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Saturday, March 24, 2007

Sighs
k ur right but it was just that bad
See hm... where should i start
k
here
See i don't like fighting because i am a passive person in everything except protecting my beliefs and my best friends. Well and when people do fight i try my best to stop fights. well my mom and sister fight a lot knowing that it makes me frustrated and shakey. Well they got into another screaming fight in the car. ( which is the worst since i can't even go hide in my room in this situation) and they were screaming at each other and my mom suddenly stops the car at the side of the road and tells my sister to get out. I am trying to control the situation but i can't. And guys i mean it my mom was dead serious she would have made her get out if she had been just a little madder. Then my mom lecture's my sister while screaming ( ugh don't they understand that it doesn't help). Then she goes on with the conversation we were having like nothing happened and it was sick. She didn't get that we couldn't just erase it. Then i get home and my sister is in a bad mood and starts taking it out on me. And me as usual just sit there quietly controling myself and take it. All the screaming names ruder sarcasm scary cold voice. and then i get it again from my mom so i have to do it again. I know it's hard to understand since i am a teenager that i didn't lash out but in my family i have to be perky and understanding no matter what happens because one it's my beliefs and two I don't see what screaming at them o n top of it all would help. But as u see i am only human. I was worrying about my mom and sister yesterday so i was depressed. and since there's only so much a human can take i started crying later. And it takes a darned lot to make me cry. I hate crying cause it show's weekness and doesn't help anything. Then i went out( of my room where i was crying secretly) again and acted as if nothing happened. ( they couldn't tell i was crying cause i have become an expert at hiding them). Am fine now or pretending to be either way i guess i ll be ok.
lol
~deathstyle~
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