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Saturday, December 24, 2005

  Well, it's 3:20 A.M. here for me...can't really sleep (not cause of Christmas being tomrrow though)...dunno why really...

I guess cause with the snow falling and everything, I guess I just felt I had to sit out here on the porch and watch it just drift around...drifting so freely like I wish I could be...

I catch myself looking at my life and the things that have happened and realize how utterly pathetic I've been during many of those times and sometimes wonder if it's too late for me...Sometimes I wonder how the people I meet and the friends I have manage to put up with me so much considering I don't seem to do anything worth being called a friend about...

I also find my mind wandering as I look up at the stars in the sky...wondering what else could be out there and what they're doing...I usually have the feeling that EVERYTHING we consider "made up" or "fake" or anything is actually real out there somewhere...I mean...even anime characters, cartoons, Gundams and so on...of course most people just think I have too much of an imagination...how could we possibly think about it to be fake or not real to begin with if they're not there to think that way about??? I'm sure people long ago and over time until now thought many things were fake and not real, only to find out they were...

Heh...I'm pretty much ranting on this time...must be weird considering how short and silent my posts usually are on here. Aside from sitting outside and watching the snow fall, there's nothing else really going on...like usual...

Been going around trying to get a job, but anxiety keeps getting in my way...I freak out and get all nervous just making phone calls now..I can't seem to look anyone in the eye and I always seem to look guilty of something (my mom says so at least). So..it hasn't really helped my job searching very much..it just makes it worse. So I'll probably end up homeless on the street somewhere afraid to even ask for money from anyone because of the anxiety...u_u;

I'm pretty much wondering if there's really someone out there for me to be with...or if I'm just staring across an ocean that's impossible to cross no matter how strong a ship I am...*sighs*...it's really sad how I seem to be more interested in anime girls than real girls...I guess it's cause, most of the times in my life, all they've done is hurt me...

- singing "Find the Way" from Mobile Suit Gundam SEED.
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