Friday, November 12, 2004

Website
yay. my friend's website is up now. ^_^ i can't believe i made the layout x_X well i have to fix a few things like when you sign up but that's ok... i'll do it later... please go and join if you can! HUGS FOR SAMARA! right now the signup page doesn't work as i said before so just send her an email, i'm sure she won't mind ^_^ hehehe i need to find some new pics so i can make some banners or whatever....

i guess i should explain what it is... it's called Hugs for Samara and my friend decided that if we hugged her maybe she would stop killing people! xD well basically it's a web club if you like samara.. so please join if you like the ring/samara! maybe one day she'll have a sadako site too ^^;

^___^

lol my friend (as mentioned above) came over to my house today so we could hang out and do stuff... and so we went to the mall for lunch... which i haven't been to for about 4 months o_o; it was funny seeing how much it had changed since then. after that we played guess who! xD it's funny that we would be playing a little kid's game like that but it was kind of fun.... i guess... i won twice (two sets of five) and she won once.. x_X after that we played my sister's imitation ddr pad... it was fun. we both missed huge amounts tho xD

later we ended up working on the website! which was funny because she doesn't know anything about html... we ended up chatting with oniisan and my friend on dA (takai-kun) ^_^ it was so funny! i was laughing so hard i couldn't breathe. x_X but i'm still alive even tho i couldn't breathe. lol. they were the 2 most random conversations i've ever had in my entire life. ^^; but seriously they were! xD my friend fell in love with msn messenger's snail emoticon x_X lol. i bet alex and him think we're strange... if you saw the transcript of our chat everyone else would too ^^; hahaha

thanks everyone!
yay... takai-kun feels so much better now! AND i was able to have a convo with him online ^^ thanks to everyone for helping me through this... i don't know what i would do without myO... *glomps all of you* ^_____^

i'm still kind of "recovering" if that's what you want to call it... but overall i'm feeling really good now n_n

Ohhhh... i realized today i have 1000 visits~! i feel so happy... i'm at rank 386... hehehehe

xDDDDD
not much of a title. but o well...

i realized a lot of my friends here are older than me ^^; i was thinking about how all the upperclassmen at my school are so nice and how we (the freshmen) must seem so young to them... and then i realized how many of you are older than i am ^^; hehehe i must seem really young to you, ne? lol. hehehehe....

Song
right now i'm watching revolution... the artist is a new one named sakaya and the song is called mizuiro ^^ she's pretty good... really pretty too.... i want to be that pretty x_X lol. well she's got the type of voice that my dad would say "she sounds like one of those anime characters" about. hehe. i guess so. i dunno. but the song is nice. makes me feel kind of nostalgic... i dunno why tho. there's nothing really in my past that i miss... xD maybe it's the monochrome-type video or something... with all the old furniture... or maybe it's the beach?? bleh. i don't know. but it's cool. ^___^ if i had money i would buy the single. [EDIT] - that song is addicting. i can't stop watching the music video... too bad for some reason it makes me sad (for no reason whatsoever xD). but still... it's so good that i can't stop listening!! i want the single so i don't have to keep rewinding my videotape x_X; lol.[/EDIT]

oooh and they showed tmr's new single ignited today! i was going to download it but the link didn't work u_u; now if only they would show puraturi videos.... lol

i've noticed there's a lot of rap and hip hop on revolution lately. and a lot of korean ballads... i have nothing against either, but... i want my jrock! x_X hahaha i'm so obsessed... hehehe but then again i don't care if i am or not... xD

o wait i'm so stupid. they mentioned that today was a "mini hip hop special" x____X i don't pay enough attention lol. o well. it's amusing. asian rap always amuses me for some reason. especially when they try to speak english in it lol ^^; (no offense to anyone)

after so long... a japanese lesson!
yeah. i learned this from my mom. because i didn't have class yesterday. it's a funny story really... she thought that it was minimum day and we didn't have class... so she was unprepared! so she walks in, takes roll, and dismisses us ^^; so we were out of class for an HOUR! x_X hahaha well anyway my mom thought that was weird so she taught me about verbs... heh

anyway i saved it as an image to make it easier on me. so here it is...



hope you like it. it's not that great. i could have gone into more detail. or something. x_X oh well... i'm feeling lazy today... hehehe

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

^_^

it's 3:30 in the morning right now! i'm crazy, aren't i? i'm extremely tired right now and i have a friend coming over today and yet i felt the urge to update for this...

but my friend sent me a dA note and he's feeling a lot better ^___^ i'm so happy right now~~ the reason he hadn't replied back to my e-mail was because sometime over the course of all this he changed his e-mail without telling anyone xD but that's ok since he's happier now... ^^ ok that's all i wanted to say *falls asleep in front of computer screen*

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IDP IS OVER!!
well not quite. like i said, i still have the presentation. but it's such a relief!! even tho i probably didn't do as well as i should have but... that's ok... there's nothing i can do about it now. xD and if i get a bad grade... life will go on... eventually... x____X

my friend...
my friend didn't respond to my last comment. i'm worried about him... but i was ok today.... i hope he's on tomorrow sometime... i really want to talk to him... *sigh*

ddr
i'm really obsessed now even tho i've never played! i want to get it so badly... xD hahaha

puraturi
^^ my friend in art club is now a kurage! i'm so happy ^^ and she has a fast modem! she just burned a bunch of puraturi things for me... ^_^ she says there's a senior who wants to be gackt in the talent show!! i would PAY to see that!

today
today was fun. mulitcultural fair. with lots of food. and lots of stuff to do. which kept me from getting depressed about idp and/or my friend. but really, it was GREAT food. i want it to be mulitcultural fair every day just so i can eat food like that all the time. lol

bleh
i'm tired. i'm going to stop writing now.. hope you don't mind

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

idp stuff
guess what. idp is due tomorrow! (well i guess today, i'm writing at 9:00 so... it comes out as the next day when i update) i'm so incredibly relieved. but i'm still worried about it. is that too contridicting? is it possible to be really relieved and really worried at about the same thing at the exact same time?? whatever. the point is, it's all going to be over soon (in a matter of about a week or two, all the presentations will be finished!)

computers...
today in computers we learned "how to use auto correct" x_____X it's so stupid. he's like "i've never used this before but i suppose you can if you want to" and we were all shocked (well those who actually heard him... no one pays attention anyway)

thanks
well i was too sad/busy/etc. to notice that i had gotten past the 400 mark in the rankings! o__O; thanks everyone. i'm so glad i got a myOtaku account... i've met so many great people and i love posting here... n_n

my friend...
*sigh* he's still not feeling any better. i had an awful dream last night where i woke up and checked my messages to find that he was dead. i woke up wondering if it was real or not but my internet died and i couldn't get on! o_o i was really scared... but then i checked my messages in my computer applications class and he had left a comment so i was relieved *sigh* but then again he's still depressed...

it's the strangest thing tho... certain times i'll feel completely normal, and then at these random times i'll start to worry and get depressed. x_X strange, isn't it? oh well... as long as he's still alive i'll be ok. and if he's not... i'll have all of you to talk to so that will help... but i still don't want to think about that.

but for some reason i was thinking about that! o_o; i don't know why, i think i just let my mind wander and it ended up there... guess i should think about what i'm thinking more (wait that didn't make any sense x_X) but... i think if he died i wouldn't be able to go on dA anymore... it would be too much... i don't know much more than that and i'm not going to think about it anymore *now determined to control what i think about*

frames
i forgot to mention this also but i fixed the frames layout and i think it's completely done now! all i have to do is upload it. it's a shame i have no idea what's going on in the layout. it looks interesting. i should have watched the ring. o well... it's my first layout so it doesn't look as good as i thought it would but it still works! ^^

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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

hi all
well i'm kind of confused right now. i'm depressed and i feel like crying and yet... you could probably tell me something funny and i wouldn't be able to stop laughing. i wonder if idp caused some of this... no i don't think so. maybe i should start with the bad news so that i can cheer myself up with the good news.

the bad news
so... a couple of you know this but for most of you who don't... my friend on dA is really depressed right now. i think he's going to kill himself. he has the building picked out and everything. i don't know what i can do since i only know him online... it's really starting to get to me. i almost started crying in school today. x_x i've never really lost anyone close to me before... well except for my grandmother when i was 5 but i don't really remember that. i only vaguely remember that... so if anything happens to him, i don't think i'll know how to react...

i had this bad feeling earlier today and it's not going away so i did something really hard for me... if i don't hear from him within two weeks... i'll assume that he actually went through with it and that he killed himself. i really don't want to think in that type of negative way, but then again, i don't want to be sitting around waiting for him forever to return my comments when he's not even here anymore *tears*

i was listening to some jrock today and i noticed the translation to neo universe (l'arc~en~ciel) and it reminded me of him... *sigh* especially the italicized part.

Artist: Larc~en~ciel
Title: Neo Universe

words: hyde music: ken

the scales have started to tip upwards
I'm going to build up one side
so the other reaches higher than heaven.

even for these kind of innocent angels which can't fly,
morning will come to them gloriously.

Don't let go of that hand,
feel the world awaken.

even though it seems ready to shatter, it stays clear
you waited yesterday without sleep.

miracles you'd seen in dreams aren't coming but
the distant sky will lead you to them.

you are gentle like the wind
like a bird flying freely in this world
without fear neo universe

even if it ends in tragedy
I'm glad I met you.

the bind I've gotten into, I entrust it to you
I want to believe forevermore.

laugh like a pretty flower
shine like a star
flying over this world
without fear neo universe

it's the time of rebirth!
it's the most painful time !
let's be tied as one like the sky,
neo universe.

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good news
wow i just depressed myself... so i'll talk about the good things that happened today ^_^

hmmm starting with... the ddr imitation pad that my sister got through her magazine drive. it's not nearly as good as the real ddr (although i've never played it ^^;) but it's amusing. the pixel art and gameboy type music annoys me but it's still kind of fun to try to get it to work and actually get points (you have to be REALLY exact)

oh and i got a msn messenger account. i'll put it up in my profile when i have the time. it's kuragechan04@hotmail.com

if you decide to message me please tell me your otaku account name so i know who you are ^^;

2 days left of idp... hope it works out. our group is meeting tomorrow. well... nothing more to say... *sigh* well i'll twyl then...

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Monday, November 8, 2004

hmmm i really have nothing to say today. i'm kind of stressed. ummm so this isn't a completly pointless post here's some jrock. by hyde.

this is the first jrock song i ever listened to. i found out the translation about 3 months after i listened to it. the music video is really cool, but i've only seen 1 minute of it. u_u

i actually memorized some of the romanji... so if i wanted to i could sing it. but then again i don't really sing so...

Song - Hello
Words/Music - Hyde

I awoke after the dream.
welcome to the end of this world of lies
the fire steadilly burns out, I look to heaven
I'll revive myself, with the glow I took away.

this feeling gaining speed,
lead me, my wish!
fly away my wish,
to the otherside of the sun!

that smile that promised
I took the long way to the room where you waited
held in a bonecrushing embrace by the grim reaper.
no where left to go for my spirit running on empty,

this feeling gaining speed,
lead me, my wish!
fly away my wish,
to the otherside of the sun!

believe me, it's just a little further
and I'll be back by your side...

I awoke, Won't trust no one again
I awoke, Lead me to your side.

this feeling gaining speed,
lead me, my wish!
fly away my wish,
to the otherside of the sun!

the voice that pierced my heart
now echoes within,
my wish, fly away to my beloved.

believe me, it's just a little further
and I'll be back by your side... Hello.

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Sunday, November 7, 2004

Frames
well today i made my first layout ever. it uses frames which surprised me because i heard div is a lot simpler. but when i tried div it didn't work xD maybe i should find a new tutorial ^^; i dunno. so please help me by answering this question...

which do you think makes a nicer layout? frames or div/layers?

the layout is a gift for my friend. she has a website dedicated to samara from the ring, so i decided to try making one for her ^^ of course as my first layout it's kind of hard and not that great but that's ok...

i just realized having a menu with frames is a really hard thing to do xD i thought i had it but now when i open up my page it doesn't work ^^; that's ok, i have a long time to figure it out. and my friend is coming over, maybe she can help me... although she doesn't know any html whatsoever... at least that's what she says... ^^;

more puraturi stuff ^^
well i went to the webpage and there's going to be another video up! it's sink! which is cool because i'm kind of addicted to that song as well as rocket ^^; i really hope my friend doesn't mind downloading these for me... she says it's no problem but i don't want to make her do it if she doesn't want to... anyway here are the lyrics to sink. *sigh* the song kind of depresses me but i still can't stop listening to it (and reading the translation!)... btw sink was a song for the anime "kindaichi" i've never heard of it but that's ok xD

Sink

Because I continue to sleep, I am unconscious of everything.
I am drowned in my dream and I fall to your side.

Hey, as for me, I am linked with the night.
You don’t look luscious anymore.
You hid at the back of the moon and I didn’t find you.
And a sound of a burning star blocks up my ear.
The world has stopped.

Because I continue to sleep, I am unconscious of everything.
I am drowned in my dream and I fall to your side.

Hey, night particle-shaped darkness
The merely colored air is so calming
I hear a sound in my chest, words coming from you.
They were like my tears.
Tears overflowing my lungs.

Even though I am sorrowful, I still look for you.
You disappeared like a ghost, and all you left is pain for me to feel.

Why do I cry whenever I look at the red moon?
I want it to disappear.

Because I continue to sleep, I am unconscious of everything.
I am drowned in my own dream where noone can reach me.
Because it has faded in time, and my grief has been drifted away.
Probably because we forgot our smiles and how we looked when we cry.

I fall to your side forever.
And I am buried, I am buried, I am buried, I am buried.

“Bye-Bye”.

pumpkin
um yeah... my laruku pumpkin... you can see it on my xanga (true_otaku)... it's funny. it was fun to make too. and.... it proves my obsession with laruku xD

oh also on my xanga is the picture of miyavi i drew that i was talking about yesterday

tablet
does anyone know what a good tablet to buy would be? a lot of people use WACOM but there are so many different types! for me getting a tablet would pretty much be a "this gift counts for birthday and christmas for the next two years" type of gift so i'm trying to save some money to buy it on my own. but i don't know what to buy xD please help if you can.... ^^;

library
today i went to the library to look up some stuff for my report, and i noticed a graphic novel section... a lot of it was marvel type comics, but they had astro boy ^^; and they also had blade of the immortal. i'm reading that right now. my mom saw the cover and kind of cringed and said "that's not one of those weird ones is it?" i assumed that by "weird" she meant incredibly bloody and violent and maybe some guys who looked like girls and such... XD

my mom is really against some of the stuff i like. take jrock for example. she hates my issue of shoxx so i take it to school and read it so i don't bother her xD of course i can't really read it but still. ^^; she also doesn't like what we otakus like to call... "bishounen" (*gasp*) lol.

not to mention gothic lolita. "why do you like that?" hahaha it's funny really. and yet i understand where she's coming from. i mean... i probalby wouldn't like it if my daughter was obsessing over guys who crossdress and ones who don't but still look like girls! lol but still. she doesn't have to bother me about it. xD hehe i guess some people will never understand jrock... *sigh*

comments
nikorasu - lol i have no idea why it's so popular...

kei-chan - huh? WinMX? and do you have any good sites to dl from?

12th jockey - lol my house is 45 minutes away by car... i wonder what that would be walking?

jrockfangurl - o_o wow. this is my first year on the bus xD

demonmessiah - wow your wrist is really thin! ^^; lol.

destinyssweetman - hehehe we should try a collaboration sometime with artworks... ^^

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Saturday, November 6, 2004

stupid thing
bleh. today was... interesting. i'll start with what happened with the bus. well it started when i went to art club meeting, and everyone showed up late! and we started talking and thenall of a sudden someone said to me "hey don't you take the bus?" "yeah" "o_o don't they leave right about now?"

so i ran out to where the buses were and they were all gone except for 1! then i started to panic but i went into the office and called my parents, and my mom said she would pick me up ^^ but then i had to wait around at the school for 30-45 minutes because my school is really far from my house.

guess it serves me right for not bringing a watch today. hahaha. i'll remember for next week. maybe. or i'll just keep an eye on the buses. x_X;

IDP stuff
only 4 days left of IDP!! bleh our group made more changes that weren't really necessary so that means more work for me! xD oh well i guess it's ok so long as we get a good grade. ^^;

more realism??
yeah. on thursday... i drew miyavi. realistically. actually "to-mi-zu miyavi" whatever the katakana meant ^^; from a picture in my shoxx magazine. he was like a ventriliquist or something.

i spent 2 hours and 45 minutes on it. x_X

but it was worth it. i'm almost happy with it! sure the shading looks kind of odd and the eyes are too small and the face isn't really balanced and... well that's beside the point. what i mean is... i've actually tolerated all these mistakes long enough to finish a picture!!

Bleach
finally got around to talking about this xD anyway it was pretty good... i loved the first chapter with the ghost girl ^^; (those of you who read it know what i'm talking about) and then in the first volume when ichigo has to fight the hollow that's that girl's brother (kakei - can't remember the girl's name tho ^^;)... that was kind of depressing. but i liked it ^^ i really want to see volume 3 and what happens with the mod soul...

did you ever notice..
ok i lied i'm putting it on here. but only because it's an example. as i was checking people's sites today, i found about 12 of these! o_o; they got really popular on xanga too! i wonder why...? they've had these forever, but why did the suddenly get so popular now?

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression [of me]?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
16. What song are you listening to right now?
17. Do you love me?

maybe people really really want to know about what people think of them?? i don't know.

Tremolo
I'm really happy about this! i have a friend at school with a fast internet connection and a cd burner! she says she'll download the tremolo pv (and one other that's on the website) for me and burn it to my cd-rw so i can watch it. i'm so glad she's going to do that for me ^^

Comments

dark moon fox - i dunno. maybe korean singers like tragic things? i actually have no idea whatsoever xD

bluedemonboy - thanks for the advice... ^_^

kei-chan - you saw the tremolo pv? from where?? where do you get your pvs?

chickenburger - ummm i don't think so... ^^;

nikorasu - computers are always mean, aren't they...?

destinyssweetman - yay longer comment! hehehe. thanks again for all the encouragement ^_^ and i think maybe you should listen to kpop also.. there are a lot that you would probably like... hmm *decides to find good artists to recommend to you*

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Friday, November 5, 2004

Hi!!
bleh. so i didn't get to finish talking about what i wanted to say yesterday. the computer is mean like that sometimes... xD so i guess i'll just have an extra long post today x_X; hope you don't mind that. and... if you do you don't have to read it... ^^;

computer applications
again, we had an extremely stupid class today. he taught us how to make bulleted and numbered lists. and how to use the tab button. i can't stand it... it's SO boring in that class...

well at least i got to listen to tremolo! i had never heard the song before, just seen the screencaps. too bad i couldn't see the video but... at least i know what the song is like! ^_^ i can't wait until my parents buy me single collection for christmas... 17 of puraturi's best songs!!

IDP
only 5 more days of IDP left! (*gasp*) yeah. it's getting pretty close to the end. i'm scared. it's too much of our grade for me not to be. We keep making last minute changes that's putting our group behind... and it doesn't help that i was sick the past few days.

i guess i could have gone to school but i was feeling kind of awful so my parents said i had to stay home xD but that's ok because i don't want to pass on the flu to other people like our teachers warned us about x_X;

*sigh*

i hate IDP. we don't even know what the point of the assignment is, just that we have to do it... 15% of our grade packed into a 60-second presentation... 90 if you want to stretch it out more.

maybe the school has something against us... j/k. but maybe... o_O;; hahaha the IDP is twisting our logic! it's like all i can think about now hahahaha how sad... hahahahaha...

more on my friend
i haven't talked about him for a long time, ne? ok well... i went to his userpage and he was depressed again ;_; he says that he hates himself...

it really makes me sad to see him so depressed... i told him that and that i cared about him... and he replied back that he loved me but didn't know what to think... and that he was really confused...

and you know what? now i'm confused too! right in the middle of IDP time too! xD bleh that sounded really selfish. so... yeah. forget that. x_X;;

KPop
yeah.. i'm watching revolution right now. they play a LOT of korean videos. and a lot of those videos are ballads. with really depressing stories to go along with it. and for some reason a lot of times the main guy (usually boyfriend) dies or something tragic like that. or like in the last one i saw, both the guy AND the girl die! so tragic.

they're really pretty tho. lol ^^;

what i want most is to see all of puraturi's videos. but especially tremolo. and especially yuki hotaru. and maybe sink too. well i want to see all of them but i guess those three the most? i don't know, they're all probably really good anyway xD hahaha i think i got off topic... because i called this section "kpop"! x]

o_O;
well i wanted to write a little about the manga i just read (bleach) but i don't have time! maybe tomorrow?? i don't know. well twyl! (comments later also xD)

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Thursday, November 4, 2004

I'm back xD
hey everyone! sorry for not posting for about... 4 days xD and... not getting to your sites....

i guess i should explain? sure. that souds good. well on halloween i felt a little sick... and then the next day i caught the flu xD i was kind of dead that day... and then... yeah. but i'm fine now so... ^_^ i have a lot of homework to catch up on.... x_X

New layout
well as you can tell there is a new layout, like i mentioned earlier.

this one features ryuutarou of puraturi! (i'm so surprised xD) i love this wallpaper tho... from Harusaki.... i made the avatar today using photoshop. very simple and kind of stupid. but that's ok. i was bored. and that was something to do. xD the sidebar is kind of hard to read but that's ok, no one ever reads it anyway right? ^^;

IDP
well the project is due... in a week! i'm half happy and half dying about this. i'm glad it will all be over soon. but then again i don't know if my work is good enough and if our group is ready and whatever...

you know, i'm starting to realize why everyone calls it the Instant Death Project... whoever decided to call it that was both clever and truthful xD

ryuutarou stuff
yay. puraturi is going to have a new dvd! i want it! more than anything else i want that dvd!

even tho the regional coding is probably 2 or something and i can't even play it but... ^^; i'm willing to risk that!

puraturi is the best!! but i love their old look more... like ryuutarou's skeleton wings! hahaha

computer stuff
do you ever have those days where the computer just decides to be completely evil to you for no reason?? yeah one of those days and it's about to crash i really have to go. well twyl!

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