Monday, January 17, 2005

Happy Birthday Akira!

hehe.

computer
obviously my computer is fixed by now. i'm sure you could tell. and ummmmmmmm that's about all i can think of for now. but that's because i'm kind of tired i guess. i'll put up a 'real' post tomorrow.



Dear Quiztakers:
>>
>>PLEASE send this poem to everybody you know.
>>
>>It is the request of a special little girl who
>>
>>will soon leave this world as she has cancer.
>>
>>Please send this to everyone you know or don't
know.
>>
>>This little girl has 6 months left to live, and
as her dying wish,
>>
>>She wanted to send a letter telling everyone to
live
>>
>>their life to the fullest, since she never will.
>>
>>She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high
>>
>>school, or get married and have a family of her
>>own..........................
>>
>>
>>By you sending this to as many people as
possible,
>>
>>you can give her and her family a little hope,
>>
>>because with every name that this is sent to,
>>
>>The American Cancer Society
>>
>>will donate 3 cents per name to her treatment and
recovery plan.
>>
>>One guy sent this to 500 people! So I know that
we can
>>
>>send it to at least 5 or
6..........................
Just think it could be you one day. It's not even
your money, just your time!
PLEASE PASS ON AS A LAST REQUEST


Please Help...Take this Quiz...It can help save a life!
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Saturday, January 15, 2005

Just a quick update.

yesterday my computer died. until we can find a way to fix it i will not be updating any time soon. x_X;;

currently i am on my mom's mac and i've decided that it hates me more than the windows does o_O;; reason? i accidentally uninstalled the printer and it won't let me reinstall.

x_X;;

oh and by the way, i've learned to solve the second layer of the cube. it seems so simple now. hmmm now i have to figure out the last layer... hehe.

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Friday, January 14, 2005

to pockystix and yahiko357
yes, the guy i posted pictures of is the same guy in the background.... it's ryuutarou!! hehehe *stares*

to swtanimechick
go to Harusaki. It's a site dedicated to Plastic Tree.

More on Plastic Tree
(i'm sure you all knew this was coming, right?) Hmmmm... it's the strangest thing that happens when I listen to it. If i'm depressed, I listen to it and it makes me feel better, but at the same time it makes me depressed. but i keep listening to it because i feel better even though i'm depressed from listening to it? o_O; i don't get it. but it's cool.

Rubiks cube
o__o; i can almost solve the 2nd layer. except for one piece. well i did today again but it was kind of cheating. Well not cheating, i just don't know how i did it. I had been working on it for the longest time and then Mike came up to start talking to me. And i must have been messing with it while i was talking to him, because... i suddenly looked down and the second layer was solved! o_O;; I asked him if he saw what i was doing but he said he didn't and that the cube just magically solved itself. Then he told me to set it down on the ground and watch it solve the rest of itself! xD;

right. he found it really funny but now i can't figure out what i did and i tried messing it up to see if i could duplicate whatever it was i did. but it didn't work o_O;;; so now i'm stuck with 1 layer and 7/8 of the 2nd layer xD;;;;

Kent tried to teach me and so did Matt but i couldn't remember how to do it O_o;

Freewebs
Kuragechan Designs Version 2.0 is up! I only have the layouts up, but I am working on a Frames tutorial, so i will notify you when that is updated! please go visit (http://www.freewebs.com/kuragechan)

uhh can't think of what else to talk about, so that's all for now. jaa, mata~

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Thursday, January 13, 2005

EDIT

posted some fanart (after so long! haha) go check it out and please be nice xD;

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hmm feeling lazy today. so i'm putting up:

-lyrics

-two beautiful screenshots of taroukun

screenshots come first.

from the tremolo PV. they're almost the same, but he's beautiful in both of them! ^_^





he looks so peaceful.... *sigh* i blush when i see these pictures~ hehe.

time for lyrics~~

Zetsobou no Oka

I am a mystery, and I have developed a kind to a lonely blue sky and to shine.
I no longer understand as I absent-mindedly react with the heavens.
I want to be shaken in a dream where nobody can touch me, and I want to be buried deeply.

In addition, where is the magical happiness that sleeps with me?
My wish comes true if I wake, humorous yet I still remain in a hill of despair.

Without doubt, I trust in the invisible power
With nothing but wishful thinking,
The light of morning pours onto me.

We continue to sleep and nobody can touch us.
I sway in a dream. I am buried deeply. Forever.
And sway and sway.
You have already disappeared when I noticed you.

In addition, where is the magical happiness that sleeps with me?
My wish comes true if I wake, humorous yet I still remain in a hill of despair.
If I waked, my wish will come true, and I laughed as I cried.

I remain standing on a hill of despair.

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

burankokara
Bored by this scenery, almost ready to cry
Gazing into the skies while rocking on a swing

A black angel that looks like a yawning crow

I've lost everything that matters to me
My hands are stretching from this empty world

I close my eyes and sigh
After I've counted to 10, something will be different

Am I even able to laugh like everyone else?

I've lost everything that matters to me
My hands are stretching from this empty world

My lack of feelings the circular tears
What made me great once has departed now

I've lost everything that matters to me
I'd like you to know, but I keep forgetting myself

I've lost everything that matters to me
My hands are still stretching from this empty world

When the rusty chains dissapear and the swing gets faster
I will touch the sky with my red hands

((i love this song.))

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Monday, January 10, 2005

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oniichan is sad today, please visit his site *bow* thank you

Yatta!
1500 visits today. actaully, 1502 as of right now. thank you minna-san! ^_^

currently my rate is #272, and i have 220 guestbook entries. ^^

oh and i changed the summary thing xD;

SUMMARY:
(+) more hits!
(-) uhh...
( ) ...??

School
Today is the last day of my winter break. T.T i really don't want to go... but then again, i don't want to stay on break either. so... what else is there to do? i have no idea. haha.

i wish i could just go back to my normal school but it's too late now so i guess i should concentrate on bringing up my science grade. >_>;

another thing is that our food court will be closed until next year so... i have to make a lunch every day x_X; oh and also, i won't be able to eat alone anymore since everyone else will have to not eat in the food court anymore T-T

at least i can bring my rubiks cube on the bus. because i'm stuck at the 3rd level and i don't want to mess it up. so if i can get kent to teach me how (but not actually do it for me) then i will have solved the rubiks cube! haha. or maybe jordan since he explains things better than kent does. haha.

SUMMARY:
(+) i get to ask kent to help me on my cube xD;;
(-) i have to go back to school and i can't go back to my normal school; i can't eat alone anymore
( ) ...i dunno.

DDR
Ok so my sister is getting REALLY annoyed at me because i play the same song all the time (well the same two songs... >>) so today i decided to learn some new songs on standard haha. so... i went through all the songs that i wasn't annoyed at... some were kind of easy and some were... not o_O;

but yeah. at least i burned off some calories i guess ^_^ haha since i bought ddr i've lost 2.5 pounds xD the only thing is that my legs die every time i play on standard level for as long as i do (depending on how hard the song is, 30-60 min)

i can't wait to get good enough to play in ddr club and not freeze up XD;; i guess i'm just not good in front of people lol. as soon as i can get a consistent AA at home, i think i can play in ddr club and still get at least a B hehe.

one thing i really want right now: grade AAA... hehe.

SUMMARY
(+) i'm learning standard
(-) my legs are dead
( ) i'm almost good enough for ddr club but not quite xD;

Dream
today (well actually last night but i don't really care) i had this strange dream. my best friend and i were at her house and we were talking about anime od (which i can't go to T.T) and then at the end my friend stabbed me (with a knife, of course) and i ended up dying.

that part didn't scare me but what did scare me was that after i woke up for a split second i was disappointed that i wasn't really stabbed o_o; i mean... i don't want to die, but does that mean i don't want to live either? because i've never thought anything like that (except when jrockers kill me i wake up disappointed i didn't really meet them ^^')

but if i don't want to live, and i don't want to die either, then what's left? there's nothing inbetween. it's so confusing... o_o;;

SUMMARY
(+) um...
(-) i was happy that i died in a dream but sad it was only a dream.. o_O;;
( ) if you're not dead and not alive what are you?? O_O;

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Sunday, January 9, 2005

mabuta tojiru tabi KIMI ga naite

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Saturday, January 8, 2005

announcement
i realize that a lot of people don't have time to read everything i write, and sometimes i don't really have time to write it xD so.... at the end of the post i will put a short summary with the positives (+), negatives (-), and neuturals ( ) of the day or whatever it is i'm talking about. hehe.

About yesterday
what i should have told you was that i dropped to a B in science. ;_; i know it probably doesn't seem like a lot to you but... yeah... i don't know why but grades mean a lot to me... getting a B is like.. "you weren't good enough to get an A" or "you don't deserve an A because you didn't work hard enough for it" or something like that... yeah. xD

i found out like a week ago, but i didn't want to tell anyone. plus, everyone else had their own problems that seemed more important so.. ^^'

about the soujirouness. i've been soujirou for so long... since like... a year or so at the least. so it is only natural when asked to say "i'm fine" or "i'm alright". saying something like "no, i'm not" would be strange for me.

to be honest another reason i never said anything was i was afraid people would think "oh she didn't get an A so she's not good enough" or something like that. i dunno. my mind gets ahead of itself sometimes. but whatever.

eh, i don't think i can bring my grade up by sememseter end, so i'll try for next semester then... >_>;

DDR
^______^ today i got AA on standard level (break down! again ehehe) i was so tired after tho because i had played that level like... 15 times in a row xD;; and then to take a break i played a few light levels.

the only problem is that yesterday night i lost all of my data because someone messed with my memory card. xD;; but o well, i've done enough to get back to where i was. ^_^

my sister is kind of getting sick of hearing the same song all the time (since i haven't tried other standard levels yet) so i tried another song. again, it's jpop hehe. the title is "DIVE (more deep & deeper style)" and it's a group called Be FOr U. this song is a lot easier than Break Down! hehe. so i was able to get an A the first time i tried! ^_^ when i get a AA i will move on to another song.

my legs are dead... xD

O_O;
today my mom made me call that guy back. i was hoping he wouldn't be home so i could leave a message and say "sorry i can't come, uhh bye..." but he was x_X; but i pretty much said the same thing except also "i have to work on science fair to raise my grade" and such. and he sounded kind of disappointed... o_o; i wonder if i made him feel bad... *sigh* o well, he should know already that i don't like him. i mean.. it's been more than a year.

and really, any guy who would want to go out with me would have to be insane. and i'm not saying that to put myself down or something like that. i'm just saying, if i were a guy i would hate to go out with me. but that sounded really wrong so...

reasons not to go out with me:
-no time
-no money to get gifts and such
-my obsession with pura.

ok now i feel the need to go into that last one. because some people just don't get it.

if you were going out with someone, how would you like it if they kept obsessing over some guy (or girl ^^') that they liked. every date, "look! that reminds me of hyde!" (or... insert some girl's name here if you're a guy) or... "i wish ryuutarou were here..." (insert girl's name). honestly, i'm perfectly happy daydreaming about my favorite jrockers. (n///n)

SUMMARY

(+)
at least i don't have a C in science... >>
i got AA on DDR standard!
i don't have to go to josh's house

(-)
i have a B in science... *sigh*
i didn't say anything about having a B...
my legs are dead from ddr

( )
i love daydreaming about jrockers instead of trying to find a real boyfriend. if people can't understand that, too bad.

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Friday, January 7, 2005

to everyone: i'm sorry... especially to my older brothers... i should have said something earlier... but then...

i don't know. i can't explain it.

i guess i just couldn't give up the last of my soujirou-ness but... i wasn't good at it anymore... so...

please don't hate me for not saying anything....

EDIT: i realize now that i never explained anything for what i'm sorry for. if you want to know, ask me. too much of a headache to spend the time explaining it here.

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