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Birthday
• 1991-11-25
Gender
• Female
Location
• In a tree of course.
Member Since
• 2007-09-25
Occupation
• Tree Hugger
Real Name
• Britty

Personal

Achievements
• Umm... I have no clue.
Anime Fan Since
• Digimon, didn't know what it was till 8th grade. So, I'm still a newb when it comes to anime.
Favorite Anime
• Love Hina, Ouran High School Host Club, Strawberry Panic!, Kashimashi, Fruits Basket, Blood+, Digimon, Naruto, and of course Hello Kitty! =^.^=
Goals
• Get my tongue pierced. XD Get an awesome tramp stamp tattoo, and I wanna be a vet. So, I gotta whip out those good grades.
Hobbies
• Hugging trees, color guard, NJROTC, obsessing over girls, rainbow collector, etc.
Talents
• I can hula hoop for about two minutes without it falling down. I can also pick things up with my toes, change the car radio with my toes. Pretty pathetic stuff. XD




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myOtaku.com: Gruesome Heart


Thursday, November 15, 2007

So, it's 4:24 AM.
Having an asthma attack.
I've been having them all night long.
Don't know why.

Today's Mattie's birthday..
God I miss him.
Thing is, I still have Brendon to remind me of him.
Even though he's still not Mattie it's still something.

I talked to Mattie last night.
I told him how I would have taken his place any day.
That he deserves to live more than anyone in this world, even if his life wasn't that great.
That he had Brendon to love him.
I swear, I would take his place so he could still be here.

What's done is done though.
Nothing I can do will bring him back.
Even though I believe he's never fully left.

When it was warm out I'd see a butterfly every day.
It'd follow me too.
It's as if Mattie was sending me butterfly kisses.

So just because he's not on this earth physically, he's still here.
Just in the sky.
Watching us all and guiding us.
I asked him to keep Brendon save.
I ask him that frequently.

Ha, funny thing is..
Mattie is more my God than God.
I ask him for advice and help all the time.

*Sigh*

Happy birthday Mattie baby.
I miss you.
Everyone does..

-Britty


EDIT: It's raining outside, and I love the rain.
I think Mattie is showing me that he's okay, and that he's here.

Oh my gosh..
I just realized I saw ducks yesterday, and Mattie likes duckies.
:3
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