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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Atonement
Remember the girl I told you guys about? The girl who died right before my bday. Well I've been trying to atone in some form or way with her parents. Her sister and mother understands but its her dad who wishes to continue to hold the grudge and believe I was the one who caused her to die. The last time I talked with him, I brought out something that had been going through his mind but he never said. No matter what he wishes my death cannot bring her back. He wants me to die and rot in hell but I can't. To make amends I must be alive and I cannot die now. I do not fear death but I cannot die no matter how much he desires it. My soul is filled with the misery of the past but I must keep going. Her death is on my mind everyday but I make amends in my own way. For me to die now would only create more tears. Tears lead to pain and pain leads to more tears. Its and endless cycle that can't be broken until one has had enough. I have a list of people who want me dead. Its like I said yesterday, those not burned by the fires of hell only grow stronger and fight. Those who are burned well you are just screwed. I've been through hell numerous of times and each time I've come out being stronger. Those who wish I would die can keep wishing because it aint my time yet and I will continue to atone for what was done and hopefully be able to embrace the future. Later.
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