Friday, April 15, 2005

   *sighs*
This morning I'm not so happy..
It's not that I'm sad... well then again I am...
But it's mainly,
It's mainly my friend John
(yes the one who gave me that saying the other day on my post)

See, he's sick... He has been in the hosp, for...I think 3 days so far...but his mom said he's not getting out of there for 2 weeks...at the least.

This somewhat bugs me...truly it bugs the hell out of me.
John and I joke about alot of things, School, life, our friends and each other... but the one thing we do joke about alot was starting to get to me..
Death.

See John and I are so open to it, if we knew (some how like a freaky movie sorta knowing) that one of us would die...I bet you we would just blow it off and just wait till it happened.
But there, in that hosp... as I saw him talk to his (soon to be) girlfriend..(by parents aprovle)
He just looked up at her...(he was laying on the wrong end of the bed just to get a kick out of me and her)...and all he did was smile as he went out to poke her, but held her hand.
As I watched them and as I watch him... I saw how open he was to it... I know it sounds kinda mean saying he was looking at death when he was looking at her....just me thats not what I'm saying...what I'm saying is... He just looked dead already.

As she and I where about to leave she asked John (in a just kidding kinda way) "You promis your not gonna die on us!"
John just laughed at her and said "What would I be doing on top of both of you at the same time?"
Te hehe...we both looked at each other from a short second then dropped on the floor laughing.
but she just looked at him after that and he answered, "I'll think on it." She smiled and walked out of the room...but I turned and I saw him...He looked down..

(NOW I know everyone in the world knows that when someone looks down after a question....thats not a good sign!!!!! and if you didn'tknwo that...your so dumb!)

It was then it started to scare me about how he felt...

I'm hope'n I can go see him on Sunday...

theres the bell...
I'll post again at lunch...
to everyone who is willing to look at my site.

Choas meows

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