Sunday, December 9, 2007

Oh. Em. Gee. I am feeling quite giddy. MY FERRET JUST WENT BEHIND THE COUCH! NUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!! ........ I made this awesome friend today, and her name is... As...... Ahaha, she'll probably kick my arse if I say her real name. XD But she's awesome! CHYEAH! xoxo Britty

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Saturday, December 8, 2007

Hmm... So I wore my "I Love Girls" shirt yesterday. A lot of people were shocked that I actually like girls. Then like a lot of the Bi girls liked me shirt. Pretty funny. On my way home from school the handicap bus was across from mine, and these boys were making fun on this handicap boy on the bus. It made me so mad. Then we were waiting at a red light, and there was a homeless man sitting on an island in the middle of the street with a sign asking for money. Of course the boys thought that was funny as well. He was shivering. It was so sad. If I had money I would have given it to him, but I didn't have any. It pissed me off because they thought it was funny though. I know what it feels like. Maybe not being homeless, but not having funny. Oh, and it's official. I'm NEVER going to get a girlfriend. Ever. I act like I don't care, but in reality I do. I really, really do. I want someone special. I want someone who lives near me. Who I can actually see and touch. Won't happen though. I'm going to be single for life. Anyway, I'm tired. I haven't eaten anything since... I don't know when. I'm gonna go to bed. Night. xoxo Britty

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Friday, December 7, 2007

My dad didn't end up picking me up yesterday. I was exited for some reason. Mostly because Caitlin's never seen my dad, and finally she would, and everyone else in color guard. Then it was past 2:25, the time he was going to pick me up, and I knew he wasn't coming. My mom called him the night before to remind him that he had to pick me up. She said he sounded messed up. So, he was most likely high. I don't know why I get disappointed. I mean, I should be used to it. He does this to me all the time. He "forgets". Right. Yet he can remember that he has to go to other things for Leah and Bobby. (Half brother and sister) Sometimes I wonder if he forgets that he has another daughter. I got on the bus to go home, and I felt really sad. I was about to cry, and I asked my friend Ariel to sit next to me, and she goes, "I can't sit next to you. I can sit behind you, but not next to you." I asked her why and she said, "Because, you know I sit with Eric, it's like a rule." So I was like, "Whatever." She asked what was wrong, but I wouldn't tell her because I obviously was less important compared to fucking Eric. Thus that made me feel even more depressed, which made me want to cry even more. I didn't though. It's weird.. I don't cry. No matter how much something hurts, I don't cry. It's like I have no tears left. The only thing I have left is blood, and soon that won't be left. Ugh.. I just wish I could cry. It feels nice when you finally can after a long time. Anyway, I have to take a shower and get ready for school. Today I'm wearing my, "I love girls" shirt, 'cause I didn't wear it the other day. Along with my rainbow earrings that Caitlin got me, and maybe my rainbow belt, which she also got me. So, enjoy your Friday guys! It's finally Friday! Love you all! *Muah!* xoxo Britty

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Thursday, December 6, 2007

Anxiety attacks, anxiety attacks, anxiety attacks..

Today's the annual inspection for ROTC. Freaking out about it. Commander called my house yesterday and he told my mom that if I don't go to school he'll come here, and get me. I don't doubt that either. Commander doesn't lie. I guess he's going to let me pass out pamphlets to the parents who come in. I don't know. Then he's going to put me in a platoon with other kids who have back problems. I have mild scoliosis, so standing for long periods of time hurts. So, I'll be able to sit if I need to. Commander's also going to make sure the area manager doesn't come near me. The area manager inspects everyone, and he asks questions. Like who the president is, and stuff, and you have to answer, "The honorable George W. Bush." I wasn't at the inspection last year, because I took laxatives to keep me out of school because I was so afraid. Plus, my mom was in the hospital at that time and I was with my grandpa. So he thought I was sick. I ended up losing four pounds because of that. School scares the living bajeesus out of me. Then I have to do this. If I don't I'll be dropped from the unit, and at this point I really don't care much anymore. I'm sick of being so afraid. I just want to be courageous. No more being a pussy. It's not that easy though. Almost forgot.. To top it all off I have an appointment with my counselor and my dad. He's picking me up from school. That's going to be awkward. Nervous about that as well. Second time seeing him. Anyway, it's midnight. I don't think I'll sleep, but I mine as well try. I hope you all have a great day. *Hugs* xoxo Britty

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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

It's 5:27 AM, and I'm actually awake! Lyke oh my gawd! Today, I'm wearing my shirt that says, "I Love Girls" that I got over the weekend. How much do you want to bet they're going to make me change? 'Cause it's inappropriate! *Grumbles* I don't care. I'm still wearing it. If they tell me to change, I'm not gonna do it. So, they can kiss my bootie! Oh, and I was talking to Santa on AIM yesterday. I asked him why he says, "Ho, ho, ho" and he said he didn't know. Brittyb13:I want a girlfriend for Christmas SantaClaus:Santa can't manufacture love, that's something only you can make. Is there anything else you would like? Brittyb13:I want Dani Campbell from A Shot At Love with Tila Tequila for Christmas, Santa. SantaClaus:While everything I bring is made with lots of love, I can't actually bring love itself. That's up to you to find. Is there anything else you would like? Haha, Santa sucks. Anyway, I hope you all have a great day. Bye bye! xoxo Britty Edit: It's 5:39 AM, and I'm having an anxiety attack. Probably no school today. Not till I figure something out. *Cries* I hate my fucking pathetic self. I hope I die. EditEdit: I think my bird Banana has bloody stool. I looked in his cage, and there's something that resembles bird droppings that's red. I can't tell if it's bird seed, or if it's from him. I hope to God it's not from him. If he dies on me I'm going to bawl my eyes out. He doesn't look like he's doing well. *cries* I love my birdy. I don't want him to die.

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Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Today my lower back has been hurting so much. I can't even move basically. My nose hurts really bad too. I think I like got punched in the nose in the middle of the night, or something. I have bruises all over my legs, and they hurt. I changed my theme. I despise Christmas. The only thing I like about Christmas is the candy canes, egg nog, and the tree. I love having a tree in my house. It's flippin' awesome. Although I don't like the fact that it had to be chopped down. We have a fake tree though. The real one's are too expensive. I'm like the Grinch when it comes to Christmas. I don't know why either. Ever since I found out Santa wasn't real, I didn't like Christmas anymore. I was looking at Christmas icons, and they have those gay, "All I want for Christmas is you." Pfft.. Screw that. I don't want anyone for Christmas. Nor do I want anything. Ha, I seem to be in a grouchy mood. That's 'cause I am. I'm sick and tired of being lonely. *Smashes head on desk* Anyway, if anyone read this thanks. It's a bit late, so I don't know if people will. xoxo The Grinch

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Monday, December 3, 2007

  

I got a ferret yesterday from Petco. So now I have two cats, a bird, and a ferret. Lots of pets! Never enough. Anyway, back to the ferret. I named him Silly. Why? Well, yesterday he was being such a goof ball, and he kept making me laugh, so I kept saying he was silly. I figured I'd name him Silly because he is. He doesn't look like the usual ferret. You know how they're like brown and dark colors? He's light. He's like albino compared to the other ferrets, but he's not albino and he's not completely white. He consists of light colors. I'd take a picture, but I don't know where the USB cord is, so I can't. He's really cute though. He's about two to three months old. So he's still a baby. Which means he's teething. He was biting my mom yesterday and she was getting all pissed, and no matter how much I explained to her that he's a baby and teething she didn't seem to get it. He's got a chew toy though, and every time he goes to bite me, I put that in his mouth. He has a huge ferret mansion. Seriously. My mom's boyfriend built it. It's wicked cool. He doesn't know how to climb up the ramps yet, because at the pet store he was in this little square box, and there weren't any ramps. He'll learn though. His hammock is zebra print. He's pimp, yo. He loves it too. You put him on there, and he zonks out. It's sooo adorable! He has this little igloo made out of fleece, and it's his house. He likes to scratch in it. He poops in a litter box! I was like, "Thank God he's potty trained!" Makes it easier, all I hafta do is scoop his poop out. He's like a wittle baby. I wuffels him! <3 So, I'll post about how the weekend went with Caitlin and Kelsey tomorrow or something. I don't want to make this too long. Though I doubt many people will read this anyway. I hope you all have a great day! Loves ya all! xoxo Britty

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Saturday, December 1, 2007

I'm hyper. I don't know why either. I'm horny too. God dang it! I hate being both at the same time! I think I'm scaring poor Maura. Haha >_< I want to do Ali. I want to grab her by the shirt, and push her against the wall, and totally have hot lesbian sex with her. .... Caitlin and Kelsey are coming over today. I still don't know if the other Caitlin is coming over. I'll have to drag her out of the house. We're gonna hopefully go to the mall. Depends on how my mom is being. She's sleeping right now, so chances of anything happening are slim. Oh well's! I likes my site. It's bom digity! Just like me! My kittes are cuddling. *Everyone awe's* Aww! Kitties! =^.^= Sylvester smells like ass. XD Yucky. ANYWAY! I gottsta go's. See ya's! xoxo Britty

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Friday, November 30, 2007

Site's under construction at the time. It should be done later today, or sometime. I saw my dad at the meeting yesterday. It shocked me, I didn't expect him to be there. I went to see my friend Caitlin last night because she was sad, so I told her I was gonna go see her and hug her. I gave her three hugs. She's so adorable! Her mom died a few years ago, and today her grandma brought her to the grave, so that of course upset her. She's supposed to come over on Saturday. I hope she does. I have a HUGE crush on her. She told me that she might have a crush on me too, and that she's confused because she's never had one on a girl before. I'm gonna un-confuse her this weekend. I'm supposed to be getting my ferret today. Hopefully I will. Anyway, that's all I really have to say. I hope you all have a great day. It's Friday!! xoxo Britty

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Their Fingers Rape His Cavities

WHEN I TOUCH MYSELF I AM CONJURING YOU! So, I'm addicted to the song "Retarded in Love" by Say Anything. Along with "Wow, I can get sexual too!" Awesome songs, yo. Let's see... I gotta go to school today. I didn't yesterday. My assistant principal called, though I don't know what he wanted. So, I'm in poop up to my knees. I guess people at school miss me. I highly doubt that, but.. Meh. Thursday there's going to be a meeting that involves me. My grandma, grandpa, auntie, mom, dad, counselor, and my counselor's supervisor are going to be there. I have a feeling they're going to try to get me in the hospital. Bring it on, betches. Thursday will be the first time I've seen my dad in about maybe two years now. That's if he remembers. He didn't remember to call me on my birthday, so.. I doubt he'll remember that. Getting a ferret on Friday. My mom's boyfriend is building a cage for it. That way it won't cost so much. Saturday is the holiday parade. I have to be in it for color guard. I forgot the drill. Well, parts of it. Caitlin and Kelsey are going to watch me in the parade. Ha, which will make me suck more. I remember in past parades Caitlin and I would always get our flags tangled together. Funny! I always get my flag tangled with someone else's. It's annoying! I'm hoping that Caitlin and Kelsey will be able to sleep over this weekend. As well as Caitlin. Haha, two Caitlin's. Confusing. I should get Brittany to come over. Then there will be two Caitlin's and two Brittany's. LAWL!.... If those two sleep over though, I might have to contain myself. Especially with Caitlin. I don't know.. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her since Sunday. It's really weird. She's younger than me. In the 8th grade, and I'm in 10th. Her and I were like sisters growing up. Now I'm crushing on her. It's weird. Ah girls. Too many. Way too many. Well, I'm gonna try and sleep. Probably won't happen. I hope you all have a great day! xoxo Britty

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