Hallo, wie gehts? Ich bin sehr gut. I am still at my dads. I think it worked. I believe I will be going to my grandma's so I most likly will get home earily. I hope you all are having fun. Auf Wiedershen.
Hallo everyone. Wie gehts? Ich bin sehr gut. I am still at my dads. Tuesday I will be going home. I might be going to my grandmas in the morning on tuesday. There I will do more cleaning for her. Then around 2:00pm I will go home. Das ist if ich am at my grandmas. If I am at my dads I will leave after dinner. But, if I am at my grandmas after we leave to go home she will take to this coffee place so I can see if they will let me work there.
Now other news. Melissa is talking to me agian. She was talking to me about her summer. Then got into talking about James.
More other news. Tuesday or Wednesday I will be geting an hair cut for the anima confrence in Omaha. My couise Terra is also going. She is getting her hair done Wednesday at the same place I am getting mine. Then on Wednesday I will go with her back to Omaha. until the the Anima thing. It is the first one I have been to. I would tell you all what I will be wearing but, that I a little bit hard. I am wearing an Japanese Kimono and some type of modern formal suite under the Kimono. Then I will have the tradional Japanese indoor slippers.
Hallo, Wie gehts? Ich bin sehr gut. I was in St. Louis. I got back on the 31st. Of last mounth. It was around 10:30pm when I got back. We were in the bus for about ten hours. When there we went to the Getway Arch, dinner cruise centril station or whatevery it is, bush statium, and their first court house. And to six flags. I wore white there which was not an good idea. What all are you all doing?
I know this songs makes me look gay. But, I am not. I pick them because of the words that are in them and the meaning of the song. So, I hope you guys didn't think I was gay.
School is out for the summer so what am I going to do. I am not sure. I might talk to Melissa. Cause she said she was going to call me. But, I don't believe her. Her boyfriend is in New Mexico. So, might call to talk about her feelings about him. She does that know because she thinks she can trust me. I don't think she should. Since a part of me still has feelings for her. But, I am trying to move on.
I still am trying to find out if I believe in a God and those other things. I still do what things to go back to when things were easyer. But, I need to get over that too.
I have a my space now. So, if you want you can vist me on it.
I know this songs makes me look gay. But, I am not. I pick them because of the words that are in them and the meaning of the song. So, I hope you guys didn't think I was gay.
School is out for the summer so what am I going to do. I am not sure. I might talk to Melissa. Cause she said she was going to call me. But, I don't believe her. Her boyfriend is in New Mexico. So, might call to talk about her feelings about him. She does that know because she thinks she can trust me. I don't think she should. Since a part of me still has feelings for her. But, I am trying to move on.
I still am trying to find out if I believe in a God and those other things. I still do what things to go back to when things were easyer. But, I need to get over that too.
I have a my space now. So, if you want you can vist me on it.
Hallo, wie gehts? Is there really an God. I don't know anymore. I want to believe but, now I don' know what to believe. If there is I believe he is punishing me. Cause I have this disease, my friends are like emnies now, my family is always fightning, all of the animals I use to have has die/ran away/got give away.
Love and Friendship- Athrun Cagalli Kira Lacus
How can someone that you tell you love them just stop talking to you for a long time? Then one day start agian. How can friends act like they are friends then the next hate you? And I have given that letter I talked about to my so called friends. They have so far acted like it is an joke. Today was the first time I cryed in an month. I cryed because of all of this. And I was thinking about if there is a God and if there is why is he doing this to me what did I do? Now that I have thought about it he could be doing this because of the time I tryed to kill my self. But, I am not sure if that could be because I did not go through with it. I thought about how Melissa would feel if I did it. But, now she would not care. But, I will not kill my self now. But, things are bad and I am very sad but, I was able to hold my feelings in for two years so I should be able to do that agian.Danke for listening the one or two that cares.
Gundam Seed Destiny Ed 3 - I Wanna Go to a Place ...
I would really like to know what is going through Melissa's head. She acts like she likes me. But, yet she can't say for sure. I am geting so tried of it. Like to day in PE. she sat by me and kept looking over at me. She usally doesn't sit close to me like that. She doesn't even talk to me. I think today is James's last day here before he goes to New Mexico. He will be back before school starts next year. I want to believe she likes me. But, I am thinking it is all an act. But, I am not sure. Some say that it is an act.
Hallo, wie gehts? Today I found out that I made show choir. Also in PE. Melissa came up and asked me how I was. I didn't really tell her how I was. Then I asked her. She told me. She talked for 20mins. What she said was that she cried last night in front of her boyfriend and sister and mother. I asked why. She thought for what seemed like two mins. Then said cause of how all of everyone changed since last year. I found out who everyone trully are. I found out who you trully are. I found out that I have feelings for you. I also found out that I can't trust Emily any more. I did find out that I can trust you. Then she went on about how James her boyfriend is going back to New Mexico for the summer. Then I said I am sorry. Then she said you don't have to be. Then I told her that I need to tell you something. I told her that I am not trully happy any more it is all an act. I am only happy when I am around you. You make me feel warm inside. You give me hope. And now you know how you told me not to keep my feelings bottled up well, since the last time I talked to you all of my feelings have been bottle up. Then I left and when to lunch. After that we have not talked.
This week has been the worst. My moms boyfriend almost died. He had to go to three different hospitals in one night. That happen sat. We left Wahoo at 1:35am. HE was live flighted around that timme but, a little before to am hosiptal in the capital of NE. There we were told to go to the Medical Center in Omaha. There he had a srugery on is brain. He had something pop and he was bleeding inside his head. He now is in acoma.
Also nothing has gone right for me also. Mainly my friendship is being rebuilt with the ones I really didn'care if they were my friends or not. The one that I really want to become friends wiht is becoming farther and farther from me. Then they all still don't listen to my true feelings. They act like I only try to tell them things to get attention. I trully don't know why I am trying to fix things when they don't really want to be around me.
Today I have show choir tryouts. I hope I do well. Danke for listening.
