It's midnight, and I should be in bed but I'm not.
I don't care either.
There's too much going on in my head right now to sleep.
My mom said she's going to call the truancy officer if I don't go to school today.
I say, bring it on.
It's the week of Thanksgiving I think we should have the whole week off.
What's the point of going to school for two days?
There's no point in my going to school.
I'm a failure now, it's not like I'll be able to succeed all of a sudden.
I'll just end up working at a fast food restaurant.
Bring that on as well.
I'm sad, and the one person I want to talk to made me sad.
It's not like she did it intentionally, but I'm sad.
Though I think she could care less, and why should she?
I mean, she has no feelings for me in that way, so it doesn't effect her.
I just need to suck it up and accept that.
Easier said that done.
I've just realized the world, and the online world are not places for me.
Maybe hell is the place for me.
Then again it feels like I'm in hell right now.
I just don't belong anywhere.
I shouldn't have been born in the first place.
I hate waking up and thinking that every morning.
I don't know what will make me think otherwise.
Probably nothing.
God, I have to focus on the present, but I can't.
My mind wanders into the future.
Makes me sick to even thinking about it.
I don't want to.
All I know is, if I'm a freshman again next year, I'm going to kill myself.
Literally.
High school just isn't the place for me.
Therefore I should probably drop out, and become a homeless person.
Ugh..
I've got nothing positive to say or think about.
Don't be surprised if I'm not around for a while.
Not that anyone will care, or notice.
//Gruesome Heart//
