Tuesday, May 22, 2007

ok
Hey guys,
You know we all have dreams right. things we want to accomplish. little things we have believed in accomplishing since we were munchies(my word for younger people). Have you noticed that many people stop believing in them before their even a teen. Becuase they believe their "impossible" so they settle for less.
Then are the ones that keep believing with nothing in mind to accomplish them. they think what will i do after i have made my dream come true. Or they think that what if my dream doesn't turn out to be what i hoped? I mean i don't see any help coming from thinking that way. They won't know until they find out for themselves. And who knows it may just end up being the best thing they ever did. They fear the disappointment or the supposed "meaningless" wondering of the world after they have accomplished it. Instead they let the mere thought of their dream help them through each day.
In my opinion i don't believe that's right but that doesn't mean i don't understand the people that do so. My dream is to travel the world gathering books, helping people, and writing so i can bring smiles to those around me. I will be a pediatrician and help everyone i visit with a goal to help and not a goal to gain.(ok i know it's cheesy but it's my dream. *smirks* i hope i accomplish it and i don't just like many already in the world give up on it or have no means whats so ever to accomplish it. lol. ok i know this was kinda random but i was thinking about it and i started wondering about my dream then i started thinking about all the other's around me. I hope everyone's dream comes true. But i know that's way too much to hope for so instead i hope that i help those around me to accomplish theirs in any way i can. *sighs* haha. i guess i sound kinda stupid. lol.
sorry guys
*smirks*
oh and saddiez i commented on someones site saying that since i was only fourteen i was just a little innocent girl thats only fourteen and know's nothing else of the world. *smirks* i was explaining how it was an inside thing and i think they may have believed me. But i don't think age says anything about the kind of person you are or what you have done or how much wisdom and courage you have inside you. But then again i could be wrong on that account. *shrugs* you never know.

Alright here are my questions to you:


1. What is your dream?
2. Do you believe your going to accomplish it?
3. Have you ever judged someone before getting to know them (this can be on the bases of age, sex, skin color, etc...
4. What is your view on what i discussed?
5. Do any of you know how to dance? (alright this may seem random but i am adding it cause i really want to know)
anysways ttyl
~deathstyle~

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Hey
Hey guys
ok i have one more thing i have been pondering or whatever but i will put it up after school
Right now i am only here to say
TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!
I am going to miss everyone?! i am leaving everyone and it sucks. I am going to know no one at my new school. (but then again there's nothing new about that)
I nervous about highschool. anysways i gtg. see ya guys later
ttyl
~deathstyle
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Sunday, May 20, 2007

The answer
ok i have been postponing this way too long so here it goes
the labrynth i was talking about was not the labrynth of life or death because even those end at sometime. the labryinth i was talking about was the labrynth of suffering. the labrynth that goes on through life and continues after death.
The only way out of this labrynth is forgiveness. i know it sounds cheesy but it's true. Things that do not go right, things that seem ok at the time because we could not see the future. If only we could see the endless string of consequesnces that result from our smallest actions. But we can't know better until knowing better is useless. THink about it. What do you lay awake at night wondering? You wonder if you did something right and if not hoping for forgiveness. Either forgivess for yourself or someone else. Even at times you have to forgive yourself. That is the only way out of the labrynth of suffering.
lol i finally typed it
anysways
ttyl
~deathstyle~
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Friday, May 18, 2007

Hey
I just realized something. That i am a extremely selfish person. And that thought sickens me. I mean it. I can't explain it but it's kinda like everyday i think i should go and do this (so i can help out someone) but i don't. I don't like that. *sighs* I guess i have to do my absolute best and try to fix it.
Shoot i have exams next weeek and it's the last week of school. I don't get that. Why have exams on the last week? why can't we just relax? (0_o another selfish thought)
I start highschool next year and i am sooooo nervous about it. Well not so much nervous as dreading it. I don't know why but highschool seems a lot like heck to me. And plus all that i am not going to the same highschool as my friends so i am most probably never going to see them again. And that completely sucks. I value my friends and i don't enjoy losing them just because my education wil be better "challenged" at another school. My dad wants me there and he wants me making straight a pluses. yay. -_-. I guess i am supposed to be perfect. (wow i do a lot of complaining. *sighs* i guess i am just another little brat) that thought is disheartening because i want to do my best and understand. Complaining about things never makes them better. I just have to do my best i guess. lol i guess you guys have had enough of my whining so anysways ttyl
~deathstyle~
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Thursday, May 17, 2007

DEANA CARTER lyrics

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

BRYAN ADAMS lyrics

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*sighs*
*sighs*
i feel so tired right now. Of everything.i feel like dirt. god. *sighs* anysways i guess i'll get over it. Sorry but i'll post the answer later. I haven't posted in a while. sorry bout that. DO you guys want me to post the answer? I don't care either way.*sighs* anysways ttyl.
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Sunday, May 13, 2007

Hey
Hey guys
I was reading this book called "looking for alaska" and it's awesome. The guy in the book was good at memorizing last words. Well the book centered around one particular last words and answering the question they asked. here is the exerpt

He-that's Simon Bolivar- was shaken by the overwhelming revelation that the headlong race between his misfortunes and his dreams was at that moment reaching the finish line. The rest was darkness. "Damn it." he sighed. "How will I ever get out of this labyrinth!"

Alright those were Simon Bolivar's last words. My question to you is. What labryinth do you think he was talking about? And How do you think it is that you can get out of it?

I already know the answers to those questions but i want to know your opinion on them. I will post up the answer tomorrow.
ttyl
~deathstyle~
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Saturday, May 12, 2007

Hey
Terrible sick Stuff happens everyday but not only to wolfs it
happens to every living thing, even humans. If it didn't i guess it would be a perfect world actually if a lot of stuff didn't happen it would be a perfect world. unfortunately it isn't. So all we can do is try our best to help though we may not be able to do much. Another of the endless sad truths of life. *sighs*

I don't really have a specific religion. kind of believe in everything. If someone tells me something then i'll believe in it. Kind of stupid i know but i don't see the point in telling one person their wrong while saying another person is right while not knowing the truth of it all myself. Anyway religion is just a safe barrier for people. they want to know there's a higher power that will help them no matter what. They don't like the idea of being alone. religion is also a way to explain what happens after death. They don't like the idea of their loved one's or themselves disapearing after death. Here's an exerpt that may better help you understand what i am saying because i know i may not be making sense. "People,I thought, wanted security. They couldn't bear the idea of death being a big black nothing, couldn't bear the thought of their loved ones not existing, and couldn't even IMAGINE themselves not existing. I finally decided that people believed in an afterlife because they couldn't bear not to". This explains exactly what i think on the subject even though this is an exerpt from someone else. I am not saying it's wrong i am just saying it happens because in truth humans are weak creatures. lol sounds wierd when i say it. lol.

Another thing about us is that we are verry selfish. We love not for everyone else we love for ourselves because we don't like being alone. and when we do love we expect something in return. Another selfish notion. We hate not because we truly believe it's someone else's fault and we want justice but to have the security and backup so that we can convince ourselves taht our fate is our own fault. WE make our own choices but we still blame. We humans are verry selfish. Another one of those sad truths.

We do a lot of things wrong but we also do a lot of thing right.

I know that we humans are weak creatures but we are also verry stuborn. SO when we decide to help The Worst thing on earth couldn't stop us. We may be weak but we can decide between good or bad (in our point of view) in the face of pressure and still do what we think is right. So i guess that's one good point about humans.

Humans form relationships because they are scared. They are afraid that there may not be anyone else in the world that understands them and there maybe never will. They are afraid to admit that the only truth in this world is that we are born into this world alone and we will die alone. Even twins for that matter have to be born one by one and die one by one. Even if someone kills herself/himself after their loved one has died they are still themselves dying alone. Humans fear being alone. Humans fear the dark abyss. That is another reason they fear death. We get into relationships because we want to believe that there is someone else out there that understands us fully. Someone else out there that may join us in death. We love because we are selfish.

But the good thing is that we are kind. Sometimes inadvertently but sometimes purposely. We are kind because we want to make ourselves feel better. We are kind because we are selfish. Have you ever noticed that when you do something kind for someone else that you get this warm happy feeling inside. Well that is the reason we are kind to others. Though the good thing about this no matter what the reason for our kindness we just brought a smile to someone else’s face and that in my eyes no matter what caused you to do it deserves that feeling. There is already so much darkness in the world. And it increases every time we say something hurtful without remorse or when we do something that we do not regret though we know it to be wrong. We do things to destroy the beauty around us everyday but on the occasion when we do something to increase it, even though it may be for a selfish cause, It deserves to be rewarded. Because no matter what the cause you just increased the world’s beauty and that says something.

ok here are some comments i posted on another friends site but it thought they were truthful so i thought i'd post them up get ur opinions on them. If you got this far in reading these hats off to you. sorry it was so long. once i got started i couldn't stop. wierd habbit. I may answer those questions later. sorry i keep putting it off. *smirks* ttyl
~deathstyle~
ttyl
~deathstyle~
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Friday, May 11, 2007

wow maya of the wolves found this and i am kind of copying it but i thought it was beautiful

Would you stop a Falling angel, if she came to you?
Would you call her name, to make her fall for you?
Or would you let her go and marvel in her grace, and let
her join the heavens,
to fall for some other face?
I hope you are ok.

I just went to schliterbon it was AWESOME!!! i hung out with all my friends and we swam but am tired now so i am going to go. Will post the answers for the questions later.
oh and a pet peeve is somehting someone else does/may do that annoys you.
ttyl
~deathstyle~
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