Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Hey guys
Hey, i've been um.....*shrugs* ok i guess. *Pokes everyone* sorry for the cheesecake exclusion last time. *hands the rest of u cheesecake* lol. um....lots and lots of homework. extremely worried. at this rate we're gana get a heart attack because of highschool. lol yea i know it's overdramatic but *Shrugs* feel like it,
hm.... i'm gana post something up. i found it on a friends site. i'm not sure if i posted it before and if it seems like i'm reposting it sorry. really bad memory with these kinds of things ^^;
What would you say if:

1.I committed suicide:
2.I said I like you
(for opposite gender):
3.I kissed you
(for opposite gender):
4.I liked someone you didn’t:
5.I was hospitalized:
6.I ran away from home:

What do you think of my:

7.Personality:
8.Who are you?
9.Are we friends?
10.When and how did we meet?
11.What do you think of me?
12.How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
13.Do you love me?
14.Have I ever hurt you?
15.Would you hug me?
16.Would you kiss me?
17.Are we close?
18.Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
19.How long have you known me?
20.Describe me in one word.
21.What was your first impression?
22.Do you still think that way about me now?
23.What do you think my weakness is?
24.Do you think I'll get married (if yes to who)?
25.What reminds you of me?
26.What's something you would change about me?
27.How well do you know me?
28.Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
29.If so tell me now? (or PM me)
30.Do you think I would kill someone?

anysways ttyl
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Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Hey
Darn i've been tagged. *glares at mori and chase*
The rules are:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more people are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

1)I don't get mad easily
2) I have a twelve year old sister
3) i was born in India
4) I can speak three languages
5) My families really funny but also very strict
6) um...i cherish every one of my friends and family
7) i have old taste in music
8) I love to read
9)I love coffee
10) I dislike games like these
11) i laugh a lot
12) I can play the piano
13) I'm extremely shy
14) am verry boring person
15) I dislike screaming
16) I love the color blue
there are 16 facts about me because i got tagged two times. *grumbles* -_-. chase and mori.....*pokes both of them*

i tag
1)Somegirl
2)Keeper of Souls
3)bamandchris
4)Darkwolfdemon
5)m3m3nt0m0r1
6)Umm
7) CDaisuke
8) Master Hiko

good news i haven't died yet ^^. oh and to the people i tagged *gives each of them a cheesecake* i wish u luck.
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Monday, August 27, 2007

hey
hey guys.
u may be right. what the person said was blunt. but blunt is always good. *shrugs*. it just pointed stuff out about me that i didn't know.
highschool hasn't killed me....yet that is. lol.
um....it went.....well it went. that's about all i can say about it.
art and chinese are interesting. i get to choose a chinese name with an english meaning (dark light, moonlight, etc.) any suggestions?
We're getting to disect a lot during biology. YAY. lol sorry. i like to disect things.
We're reading a bunch of stuff for engligh. first we're reading jane eyre (i've already read it so it should be easy)
walking might be a problem. the buildings i have are about two miles apart and i'm kind of a slow walker. lol. i'll work on it.
um....i have a problem. most of the people that meet me on here can't think of me as shy....except well i'm shy to the point of pain. i'm almost people phobic. lol i know it sounds like i'm over reacting but seriously i'm not. all the friends i've made in rl so far have spoken to me first. i have a hard time speaking to people because i get nervous. but the people that know me well kind of have a hard time shutting me up. tori's trying to help me with the problem. main word trying. lol.
*smirks* but i will do my best i guess.
i'm feeling.... *shrugs* can't really say. *sighs* sorry i'm kind of worried. lol i know i worry too much. *pokes somegirl and kag*. kind of worried about my grandpa....
lol um....*hugs all of u*. *tries smiling* *hands out cookies* *smirks* so....what's new with everyone else?
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Sunday, August 26, 2007

hey
hey,
i have a bit of a head ache. lol but i guess it will go away. i'm feeling kind of down because of my grandpa....lol well it's nothing i guess. *tries to smile* hm.....*pokes everyone of u*
hm....i'm incredibly bored at the moment. i want to do something but nothing comes to mind.
still nervous about highschool. i told my sis she could choose my outfit on the first day of school. *hits self* what the freak was i thinking. lol. now i remember. she's bossy and i usually can't say no. *smirks* mostly everyone know's i'm a pushoever when it comes to her and a whole bunch of other stuff i guess.
a friend of mine pointed out characteristics about me that i didn't even know i had. *shrugs* i'm still brooding over some of them. lol. don't think he'll realize who he is considering he doesn't comment much and well...we only talked once or twice. he's still a cool friend though.
um.....hm....well i guess i'm really bored. i'll post up some quotes.
1)Beautiful things are discovered not made.
2)Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away.
3)Best friends know that ur slow, stupid, and mess around, yet they don't care about being seen with you in public. Because their idiots too.
4) A friend would comfort you when he leves you, a best friend would go up to him and say "you gay aren't you?"
hm....i never did answer the question from last time. the question was: What do you think a human being wants from life?
i think it could be either of these: happiness, kindness, acceptance (<- that's the one i'm leaning towards), challenges, someone to love them. lol i know brood answer. when i figure out the answer i'll let ya know. *smirks*
anysways will ttyl.
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Saturday, August 25, 2007

hey
hey guys. i'm feeling a little better. *smiles* lol the screaming stopped. *is still shaking* ohh yea.
school starts on monday. i'm am soooo nervous. it's not even funny. i got my schedule. here are my classes
advisory 9
personal fitness
Chinese 1
algebra 1
English 1
world geography
art 1
biology
haha. i'm so going to get lost on the first day of school. *thinks* actually i'm pretty sure i'm gana get lost the whole first week of school. lol. anysways i wrote a few new poems but i dont feel like posting them so i'll do it later.
ttyl
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Thursday, August 23, 2007

hey
hey guys, lol i'm such a moron. i mean that literally. i forgot an important fact that i learned a while ago. the fact is that everyone has a dream or goal right? well unless u accomplish the dream or goal ur way and not someone elses it won't mean anything. because then it won't be right. and plus everyone always says half the fun of going somewhere is the journey.
again i will repeat i'm a moron.lol.
k here's the question:
what do u think a human being want's most from life? (happiness, challenges, etc.)
how was ur summer?
anysways ttyl
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Sunday, August 19, 2007

hey
*sighs* way too much yellling go on at the moment...*shrugs* i guess it'll end soon. *keeps shaking* i hate yelling.
hm...guys nothing much to say. school starts in about two weeks. yay *sarcasm*
sorry. really not looking forward to it.
k i have a quote from a friend that i would like to repost. it's from m3m3nt0m0r1 or momento mori. i really liked it

Before

Before you struggle to get what you don't really want, stop. And consider what an exquisite miracle you already are.

Before you spend time complaining that things are not going your way, think for a moment. And see that everything that is, can be put to positive purpose.

Before you waste your life worrying that you might lose it all, gently and lovingly calm your thoughts. Realize that what truly has value can never be taken away.

Before you blame others for all of your troubles, take a step back. And understand that the way to control your own destiny is to take full responsibility for your life.

Before you allow fear to hold you prisoner, remember this. You can learn from the fear, you can use it to more fully prepare, and you can then move confidently ahead.

Before you allow any person, thought, feeling, event or situation to get you down, take a deep breath and consider. This moment is still unfolding, and you can choose right now to make life better than it has ever been.

~Ralph Marston~

questions for u:
1) what do u think of the quote?
2) any questions for me?
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Thursday, August 16, 2007

hey guys
lol um...i seemed to left some of u with the impression that fish camp meant that i was actually going fishing. um,...sorry about that. fish is what they call freshmen (no idea why) and it was just a freshmen gathering. it went uh....lets say it went ok... lol
k. guys here's a poem. i didn't write it. i got it off of a friends site. she reposted it. i'm not one for love (in that sense of the word). *shrugs* in fact i could totally live without it but this poem...made a lot of sense. and it's really good so i'm gana repost it.


I'm sorry
that I bought you roses
to tell you that i like you

I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you when you were drunk

I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants

I'm sorry
that I open your car door,
and pull out your chair like I was raised to do

I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"

I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not a jerk

I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things

I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club

I'm sorry
I WOULD RATHER MAKE LOVE TO YOU THEN JUST SCREW YOU...
LIKE SOME RANDOM GUY.

I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to,
but never good enough to date

I'm sorry
That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,
but when we went out you went home with another guy

I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,
but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend

I'm sorry
If I start not being there because it hurts being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new jerk comes around

I'm sorry
If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work

I'm sorry
that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.

I'm sorry
If you read this and know somebody like this
but don't care

But most of all

I'm sorry
For not being sorry anymore

I'm sorry
That you can't accept me for who I am

I'm sorry
I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good
enough to make it in your world.

I'm sorry
I caught your boyfriend with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for...

I'm sorry
That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.

I'm sorry
That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your boyfriend was threatening you instead of spending time with my family.

I'm Sorry
That I cared

I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night talking about how you wish you could have done something different.

Ladies always complain and gripe to their friends that there is never any good guys out there, and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them. Well ladies next time you're complaining, maybe look up to see who you're complaining to, maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual, screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"
Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.

If you're a guy and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry "

If You're one of the FEW girls with enough BALLS to repost, and you would never make your guy feel this way, repost as Subject "Girls dont realize these things"

lol k. there was the poem. i really liked it and i thought people make this mistake way too much. so i reposted it.
anysways i may post a poem of my own tomorrow...still thinking about it.

anysways um...for questions.
1)my school starts august 27
2)i've already been to the fish camp so there's 3)not much to guess now. lol
4)i don't really have a problem with it. it's just that i don't know anyone this year. not exactly a new situation to me but i'm still nervous.

questions for u:
1)ok...given the choice to have any occupation. fictional or non fictional. what would u choose?


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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

hey
hey guys,
lol, well i'm glad that everyone thought the poem was ok...i don't personally like it but *shrugs* w/e. i'm still thinking about posting a more recent poem. it's undecided.
*sighs* lol i'm kind of depressed but it will pass.
hm...i have fishcamp tomorrow. it's this thing for freshman where they get to know each other. it's from 1-4 pm. haha....well i am kind of nervous....
*shrugs* we'll see how it goes.
well the tiredness hasn't past. it's still not sleepiness. it may because i'm worrying a little too much. i've been told i do that. *smirks*
kag no my poems are not better than urs. i didn't lie i just told my opinion. lol. *pokes kag*
oh and umm... i love ur short poems. i 'm totally ok with it.

Question:
when was the last time u have cried?
any questions for me?
um....so what's new with everyone?
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Monday, August 13, 2007

hey
hey, *sighs* i did promise a poem this time didn't i? hm.....alright i guess. i wrote a few but they were written a while ago.

An escape

Ever wanted an escape
a place to get away
from any evil shape
frome all evil people

There is such a place
or we would all die
because then we could not replace
all the hope we have lost

Do you want to know???
Where such a place exists
in all the words you want to say , but resist
It exists in all emotions you refuse to show
in all the places your you refuse to go

It exists in your head
It exists in your heart
It ezists in everything you have said
This place you see...

It exists in youreslf only
Some go there through dreams
some through family
In this place exists no lies in any seams

A place you are free to fly
free to fail, free to cry
A place in which there is no need to be shy
because this place *sigh*
you are no one but yourself, no lie

You feel most relaxed here
more sure that
everything you do will be accepted
here everyone knows the real you,not the sly rat
that way you can't say anything that is regretted
because you say what you want off the bat

In this place you are you
nothing more is true

lol i know it's not good at all. so it's cool. um...if for those of u who remember, i've posted this up before well then i apologise because i don't think i have. *shrugs* then again i could be wrong. i'm not that sure i'm going to post up more poems so....well *shrugs* i'll think on it. i'm kind of exhausted but not in the sleepy kind of way. hm...but i guess that'll end.
um...so how was ur day?
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