply to any of my messages on myspace. That could be true cause she does have an job and is teaching summer school with my honors choir teacher. Otherwise everything is okay. I am still trying to find a job myself. So far who I have asked has said no. I am going to try the Pizza Hut that my mom worked at but quit. I did ask before she quit but the boss never replied so I am going to go in again to see if she will let me work there. I hope so cause I know how to do a lot there. Because of my mom working there. Danke for listening again. My live gets boring to you all I believe. Auf Wiedershem.
Wie gehts? I am okay. Well, I am at my dad's. The storms made it so I will not be able to go to my grandma's. But, I did get money so now at the ANIME con I can get something. I got $40.00 + my mom is going to give me $10.00. So, if you don't know how to add it would be $50.00. I can wait unlike Silver Dargon(Terra). She can't wait and is all happy and everything. Oh and now Melissa is not talking or she just didn't have to to reply. Cause she was on myspace today but, didn't send anything back. She and others of my old friends did not think I would ever get an myspace. But, as you know I do. Auf Wiedershen.
