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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
-sigh-
......
I'm really, really, sad. And really selfish that I'm feeling sad.
This ongoing headache of mine has sucked everything out of me. It's as if I'm a different person. I'm terrible to my friends, and to everybody else as well. I don't deserve what I sometimes think I deserve. And now my creativity is gone. I can't draw or write any more. It's impossible. And I feel selfish to wish for it because everybody else is having a creative boom right now. It really is the only thing that I love, my only tie to an understanding of myself.
I feel as if I need somebody to adore me, to obsess over every whim of mine. That would be nice. But it's impossible. Since I'm never worth it. And everybody else comes first. Even my characters think so, and they've ditched me.
And you say things.... they're nice, but I don't think you mean it, whether you meant it or not.
And..... I feel ashamed for the things I'm good at, the things I have. There are much more deserving people out there for it than me. I really wish I could give it away, but I can't. It's a waste on me.
Please.... PM me. I feel lonely here all by myself.
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