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Wednesday, October 17, 2007


It's late to be posting, but I don't care.

I didn't go to school today because I was so depressed. Like, beyond belief. So, I stayed in bed all day. If I don't go to school tomorrow the truancy officer is going to bring me. All thanks to my mother. I've only missed four days, that's within the amount we're allowed to miss. But, I plan on going tomorrow anyway. Even though I don't want to.

I got blood on the couch, I hope my mom doesn't notice. I'm so desperate to hurt myself that I took apart a razor you use to shave with. *Sigh*

My mom almost put me in the hospital yesterday I think it was, or the other day. I don't remember. But, I haven't been eating, and I've been cutting a lot more. So, she said that I need to be sent away to get straightened out.

I'm feeling so fucking alone. No one fucking talks to me anymore, and if that's how people want to be, then so be it. I can't make them talk to me. It's not in my power. I'm still thinking about Emily, but it's not like she gives a shit. I'm trying to talk to Brendon, but he won't answer me. UGH! I GIVE UP! I FUCKING GIVE UP! If no one wants me around, then I fucking won't be. Okay?! Okay!

*Sigh* Sorry.. I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of everyone's shit, and my own. I'm just going to go now.

//x

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