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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

   ello darling...
ive surprised myself by not going back out with mark. i love him... its just a different kindof love... anyways, i keep getting called down to the counseler in school about being depressed and crap. i thought i finally got away from that when i left tcs ... i mean, they had to notice things there, it was so small and personal but at bowsher theres like 300 freshman alone and apparently i stand apart... what are the odds...
i am depressed again though, i feel detached... numb really... the other day when i was feeling particularly "numb" i stuck a safety pin in my arm just to see if i could feel it... i went deeper than i evr hav before and ive gone pretty deep... i barely fealt a thing... i feel... dead
the urge to cut again comes with the feeling. i quit afew months ago and havent fealt the need to in a while ...but now... now i do more than ever. i want to bleed... i want to feel the pain... i need to feel it... or at least, i need to feel something...
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