Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Life is weird. It has weird twists and turns. It's defiantly sprung a surprise on me. Probably does that everyday. It's just... unexplainable. No matter how much you want to hate life, you really can't. Sure, it sucks. I know that. I'm not even going to deny that, but.. It's life. Life is what you make it It's yours so why not make what you want of it? For the most part it'll seem like it sucks, but it'll get better. Everyone deserves a chance at life. I really have no clue why I'm posting about this. I mean, I hate life. Yet here I am posting about it. Weird. I'm just glad I was able to have another chance. Another chance to prove that I'm not as bad as I seem. Hmm... If you're reading this, I just want to thank you. I want to thank you for talking to me again, and caring. I want to thank you for still loving me, even though I'm not great. I want to thank you for being the first person to open my eyes. I want to thank you for being the strong person you are. I have to go to bed, so I'll go to school tomorrow. Hopefully. It's been hard having to leave my mom. Especially because she's been suicidal. I'm going to try though. xoxo Britty

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Monday, November 26, 2007

Yesterday turned out better than I thought. Here's who came: -Caitlin -Grandma -Grandpa -Kelsey (Grew up with her, and hadn't seen her for years.) -Caitlin (Kelsey's cousin, another one of my best friends when growing up. Also didn't see her for years.) -Kim (Kelsey's mom) -John (Kim's boyfriend) -Little Kid (Don't remember his name, John's son) -Mom -Me At first I was bummed out about my birthday, and I told my mom I was just going to spend all day in bed. Which I did for the most part. At least until one in the afternoon. Then I decided to take a shower because my mom kept saying Caitlin was coming at three. Caitlin ended up coming earlier, because I asked her too. We watched some of the death scenes in Final Destination 3. Some of them are pretty funny. Then I opened her presents. She got me a lot of stuff. Here's some of the stuff she got me: -Rainbow belt -Black blanket with rainbow stars on it -Rainbow magnet -Rainbow earrings -Round black bracelet with rainbow skulls on it -Frog earrings -This awesome squishy frog -Frog key chain with another frog inside it -Frog that goes on my doorknob -Warm vanilla sugar perfume -Lip gloss -Little tin of mints -A pin that has a tree on it with arms that says, "Hug Me" -Gloves with Jack the skeleton on them -Two pins from The Nightmare Before Christmas -Jack skeleton key chain -A little angel ornament that says "Believe" on it Inside the card she gave me there was a pad duct taped to the side and it said on it, "The year supply of pads for you!" I laughed so much. See, she had asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I said, "A year supply of pads." Ha.. So, yeah! She got me a lot!! Her mom got me some stuff too. She got me: -This little angel that says my name on it -Sweet pea perfume -A necklace that has charms on it, such as; "Health", "Smile", "Courage", and "Strength" -A Webkins frog I think it was really nice of her mom to get me things. I have to write her a thank you note. My mom got me: -Ferret food -Ferret water bottle Only no ferret. I'm going to be getting it on Friday. My grandpa and grandma got me: -Green bracelet -Green earrings -Digital watch Kelsey, Caitlin, John, and little kid gave me: -$20 Then I opened up the million of presents she got me that I listed up there. We went outside and played with my flag a bit. Then Kim drove up in the parking lot, and I couldn't see if it was them because I can't see that well with my glasses on. Turns out it was them. It was weird seeing Kim, Kelsey, and Caitlin. I hadn't seen Kelsey and Kim for maybe six years or longer. I saw Caitlin a few years back. So, it was awkward and we didn't talk much. But then we started talking a lot. Caitlin and Kelsey are wicked hot! I'm not kidding. Though Kelsey is hotter. Caitlin found a love letter from Jenny when I was with her, and it started off as "Dear, Wuvey Poo" and they kept making fun of me. I tackled her to try and get it back. It was funny. Kelsey was like addicted to the Germ X stuff I had. Ha.. She kept trying to feed me too. It was fun though. It was nice to see them again. They might sleep over next weekend. I'm gonna have to control myself. I wanted to play spin the bottle with them. :3 Instead of cake we had cheese cake, I like it better than cake. So, yeah. It was fun. I hope they had a fun time. Hopefully Caitlin (not the one that I haven't seen for a while) had a good time. I want to thank you all for the 21 comments. Along with the birthday wishes, and cards. It was really nice of you all. *Huggles* Thank you! ^^ I'm going to head off to bed. Night. xoxo Britty

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Sunday, November 25, 2007

Today's my 16th birthday. I could care less. My head hurts, and I feel like I'm going to vomit. I was going to kill myself the night before my birthday. I didn't do it, obviously. I still can though. Maybe I should. Ashli and Brendon aren't talking to me. Makes me feel ultra special. Caitlin's pissed at me or something, I don't know. I don't know what I did. I never know. Emily hasn't been on in like weeks, though she probably forgot about me. Kiki acts like she hates my guts now, and she probably does. I just.. I want things to go back to normal. *Slams head off desk* What a wonderful way to start off my birthday. Enough of my complaining though. I hope you all have an excellent day. Enjoy it while it lasts, because then it's back to school Monday. -Britty

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

Hm. Hmm.. Hmmm... Hmmmm.... Hmmmmm..... Hmmmmmm...... Hmmmmmmm....... Hm. Hmm.. Hmmm... Hmmmm.... Hmmmmm..... Hmmmmmm...... Hmmmmmmm....... It's the hmm pyramid! Phear it! Oh wait! My friend Caitlin went to the mall yesterday and she went to Spencer's and that's a pretty nasty store, and she saw a lollipop there that looked like a penis and balls. So, I'm sitting here, and my grandpa's on the couch and he goes, "I want a lollipop!" Then that thought popped into my head and I was like, "Do you want a lollipop shaped like a dick and balls?" My grandpa was like, "Ew! That's gross! Brittany! I thought you were so innocent!" I was laughing my ass off. It was hilarious! Now, I will leave you with pictures. I am done! Done, done, doneeee!

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Friday, November 23, 2007

So, yesterday was boring. I pretty much slept the whole day. Food was good though. Hmm... Today's my grandma's birthday. She's turning 63. I don't know if we're going to be seeing her or not. A lot of my close friends have been acting differently. I don't know why. I don't like it very much either. I don't know.. Maybe they're not my friends anymore? That's probably it. Either that or they're just fed up with me. *Sigh* Oh yeah.. I finally know I'm not pregnant. I hadn't gotten my period for two months, and yesterday I finally got it. Early birthday present from my body. So now I'm all achy. This is the one time I really hate being a girl. Meh.. I'm going to go. I hope you all have a great Friday. -Britty

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving. My cousin goes away to boot camp today.. Though I don't want him to go, I'm thankful that he's going. I'm also thankful for my friends and family. Especially because they've put up with so much of my shit. So, thank you. -Britty

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

I love how my site looks! *Huggles it* It's sooper kawaii! Scroll over the pictures of the lady bugs and see what it says. XD My mom came out into the living room with the liter box and goes, "Brittany, want a treat?" So, I look over my shoulder and there's cat poo looking right at me in the face. I was like, "Ewww! Get that thing away from me!" Today I'm going to Hot Topic to get a coat. There's one there that I like. It's black and it has skull buttons. Hopefully it'll be there. With my luck it won't be. *Grumbles* Then, I'm gonna go to the pet store and look at the bunnies there, and get more millet for my fat ass bird. Seriously. He does NOT eat like a bird. He eats like a pig. So, umm.. I want to apologize for my post yesterday. I've been having my up and down days. Just like everyone else. I want to thank you all for your comments though. *Hugs* Well, that's all I gotta say. Oh wait. Caitlin and I are friends again! At least I think. So, yeah! Bye bye! xoxo Britty

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007

It's midnight, and I should be in bed but I'm not. I don't care either. There's too much going on in my head right now to sleep. My mom said she's going to call the truancy officer if I don't go to school today. I say, bring it on. It's the week of Thanksgiving I think we should have the whole week off. What's the point of going to school for two days? There's no point in my going to school. I'm a failure now, it's not like I'll be able to succeed all of a sudden. I'll just end up working at a fast food restaurant. Bring that on as well. I'm sad, and the one person I want to talk to made me sad. It's not like she did it intentionally, but I'm sad. Though I think she could care less, and why should she? I mean, she has no feelings for me in that way, so it doesn't effect her. I just need to suck it up and accept that. Easier said that done. I've just realized the world, and the online world are not places for me. Maybe hell is the place for me. Then again it feels like I'm in hell right now. I just don't belong anywhere. I shouldn't have been born in the first place. I hate waking up and thinking that every morning. I don't know what will make me think otherwise. Probably nothing. God, I have to focus on the present, but I can't. My mind wanders into the future. Makes me sick to even thinking about it. I don't want to. All I know is, if I'm a freshman again next year, I'm going to kill myself. Literally. High school just isn't the place for me. Therefore I should probably drop out, and become a homeless person. Ugh.. I've got nothing positive to say or think about. Don't be surprised if I'm not around for a while. Not that anyone will care, or notice. //Gruesome Heart//

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Monday, November 19, 2007

Today's Ashli's birthday. Happy birthday sweetie. xoxo Britty You know you want that Ashli. *winks* Jkjkjklololol! I want that. XD Of course the girl would be real, but Betty Boop is hot.

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

Time: 12:09 AM Listening to: "When I'm Gone"-Simple Plan Mood: I'm feeling more than one mood.... O.o OH MY GAWD! It's like an actual formal blog! What the hell does blog mean anyway? I mean, there's a "b". What's the b stand for?? My birfday is in... *counts* 7 days. 7 days and I'll be 16. Dun, dun, dun! My mom said I can get a bunny for my birthday. Either a bunny or another parakeet. Thing is, I want to get Banana (my bird) another friend, but I don't want anything to happen to him. Plus, I want to train him, and if there's another bird he'll totally ignore me. So, I'm thinking I'm gonna go with a bunny. Bunnies are cute and fluffy! *Starry eyed* Let's see.. I've been watching Fruits Basket. It's a good anime. Episode 6 has been the funniest so far. I'm up to episode 14 now. The opening sucks. Not the song, but the opening. It's so plain. Haha, Jackass is on MTV, and Johnny Knoxville put a baby doll in a car seat, and he put it on top of the car, and started driving with the car seat on top of the roof, and tons of people were telling him to stop. So, he'd stop and pretend to cry, but then he'd get in the car and start laughing. Haha, it's awful, but funny. XD I love watching Jackass. Anyway, that's all I have to say. I hope you all have a great Saturday. xoxo Britty

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