Sunday, May 25, 2008

   I' already fourth year
i cannot seem to ignore my feelings of leaving the campus life, wherein my problems will only be studies":exams, projects, quiz ect... Today i say, that they are really big deal but after my graduation, the main concern will be "the real world". I have not realized hyow i have been so reliant to my parents, teachers and classmates.
I have denpend on my financial support to my parent. they have given me both luxury and necessity of life but now its time to return the favor. i would have to help them in the studies of my brothers and sisters and specially not become a burden.
to my teachers, I have relied on their approval. I always do what they say ,although not completely because some of those instructions i follow with grunts and complaints. But but the world outside the campus is different you are responsible for your life. There are no grades for you to work with just you. imagine i relied on grades to express my life. how sad. i realized that most of the time i have worked for their approval thatt all this time my actions were based from what they say. now they are gone, what am I?
My school years, i have a place in a class room. I was the studious serious type of person. i was comfrotable at that place. but in the real word, its different. I would have to find my niche work on it and be satisfied. I do not know with other people but to me, i need to perform a role, somewhat like a self importance behavior. It sustains my confidence and satisfaction in life.
may be life is not so bad after all. I would just have to decide for it by my self. Now, this is the real frontier, i need to use my creativity in order to live a life beyond mediocrety. there are lots of opportunities unlike in accademics that there is just one way,grades.