Friday, November 16, 2007

So, I was eating a Boston Cream doughnut earlier, and I was practicing tongue fucking it. Lmfao.. I'm so perverted. It's 12:45 AM, and I can't go to sleep. Chances are I won't be going to school today, like I didn't yesterday. I don't have the energy or strength to go to school. I've been trying so hard. My counselor is going to my school today, so.. I'm gonna get bitched at if I don't go. I don't care though. Changed my theme, as you probably already noticed. Dinosaurs! <3! I've always loved dinosaurs. I used to watch that show Dinosaurs on Disney. Ha, I loved that show. Baby Sinclair was so cute! "Not the momma!" XDD I also watched all the Land Before time movies, along with the Jurassic Park movies. My all time favorite dinosaur is the Pterodactyl (yes that's how you spell it) They're cute! That's a Pterodactyl. Oh yeah.. I wanted to ask if you guys have any suggestions for a song that'll go with my theme? I can't find one. So, if you know of something that might work, please suggest. Well, that's all I have to say. I hope you all have an awesome Friday. *Hugs* xoxo Britty Baby Sinclair

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

So, it's 4:24 AM. Having an asthma attack. I've been having them all night long. Don't know why. Today's Mattie's birthday.. God I miss him. Thing is, I still have Brendon to remind me of him. Even though he's still not Mattie it's still something. I talked to Mattie last night. I told him how I would have taken his place any day. That he deserves to live more than anyone in this world, even if his life wasn't that great. That he had Brendon to love him. I swear, I would take his place so he could still be here. What's done is done though. Nothing I can do will bring him back. Even though I believe he's never fully left. When it was warm out I'd see a butterfly every day. It'd follow me too. It's as if Mattie was sending me butterfly kisses. So just because he's not on this earth physically, he's still here. Just in the sky. Watching us all and guiding us. I asked him to keep Brendon save. I ask him that frequently. Ha, funny thing is.. Mattie is more my God than God. I ask him for advice and help all the time. *Sigh* Happy birthday Mattie baby. I miss you. Everyone does.. -Britty EDIT: It's raining outside, and I love the rain. I think Mattie is showing me that he's okay, and that he's here. Oh my gosh.. I just realized I saw ducks yesterday, and Mattie likes duckies. :3

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

My mom has to go to court today. For, you know.. What she did last month. I don't want to recap the whole event, so if you happen to be curious as to what she did or don't remember then go to page two of my archives. She's not getting a trial, she's just going to plead guilty. 'Cause obviously she is. I just hope whatever she gets isn't bad. Like, jail time for example. I don't want her going there. So, the result to all of this is me being very anxious more than usual. I couldn't get to sleep last night, and I'm really gassy. It's annoying! Anyway, I guess that's all I have to say. I hope you all have a great day, and make sure to say hello to someone in the morning. Makes a person's day worth while. xoxo Britty

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

PLUTO: The God of the Underwear!... I mean, Underworld!

Yesterday I worked on my project for History. It was on the God's and Goddesses of Rome. Pretty interesting. So, I made a poster, and my grandpa was over and he looked at it and he goes, "Pluto, the God of the Underwear?!" Haha XDD It was funny. Doesn't take much to amuse me. I think I'm going to research the Gods and Goddesses of Egypt. We did a lot on Egypt in sixth grade. This year we touched up on the subject, but it wasn't as fun as sixth grade. So, seeing as how I'm obsessed with Egypt I think that's what I'll do one of these days. Hmm... I've decided that I'm going to clean the house. This way I'll be occupied. Ha, plus the house needs cleaning. I'm going to start off small. So, it'll be the bathroom one day, then the closet next to it, the closet in the hallway, the kitchen, the living room, and my room. I'm not about to clean my mom's room and come across some surprises. >_> No thanks. I figure it might take more than one day to finish one room. Today I might start off on the bathroom if I don't have a lot of homework. So, I might not be on much. Unless I get lazy and decide not to do it at all. XD I feel like cleaning though. O_O CLEANING SPREEE! Brittany the Goddess of CLEAN! Haha... Anyway, I have to take a shower. I hope you all have a great day. ^_^ xoxo Britty

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Monday, November 12, 2007

So, I've got this cousin. His name's John. We were really close when we were young. He's older than me. Anyway, I technically grew up with him, and then because my relationship with my dad wasn't so good, I started drifting from the rest of the family. Which I wish didn't happen, but sadly it did. So, because of that I'm basically out of the loop of information. I found out yesterday that John is going to boot camp. Which ultimately means he's in the army. He doesn't have to go to war, but in three years if it's still going on, he'll have to. Nonetheless, it still makes me upset. He won't be in NH. Which makes it harder. Knowing that he'll be far away. *Sigh* Here's the conversation we had yesterday: JMiNiLAXKiD24:hey kid... sadly i am going to the army Brittyb13:Seriously? JMiNiLAXKiD24:100% Brittyb13:why? JMiNiLAXKiD24:money, education. Brittyb13:Does that mean, you're actually going to go to Iraq? JMiNiLAXKiD24:not entirely. JMiNiLAXKiD24:and not for at least 3 years Brittyb13:Okay, good. JMiNiLAXKiD24:and by then, who knows how it will be. Brittyb13:Well, hopefully there won't be a war going on. JMiNiLAXKiD24:that's what im hopin for. Brittyb13:You best be alive to!! Otherwise I'm gonna have to kick some serious ass! Ha. JMiNiLAXKiD24: :-P JMiNiLAXKiD24:im too tough to die. Brittyb13:True. Brittyb13:So, are you like going somewhere? I mean, where are you going after boot camp? JMiNiLAXKiD24:im going to fort jackson, South Carolina for 9 weeks, and then Fort Sam Houston TX for 16 weeks. Brittyb13:What are you going to be doing? JMiNiLAXKiD24:medic. JMiNiLAXKiD24:im gonna save lives Brittyb13:Woot! Go you! Brittyb13:So basically, you'll kinda be like a vet after? JMiNiLAXKiD24:after 2 years, im technically a vet Brittyb13:Cool. Brittyb13:Did you know that I'm in NJROTC at my school? JMiNiLAXKiD24:NO! Brittyb13:Ha, I am. JMiNiLAXKiD24:are you planning on going anywhere after? Brittyb13:I don't know yet. I haven't decided. JMiNiLAXKiD24:what branch is it for? Brittyb13:Navy JMiNiLAXKiD24:ahhh JMiNiLAXKiD24:i thought about navy Brittyb13:You seriously have to meet Commander, he's so funny. JMiNiLAXKiD24:nice. Brittyb13:yeah JMiNiLAXKiD24:i honestly recommend going further. the benefits are amazing, they pay for college 100% Brittyb13:Yeah, I might. JMiNiLAXKiD24:that's why im doin it pretty much JMiNiLAXKiD24:i might join the ROTC at UNH when im back in school Brittyb13:That'd be cool. It's fun. Brittyb13:Hmm.. you should have told me sooner! MEANIEEE!! JMiNiLAXKiD24:haha im sorry JMiNiLAXKiD24:its written on my facebook. read it. Brittyb13:Ha, okay. Brittyb13:You're gonna miss my bday. :( I'm turning 16. I'm becoming an old fart like you. JMiNiLAXKiD24:haha i am pretty old. Brittyb13:lol Brittyb13:Are you gonna be the first one in our family that's enrolled in the army? JMiNiLAXKiD24:well, grampy was in the airforce Brittyb13:ooh JMiNiLAXKiD24:and leos father was a marine Brittyb13:Ah.. Brittyb13:Hmm... do you think you might become an officer or something? JMiNiLAXKiD24:it depends on what ROTC at UNH asks of me. JMiNiLAXKiD24:id rather not live there, but it would beat going away for another 6 months of officer candidate school Brittyb13:yeah Brittyb13:Well, even though I don't talk to you much, I still love you. So, just remember that, okay? JMiNiLAXKiD24:awww i love you too kiddo JMiNiLAXKiD24:give me your address. ill write you a letter or 2 Brittyb13:okay JMiNiLAXKiD24:my mom really misses you Brittyb13:I miss her too Brittyb13:A lot of crap has been happening the past few weeks JMiNiLAXKiD24:that's no good. JMiNiLAXKiD24:everything ok? Brittyb13:For now. Brittyb13:My mom like went nuts... Ha, to the extreme. She's better now though. JMiNiLAXKiD24:oh boy. Brittyb13:yeahh Brittyb13:that was fun Brittyb13:Anyway, I'm not feeling so well. So, I'm gonna go to bed. But remember, I always love ya!! That I do! I think of you as my brother, plus I look up to you, and let me know before you leave, okay? JMiNiLAXKiD24:i will definitely let you know!! feel better kid. take care JMiNiLAXKiD24:also, ill be home 2 weeks for x-mas. i better see you. Brittyb13:okay Brittyb13:bye bye So, I'm bummed out about that, and tons of other stuff. Life just keeps getting better and better. *Grumbles* xoxo Britty

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Friday, November 9, 2007

I Miss You..

I miss Emily.. I told myself I was going to get over her, because she no longer likes me. It's just not that easy. I couldn't go to sleep last night because I was thinking about how badly I screwed up. How I yearned for her to say the things she used to say to me, and knowing that she loved me. Now she could care less if she talked to me. If only I could be that way too. The only reason I stopped talking to her is because I saw one of her post's and it said this, "We've reached the end of our rope. Honestly, I couldn't deal with it. She always had more problems than I could fix. So, THE END." Just knowing that she couldn't stand me because of my problems made me feel bad. I know I have problems, I just trusted her. I thought she would be there for me. I didn't want to overwhelm her with my problems any longer, so I thought by not talking to her it'd help. It only made things worse. Eh.. Complaining about it isn't going to make it any better. I just miss her. I hate feeling the tension we have between each other. See, it's starting all over again. People are leaving me. Dropping like flies.

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Thursday, November 8, 2007

I went to school today in my uniform, because it's Thursday. Thursday's are uniform days. I didn't know that we didn't have uniform day because of the parade on Sunday. So, I was having major anxiety attacks. To the point that my heart was skipping a beat. I was picking at my finger so much that it started bleeding. So, my mom came to my school to originally bring me a change of clothes, but I was so anxious that she ended up dismissing me. I'm pathetic, I know. Anyway, hope everyone else's day was better. xoxo Britty

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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

It's so weird how the happiness of someone else can make me so happy. My house could burn down right now and I'd be like, "All right!" I could run around naked screaming, "Isn't life grand?!" and not even care what people think. I could arrive to school and get punched in the face and say, "Oh! Thank you for that gift!" Seriously, nothing could bring me down right now. Why am I so happy? Well, because my Brendon is happy. Knowing he's happy means the world to me. He's been through so much, he deserves to be happy. I think he has a new boyfriend. *Smiles real big* Dakota. I like him. He's a sweetie. So adorable. Him and Brendon would make world's adorable-est couple. Usually I don't feel this way about a guy being with another guy, because I'm into girls. It's different with Brendon though, maybe because I love him so much. I mean, obviously I have nothing against it. I just don't think it's cute, like tons of other girls do. Although Brendon and Dakota are cute. All I know is Dakota asked Brendon out. I'm thinking Brendon said yes, because he's so fond of Dakota. He better have. Otherwise I'm gonna have to kick his tushy. Really though. I've never loved someone like I love Brendon. I seriously love him as if he was my son. I'm not a mom, and I don't know what it feels like to be one, but I love that child more than live it's self. I felt that way about Mattie too. I still do. He'll always be my Mattie baby. I think this is a gift from Mattie. You see, I feel less stressed. I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I can actually breathe. I actually feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Feels great. So, thanks Mattie baby. Anyway, I hope you all have a fantastic day. Especially you Brendon, and Dakota. *Huggles* xoxo Britty Me: Watching Banana. "He looks sick or something." Banana: *Poops* Me: D: That's why. XDDD

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Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Happy Birthday!

Today is Ashley's birthday! Yay!! Happy birthday chica! You're so old!!! Ahaha... >_> Just kidding! *Sings happy birthday* This is Happy Birthday rap style. Happy birthday homie G!! *gunshots in the background* Happy birthday homie slice! Happy birthday dear homie g fozizzle my nizzle. Happy birthday to you!! *sirens in the background* Happy Birthday Regular Style: Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday dear Ashley! Happy birthday to you! So, ya'll best wish her a happy birthday! Yes, yes, yes, yes! Den we have the other Ashli's birthday coming up, and den mine. Wooohooooo!!! Anyway, happy birthday sexy Ashley! *Blows nose bubble* (That seriously keeps happening to me >_>) HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Love ya! *kisses* xoxo Britty

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Monday, November 5, 2007

Yesterday was fun. Well, partly. When all the drama wasn't happening, it was fun. I talked to Brendon, and Ashli yesterday. It was fun. Especially because Brendon has been disappearing from theO, so I was able to talk to him a lot more. Those two are my gay lovers. Haha.. Brendon is my wittle gay boy, that likes cuCUMbers. Ashli is my soon to be wife. I was laughing so much though. It felt good to laugh. So thanks ya Brenda (XD), and Ashy! *huggles* I was being evil to Dayday. Sorry babe. I just wanted all your attention, but I can't have it. I hope you forgive me. *huggles* Oh, and I talked to Chris He's awesome, you should all go make friends with him. ^^ I was also talking to Jenny She's cool too, so go check her out also! Almost forgot! *le gasp!!* I talked to Kiki last night, like I always do. Me loves talking to her! ^____^ I loves me Kiki! *huggles* Thanks to all of them, I wasn't bored out of my mind. *group hug* I love 'em all! Those are like my bestest buddies. I have more than that, but I'm just listing the peeps I talked to yesterday. Today, Becki is gonna call me. I hope. I'm excited!!! EXCITED! Haha.. She's also another one of my bestest friends. ^_^ So, I'm psyched about that. Lots of advertising! If ya'll wanna meet good people, those are awesome people. So, make friends with them! Last, but not least. I changed my theme. What do you guys think of it? Think it's crappy, awesome, good, okay? What? I love the song. Haha.. >_> It sounds so cool with it being a techno remix. Awesomeness! Anyway, I hope you all have a great day. PM me if you wanna chat. Bye! xoxo Britty EDIT: I just got off the phone with Becki. Haha, it was kinda weird... Her voice is so cute though! *EATS IT!* ._. OH MY GOSSSHHHH!!! *floats away* Ahaha... >_> I'm okay..

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