Monday, November 1, 2004

   I got bored, and took a 'gravitation' quiz right now... I still wonder why... after I watched the first chapter, I've gotten a terrible fobia against pink cats...(for your own good, don't ask!) every time I heard the word 'cat' or 'neko', I tryed to kill the closest thing to me... my friend, the one who MADE me watch that confessed she's been planing to make me have that fobia... well, I'm rid of it now, I think... but just in case, don't manttion cats, ok? I tryed to kill my computer after
I got the resoult...(and yes, I know computers can't be killed!) although I saved the resoult for some reson... anyway, don't say any thing about cats when near me, ok? thank you! *angry face*

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*reading this post*

guess what happens next...

*tears apear in the eyes* (woildn't you know it?) oh, I'm so terrible! I'm a murderer! not fair! *sob* why can't I be good??? *sniffle* ...huh?... *wipes tears* I probably really annoyed you with all this crying... *sob* I'm sorry... *sniffle* ...I...I'll stop now...
... ... ... bye... ...
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Guardian Angel! The born protector.


What kind of Angel are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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I just did this quiz *sob* ... oh, I wish I was as good! *sniffle* I don't want to be bad! *cries more*
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   *sigh*
I'm still kinda depressed today... well, at least I didn't cry when I was at school... but who's got time to cry when they have 2 tests? I don't even think that the teacers have a right to make 2 tests per day... oh, well... not like I care... I probably have an 'A+' in both... doesn't make me happy... I always have high grades... if only that would make me a bit less evil... *eyes shine with tears* ...here it goes again! *sob* oh, why am I so evil??? *tears drop from the eyes* ...I'm off to cry somewhere alse... *crying for a very very very long time*
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Sunday, October 31, 2004

   Happy halloween...
I can't belive I forgot... guess I'm too depressed... besides, If people in my country knew I'm christian, Then lots of flying rocks would be heading my way...
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   *sniffle* ...I'm so depressed... *sob*

You have angst because of what has happened in the
past. You need to learn to let go.


Why kind of Anime Angst lies in You?
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my past? *remembers* *sniffle* *sob* I'm evil! *cries for a few hours* and I can't help it! all I can do is cry! oh, whare ever will I find a heart?


You're the Heartbroken. You loved...once but
something terrible happened and you prefer not
to talk about it. You usually sit around and
mope, You're friends try to cheer you up but
nothing seems to work.


What Kind of Girl are you? (anime pics)
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heartbroken? *sob* but... *eyes shining* *tears start to fall* I have no heart! *crying* I want one...*sniffle* but I don't desurve it! I'm too mean!

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these are two quizes I took today. now you can see why am I always depressed... how can you live whan you're evil? it's so hard to live with myself... of all people...me...why? *sob* *tears shining in the eyes* I want to be good! *sob* why can't I be good??? *cries for a while* I want to have a pure heart... to help people in need... to do good... *more tears keep falling from the eyes* ... but I can't! I'm evil! help me! make me good! I don't want to be bad! *tears keep on falling* whaaaaa! *sniffle* *whipes tears* I...I...I'm so selfish...oh, if I want a heart...others might want it to... *sob* ...if they wont get it because of me... *eyes shining again* ...why...then... *cries* ...oh, I'm so evil! taking heart from innocent people! I need to be killed! *sob* why am I alive? *sniff* *sniffle* *sob* all I do is making people feel bad... *crying* ...oh? *sniffle* ...I...I'm...probably...making...you...misrable...too... *sniffle* ...I...I'll...stop...
*going to cry on some cliff*
*sigh* ...I should jump...then I won't cause missury to people...
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   sorry for not updating...^-^U (like anyone cares I'm not doing that...) I don't really have access to internet at weekends...XP...
by the way, how's my new picture? (Green...)...what? it WAS expected, wasn't it? and I know she controlls wind... it's my second choise after earth... my third's water, though...
well, new stuff... ummm... I'm soon going to finish my book... a few girls from my class saw me writting it. they also saw my drawings... they told me I should contact some japanease producers and make an anime! ^-^ ...well, the exect words were " pokemon's producers "... they're not otaku... my book is more for little kids, and my mom says it's too long for them to read, so I guess it would succeed more as an anime... I've even created a new drawing stile for it! that book is all I do during recess... exept evading flying papers and food leftovers... for some reason, those stuff only fly at my direction... I guess I'm not very popular...(I'm the weirdest kid in town, how could I be popular?) well, no one said that life is fair... for example, at friday, me and my mom went to do some shopping. there was this box, in which you can put small change, and it will be donated to people who don't have money for food. I wanted to put some money in there, so I put everything I had in my wallet (about 75 cents). you should have seen my mom's face! she preticularly screamed: " no! don't! ". my own mom! at first I didn't belive it. I mean, she taught me to be nice to people... why would she say that? well, she did mean that. all the way home, she told me about how much we need a new refregarator. I told her some people don't even have one. and you know what? she laughed at me, and said it's not true! anyway, I don't know how would 75 cents buy her a refregarator... but if anyone would give 75 cents, then all of the poor people could buy thamselves refregarators! and she doesn't understand! I don't even know why does she need a refregarator... not like we have any money to buy something that needs refregarating... so why to bother?
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Thursday, October 28, 2004

this is going to be long... but it's very interesting! ^-^
Last night, I couldn't sleep. I've got out of bed, and walked to the window. What I saw there… so…pretty…
Wow, it looked so awesome! Such stuff only happen in anime! I'm still thinking of how it looked from the side… I've got a writing inspiration! (you know I'm a writer…) this may be long, (and it all happened in 3 seconds) but it's very inspiring for drawings (I've got a few inspirations myself… to bad I'm not a good enough artist to draw them… oh, I wish I could draw better…). If you want to skip the literaturistic part, I'll write it shortly after that… so here's my inspiring inspiration (this is how it would look from aside):

It was after midnight. A young girl got out of her bed. She looked at the window. The sky glimmered in red. Orange and pink shades softly swirled in it. A worm, thick, white fog surrounded the area. It wrapped her in its feathery touch. A pale line circled in the sky. A big, silvery moon got out of the soft fog. Pale white light beams spilt all over, sweeping the girl in their mysterious light blue aura. Shades have all gone. The street was filled with yellow light. The big white moon shined, right above the girl. She stared at it. The dim light reflected from her big, blue eyes. She kept looking, almost swallowed by the glare. Her mouth slightly opened, her eyes staring with an innocent look, not understanding. The big moon, swirling in the light bluish pink, stood steel. Time had stopped for a moment. It was only she, the moon and its silent beam, hitting the girl and goes back at the moon, reflected from her light skin and golden hair, twisting from its curls. She floated in the glow, maintaining its silence. Sparkling tears fell, making her eyes shine even stronger. They danced their way to the floor, dropping like little diamonds, sparkling in the air, smashing to pieces as they hit the crystal floor. The floor shines too, as strong as the moon itself. Light was reflected from everywhere. It was aside of the girl, above her, below her, inside her. Tears kept falling from her big eyes, flying everywhere, sparkling like broken glass. The moon returned a sad look, fading away into the pink mist. Awful darkness came, swallowing her, taking her back to reality. The sparkles were gone. She returned to her bad, crying.

Hope you haven't fallen asleep… ^-^U. I tried to make the words not difficult… got any inspirations? Write a comment, I'd love to hear! Oh, and here it is shortly, for those who didn't feel like reading high language (this is written from first body):

I had troubles sleeping, so I want to the window. I looked out of it. The sky was colored in red, pink and orange. The street was as bright as if it was daytime. Suddenly, the full moon came out. It was right above me, and lighted me with a very strong light beam, like magic. It was almost as if time stopped. There was no sound, except for the moon's silence (weird, huh? But it really was as if I heard the beam…). I looked at the moon, making an innocent look (I look SO kawaii with that look…). For no clear reason, I started crying. The light surrounded me, from all directions. It went aside me, above me, below me, through me. Suddenly, the moon faded away, into the pink clouds. It was so dark all around. The light was gone. I could feel the darkness inside me (I know I have lots of darkness in my heart…). So I just kept on crying (and believe me, I have no idea why…).

And if you think that's weird, and that it only happens in anime, then wait till you hear this: last year, at the 1st of December, the day that begins winter (also my birthday), there was a lightning storm. It was so amazing… I just LOVE lightning storms. That was the only one that year. And of all days, I've got it for my birthday.


You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
tje pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)


What season are you? (pics)
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But that's not all:
Last Saturday, about at midnight, I looked out of the window. The moon is usually right at the middle of the window's site, lighting up my bed. But that night, there was no moon. The stars shined twice as strong as they're supposed to. I looked at them and wandered about what I would ask, if a star fell. Guess what! A few seconds afterwards, that star really fell!
Tell me that isn't weird! A coincidence? Hehe, I don't think so. My life is anime! *dreamy look* too bad the drawing stile's so ugly XP… well, what do you think?

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now this is something I'm proud of!!! ^-^

OH MY GOD!!!YOU PASSED!!!You got most of them or
all of them right. You rock. You're a true
Inuyasha fan.^-^You probly know more like
me,but I didn't wont to make the quiz to
long.Please rate and message me if you
want.Thanks.^-^



!!!!THE ULTAMITE INUYASHA IQ QUIZ!!!!!You think you no more then me?*UPDATED*
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Do you know that I only saw the first apisode? (and a few AMVs)
I passed it, and I had no Idea of what the answers are!!! this is suspicious... I wonder if I ever lived in that anime... that is the only explenation... ^-~

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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

   today was quite a boring day... all I was doing was to write my book (oh, and there was school at that time too...). I also drew a few fan arts... to bad I don't have a scanner... sakura looked pretty good... and that boy from yesterday keeps bothering me... talks about hentai, that pervert... well, exept that, there was nothing... so that's it for now....
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

   well, seeing as how people DO enter my site, I guess that I don't waist my time when writting... guess I'll update every day, then...
today thare was nothing special. just a test at history, and... a boy that CLAIMED his in love with me... it's pretty uncomfortable telling him to get lost, but my first impression of him isn't very good... he acts like a real fool (and copies at quizzes... it's SO annoyying..)... but I don't know what to do. VERY luckily, the teacher made him seat next to me, at the same desk...(god oh god, WHY???)
oh, what am I suppossed to do? could you live me some advice at the Comments? I'm so helpless!
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