Thursday, December 28, 2006

   December 28th
Well..like usual..i wake up without any thought,until seconds later i get hit by the stragest yet, saddest feelings ever..
I gave my Christmas present to Leigha last night at the mall, i knew it was late, but i was still glad to see her say thank you..i just still dont know if she really appreciated it..i felt like i got her the wrong gift sometimes, that there was something better that i couldve gotten her...
I cried so much last night..I feel like im losing Leigha so much..when i hear that she cant be with me becaus eo f her parnets, i feel and think about me and haylas past relationship..Hayla used that excuse to be with other guys..and i felt sad...sad and i wish it wouldve stopped and i wished i coudlve prevented it, but i knew i couldnt..I just feeel like im going to lose Leigha to any stranger who comes walking into her life, that starts talking to her..starts telling her things..I know I wont ever trust another boy ever talking to her, ever!
I just odn tknow how to make it stop!..I want to be able to trust her, but i also want to be the only boy in her life..to always have the attention on me as I always keep the attention on her..
..I just dont know what to do..

I am happy now that ive talked to leigha more..and i still want her to call
I feel empty without her..but then i remember how shes changed my life..and I feel like smilin and my hearts feels warm even now..maybe it shouldnt because im not with her..but i remember who shes changed..for her..she changed me


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