Friday, December 24, 2004

i uh forgot to say this so i'm gonna say it now...

Merry Chrismtas, minna-san!!



hehe this card is cute... ^_^

while i'm online i better go check people's sites... actually i've been on but it's mostly to look for a ddr pad... my mom says maybe i can use my christmas money to buy a package or what not. so i have to find the perfect foam pad that is not too expensive, because my sister is paying for some of it... she wants it too, so she has to pay half) it's strange. i've only played ddr once and i'm already quite obsessed with it. hehe. anyway, happy holidays! i'll be back after New Years. jaa, mata!!

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Saturday, December 18, 2004

this will probably be my last post until the new year... i'll miss you all!

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Thursday, December 16, 2004

^^
yay it's a "real" update. haha yeah i finally have the time to. unfortunately i won't be able to update that much in the near future since my relatives are coming over from canada for the holidays and they will be taking the room with the computer in it. XD haha. anyway, i'll try to get online when i can but i probably won't be able to. so... yeah. usually when my relatives come we spend a lot of time trying to decide on what to do and not a lot of time doing whatever we decide on. mostly because my cousins can't decide on anything together (they are brother and sister and do not get a long much ^^;) hehe. maybe i can sneak online then. lol.

Kohaku performance
i can't wait until it's new year's day... or eve... i don't know when the kohaku is on. but... laruku is performing in this year's kohaku!! hehe. i wish they had kohaku more often. one day of the year just isn't enough. and i missed last year's because the tv program messed up the scheduling so i ended up finding a korean drama instead of kohaku. hehe.

Kanji
so far i have memorized around 15. to be considered a first grade student i have to know 80... kent is letting me borrow his kanji book but it's all in japanese so i don't know what the words mean! haha well at least i have my own kanji dictionary to look up what they are ^^; they are organized better in kent's but they have english meanings in mine. ^^; i really want to be at least a first grader. right now i'm like less than preschool, or at least our class is. we barely know katakana. ^^;

more engrish
this stuff isn't available at the store, but i love it anyway. ^^ maybe i can ask my mom for an engrish shirt for my birthday... hmm... hehe.











Pocky
well i've been without pocky for over.. 2 1/2 weeks now.. haha. i don't really have pocky that often really, i'm just obsessed with the stuff. i mean... i can live without it but when i have it, i eat so~~~ much! XD my friends asked for pocky for christmas, and i want to buy some for myself too but i gave up unhealthy foods so i could get thinner~! haha. really i don't eat that much junk food, and i hate soda, so it won't be so hard except for ramen and arare and pocky. o and yan yan. haha. japanese snacks are so~~~~ good *_____* my favorite type would have to be original... i know a lot of people like strawberry tho... i wonder what the banana one tastes like x_X; supposedly in japan they have a pumpkin pocky, but that sounds kind of strange. my sister wants to try the milk type, and my dad likes the one with almonds in it. they also have "men's pocky" which is dark chocolate, but i haven't met anyone who has known that before i told them ^^;

Finals
yeah... 2 weeks after i come back from break i have to take semester finals. there are a total of 4: english, science, math, and engineering. i think everyone will fail english, since she makes her tests quite hard. even if you know the material it's a challenge to get an A. all the upperclassmen say that science final is fun, and even if you fail you can get an A+ in the class. ahaha. supposedly, there are like 300 questions and he gives you an hour to do all of them. but they could be lying. math should be quite easy, considering we haven't even LEARNED anything since we've been in school. the last thing he went over was "what is a function"... >_>; i learned that in like... 6th grade. engineering i think will be kind of hard. he has been telling us to study for a while, and a lot of the people are getting C's in the class. Luckily for me i have 103%, but i'm still worried because there's always a chance that i will bomb the final. gah. i'm crazy... i'm worried about having 103%... >_>; maybe i put too much pressure on myself... but that's only because my parents don't. i think their lack of stereotypical asian-ness has made me obsessive over grades. haha. they don't mind if i get a B or even a C, so long as i "tried my hardest"... so sometime in my life i decided i had to get all A's and now i get upset over B's and such. but it's not like i can tell them because the last time i was upset over a B my mom lectured me for at least 20 minutes about how i shouldn't be mad at myself over a B because a B is good. bleh. hmm next time i'll just smile and nod. haha. well hopefully there won't be a next time since i will study a lot harder and spend more time on my essays x_x; yeah. so if i start freaking out after january 21, it's most likely because of finals.

Catnapped
Our japanese class went to see this movie for our field trip. we got to go with the 3-4 class too ^^ hehe. it was a kodomo anime about a boy and his sister who go to a land of cats. their dog, papadoll (or in japanese pronounciation, papado-ru hehe) has been kidnapped and taken to this land, where he has turned into a monster. The reason is that if an outsider stays in that world for more than 2 days, they will become a monster themselves. The villian in this story is Bubulina/Hime-sama (hime means princess in japanese), who has the power to turn anything she touches into a living balloon. However, when hime-sama touches papado-ru, nothing happens because he is not of their world. anyway, the boy is told that if papado-ru remembers something happy about his past, he will turn back to his old self. the boy, who had been having problems at school, kind of neglected papado-ru, so he feels guilty about it. However, papado-ru remembers when he was a puppy and saves his owner (i think his name was yasuo?) from bubulina. yasuo escapes with his sister miko and papado-ru just before the second day. it was kind of strange, and yet very, very cute... hehe.

Doraemon
hehe. the theme song... it's so cute!! does anyone know where i can download a copy? or could someone send me a file? quite a few of my classmates would like to learn it but sensei does not know it. haha. lyrics would be appreciated also ^^

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

earlier today: nearly died of shock during second period. learned ballroom dancing. skipped lunch but got hungry on the bus. mom dragged me off to the mall so that she could buy me clothes. spent 45 precious minutes wasting time shopping while i could have been doing my rocket simulation project. x_x;;

right now: bad headache XD going to sign off as soon as i finish this.

tomorrow: will be going to see some japanese movie with hall sensei. i'll tell you about it later.

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Engrish goodies (when i get the cash i will buy them for myself)

well another pointless update but this one is funny. all of these are available at Engrish.com so if you want one too go buy one!! too bad i already asked my parents for a pura cd instead... haha. but then they would make me get the small size instead of the medium. lol. and they would be like "*gasp* she's acutally asking for clothes!!" hehehe

i want these so much..

elephant

cube
reminds me of kent and the rubicks cube (which he can solve in less than 2 minutes now o__o)

cube tshirt
the same thing as above except on a tshirt instead of a sweatshirt

toilet love
well maybe i don't want this one so much b/c i don't wear white. but isn't it cute??

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Monday, December 13, 2004

wheeee pointless update

no actually it's that i might not be able to update every night, i'm getting quite busy now~~~ ^^;

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Sunday, December 12, 2004

  

Current Mood: (well not really, but i think i am catching a cold)
Current Song: Gackt - Death Wish
Current Thought/Quote: "Your blood leaked down the spiral stairs/It was so beautifully clean that i cried"

Christmas
o_o; it's almost Christmas and i haven't finished buying all of my presents yet! i still have to buy for my mom, dad, sister, and best friend, and my mom won't drop me off at the mall to go get something for them! and yet she's perfectly willing to take me there if i want to shop for CLOTHES.

wow i make a strange teenager, don't i? haha. i mean, most of my friends love shopping for clothes, and those who don't love it at least don't mind. haha.

Web Design
when i finish my project i will be making my first ryuutarou layout! well not my first one, but the first one available for download. but photoshop has too many things to choose from so i need a little advice on which filter to use. here are some screenshots, i think there are quite a few.. hehe.

oh and my friend's mom gave me dreamweaver!! and it comes with fireworks! and flash! ^^ dreamweaver = quicker web design, but until i install it i will continue to design by hand. lol. fireworks is like photoshop, but i think i will continue photoshop instead... and flash will allow me to make movies if i ever figure out how to ^^

Pura
for everyone who asked me yesterday, pura is short for puraturi, which is short for plastic tree ^^;

my friend says that taroukun scares her and i can kind of understand, especially when i put the inverse colors affect on him... haha. oh and i burned one more CD and i think my parents are growing to tolerate them! ^_^ ...although they still refer to ryuutarou as "she" x_X;; lol. but he doesn't look as much like a girl as he did when the band first started out (like in wareta mado)... >_>;

maybe i'm just "used to it" by now. haha. i mean, everyone else has to kind of think about whether they really ARE guys or not, but i just say like... "oh. that guy is pretty." haha.

i suppose it would be odd for a guy to say that about a guy, but once i brought my issue of shoxx to school to see if kent could tell me what this one kanji was, and this guy saw a picture of bou from an-cafe and was like "she's hot." XD it was very funny, although i must admit that for a jrock newbie it's quite misleading when guys are like... in dresses... ^^;

Diabolo
my friend bought me volume 2!!! hehe i was very happy! but now i am sad. haha well not really. sad in a "oh no look what happened to my favorite character~! /_\" type of way lol. hmmm well let's see... a lot of new characters introduced in this one.. like kyouya. hehe. he's cool. part of the six great spirits. which means he's supposed to be evil, but i don't think he is really. oh and what made me sad was that rai has become one of the six great spirits, so he is evil too o_O; i feel really sorry for ren. but i was like.. "no~ rai~~!!" haha.

they had this convo that i thought was really cute...

rai - *cough*
ren - got a cold, rai?
rai - no, i'm all right
ren - don't underestimate a cold, eh? you could get sick and die.
rai - haha.
rai - if i'mg oing to die anyway, i want you to kill me (read volume 1 to understand)
rai - but, i hate pain.
ren - how do you want to die?
rai - while i'm sleeping... on a snow covered mountain... with you holding me. (aww but that kind of makes it sound yaoi-ish X_X)
ren - hey! then i'd die, too, wouldn't i?

and all this time rai has a peaceful smile on his face~~~ waiiiii it's so cute!! XD

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Saturday, December 11, 2004

Mood: (tired)

Lack of update yesterday x__X;

wahhh i forgot to update yesterday... well no not really forgot but here's what happened -

i went to the library to tutor until 6:30, and after i ate dinner it was 7:20. Then i went online for a short while, after which my ISP decided it didn't like me and kicked me off. I wasn't able to get back online until 9:30, and at that time i worked on my science fair project (until around 10)... then i studied for my english test (which i have a feeling i did horribly on... >_>), chatted a little, got tired and went to sleep.

yeah. so sorry for not posting anything.

Pura
you knew that was coming, right?

um yeah anyway... i drew ryuutarou in his tremolo outfit only anime styled... i don't think it really looks like him much and my mom was like "that girl is creepy looking" but i've been wanting to draw him like that ever since i saw his picture and now i did ^^

oh and just for your information...

drawing those skeleton wings was MURDER

lol. it was really hard tho... i don't think it really turned out right. that and his left hand kind of blended in with his white shirt so i couldn't really make it look right ^^; and the pants blened in with the black background too... hehe.

i'm debating on whether to draw the stage thingy in the background. it makes it look cool but at the top there are all these gear things that look even harder than the wings! o_O;

if i ever get my scanner working or if i can get my hands on my dad's digital camera, i will show it to you.

for now, and for my own reference i'll make a list of things i can improve on for next time... (not that any of you would actually CARE about all that but since i don't have a journal all to myself i will put it here ^^;)

-the left arm seems shorter than the right
-the eyes look too far apart
-the hat looks too pointy instead of rounded
-the left wing is too thick
-the left fingers look distorted
-the right fingers look too short
-the expression looks too confused, while in the original picture he looks more sad
-the eyes are looking forward, in the picture they are looking to the side
-no detail in the shirt
-the right side of the collar is shorter than the left
-no shading on the bow
-the shading on the hat looks strange

wow that's a lot. well there's more but i decided that if i typed up all this it would bore you and me both haha.

whee more pura
hehe. 2 days without updating, so i guess another pura update? haha. no, it's just that this seems kind of separate xD

today i burned a cd full of pura ^^ hehe it's from the album [cell.] and i still can't decide which is my favorite... although i DO know that my mom actually thinks that harusaki sentimental is pretty hehe. so yeah.... maybe i'll just play that all the time. ^^;

holidays around the world
today was a performance at our school. haha. it was cool. first was orchestra, then chorus, then drama... and then in the program it said they would have these three people doing 2 christmas songs (umm forgot the titles atm) and everyone thought they were going to sing but... they whistled the whole thing! hehe.

hmm what else? oh yeah, japanese 7-8 performed "rudolph the red nosed reindeer" in japanese. it was funny. hahaha it was more funny because kent was up there too. he's a freshman, but since he's fluent in japanese he can take 7-8. but it's kind of funny since he was like the tallest one there xD

then at the end the dance club did some halloween dance... for a christmas thing! o_O; it was kind of creepy, but really cool! ^^ there was this one part which gave me an idea for something to draw... my friend told me i should make a manga out of it but i don't really have a story. so... yeah. maybe later.

well this week has been kind of exhausting for me so i'm gonna go sleep now. jaa, mata

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Thursday, December 9, 2004

genki ja nai

konchikuwa, minna-san. (yes i meant to spell it that way)

well my friend had a strange journal and now i'm worried about him again, and that means today there will be no real update. sorry, minna.

well he promised me that he wouldn't kill himself... but... i can't help but worry about him.

hopefully i'll have a real update tomorrow.

-soujirou-

p.s. oh and on the happier side of things, thank you all for over 200 guestbook entries. i wonder how long it will take to get to 300?

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Tuesday, December 7, 2004

  

thank you~~
Hi minna-san~~! i'd like to thank all of you for the nice comments you put on my entry last time. It means so much to me~~ ^^ i was so worried today, and then when i got home i saw that everyone commented on my site and it made me feel better ^^ tomorrow i will go visit all of your sites and sign the guestbook if i haven't already... and i'll get back to everyone else who signed it too ^^

well oniichan told me that he talked to my friend today and that he wouldn't commit suicide ^_^ however he is still sad and stuff, so i am kind of worried about him still... u_u; well at least i know he won't die~!

today if i weren't so nervous i would have laughed at myself. haha. well i am now so i guess it counts lol. eto~~ during lunch since i had nothing else to think about i started worrying about him on the way to the food court. then all of a sudden my face was against a door. *nod* i was so distracted that i walked into a closed door. haha. it didn't really hurt or anything, and i don't think TOO many people saw me... xD

i didn't mention but my brain kind of numbed last night, and with it my left arm did too... o_O; well today it was still numb and since i'm left handed (like gackt ^^) it made it really hard to write in school... well it wasn't completely numb in english/beginning of science... at that point it felt like someone had put a knife in my shoulder xD but anyway... then we had to use a compass for our science class).. well i couldn't use it so i switched to my right hand, after which the point of the compass slipped and landed conviently on my hand. it hurt, but at least my hand wasn't numb anymore. XD

Parade CD Message (more pura ^^')
hehe it's cute. i can only get a little bit of what they are saying but it's cute. at the beginning ___ is talking and tarou-kun just says "hai" all the time... sounds so kawaii~~~~ ^^ hehe. i like the way he laughs too...

it's 8 minutes long... maybe if i listen to it long enough it will be engraved into my mind and i can start trying to translate, like i am with my interview. although speaking is harder because i can't really get all of what they're saying... it always seems like when people speak a foreign language the talk really fast, but it's probably just that i can't understand it... >_>; heh.

well maybe i can bring it to sensei. she'll be like "aah~~ what's this?? why do you listen to this stuff??" lol. i think she'll get confused by the new year message because at the end of it he says "ryuutarou deshita" (like... i was ryuutarou) instead of "ryuutarou desu" haha.

English
I'm really happy because in english today i thought i failed our quiz! everyone said that the class average was a D (which it probably was).. but when i got it back i found out that without the extra credit i would have gotten 89.7%... then with the extra credit from the quiz, plus one extra point for getting a certain answer, and the 3 points she gave everyone in the class, i got a 36/33 ^_^

maybe that can pull my grade up from a B to an A! ^^ there are some other extra credit opportunities also that i'm waiting for info on...

PURA
i was debating on this at school today.

listen to pura and get more depressed because of the depressing songs?

or

not listen to pura and get more depressed because of the lack of pura?

lol. see how obsessed i am? ok well now i can listen to them ^^ oh and... i know i posted these lyrics before but i like them...

ROCKET (by ryuutarou)

always having the same dream, tonight again i only slept 2 hours
a bell resounds all the way into my chest, so once in a while i try going out
i have no bible, so i'll pray to the sky in the park for some hope
the sanitary, far too blue sky and the far too distant me
you & the heat thicken my blood
a screw starts to turn
and i really want to cry

like this, close your eyes soar to the sky, past even your dreams
until we're buried in light, i'll always be looking at you

the silent crows are like notes on a telephone wire score
and soundlessly they fly off, leaving me behind as i follow the melody
so many words are packed in my chest
without ever being voiced one day they'll overflow

going as high as we can into the bluer than blue
slipping into midsummer, i gasp

you & the heat thicken my blood
a screw starts to turn
and i really want to cry

like this, close your eyes soar to the sky, past even your dreams
and as we're buried in light, we'll part from each other
"hey down there... can you still see me?"
look to the end of the universe breathe in
before long we will be gone...

i opened my eyes. finding myself in a washed-out world.
i looked to the sky. and my hope returned.

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