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Friday, October 19, 2007


   So tired..
There's a football game tonight, and because I'm in color guard I have to be there to be in the half time show.
My dad said he'd go.
I haven't seen him for about maybe over a year.
He always tells me he'll go to one of my things and he never does.
So, I stopped asking him to go to my events, to save myself from disappointment.
Only this time I asked..
He better not disappoint me.
Otherwise I'm going to be so pissed, and upset.
I think he can manage to take a break from the pot, and beer for one night.

Then my mom's friend's son is going to be there too.
He's 16, and we used to be best friends when we were younger.
Of course we didn't get along much, but we were still friends.
I haven't seen him in forever, and I could hear him talking to my mom on the phone, and he sounds so weird!!
His voice has matured so much.
It's creepy.
My mom was on the phone with him for like an hour..
Kinda weird...

I took to noticing that all the leaves have changed color.
The trees look so beautiful.

There's this lake called Massabesic Lake, and it's in Aburn, New Hampshire.
If you drive up one of the road's near the lake, you're up on a hill, and there's a beautiful scene of the lake, and the gorgeous, colorful, vibrant trees all around.
I wished I had my camera.
It would have been a beautiful picture.
Despite my crummy mood, when I saw that when I was in the car, it just awed me.
It was beautiful.

I've decided to leave Emily alone.
No point making her life a living hell.
Doesn't mean I'm going to stop thinking about her though, or checking up on her.
I'm just going to disappear, like she wants me to.

I haven't heard from Brendon.
I'm getting worried.
I know he's okay..
I just know it, because he's Brendon..
My Brendon, and even if he's gone...
He'll be with Mattie..
Ah God.
That sounds awful.
This is all my fault.

Anyway, you all have a great Friday.
TGIF.

xoxo Britty

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