Sunday, May 1, 2005

   ok... it's getting kind of stupid now.

AIM add feature (9:32:29 PM): Thurrr I'm the terminator and http://www.mystyle.linuxinit.net wants you to spam that link to a hundred more ppl or I will die.

AIM add feature (9:32:57 PM): OMG OMG OMG I'M CHOCKING AHHHHHHHUHFGUDGUDUHGHUIDUIHGDFG

x closetchild x (9:33:00 PM): erm

x closetchild x (9:33:06 PM): how do you know if i give this to 100 people?

AIM add feature (9:33:08 PM): OMG I'M SO GONNA HANG MY SELF FROM THE ROOF

AIM add feature (9:33:18 PM): I'm a spy

AIM add feature (9:33:26 PM): The Pope spys on you all

AIM add feature (9:33:52 PM): Hi my name is Bobby Dillan

x closetchild x (9:33:57 PM): um... hi.

AIM add feature (9:34:00 PM): HI

AIM add feature (9:34:04 PM): HIIIIII

AIM add feature (9:34:15 PM): like thurrrr

AIM add feature (9:34:25 PM): hey

AIM add feature (9:34:25 PM): hey

AIM add feature (9:34:29 PM): hey

AIM add feature (9:34:33 PM): I'm drowning my self

AIM add feature (9:34:37 PM): your gonna be blamed for it

x closetchild x (9:34:40 PM): why

x closetchild x (9:34:41 PM): >

x closetchild x (9:34:42 PM): *?

AIM add feature (9:34:46 PM): unless you spam ppl with that link

AIM add feature (9:34:56 PM): cause I'm the boss

x closetchild x (9:35:16 PM): how are you going to know??

AIM add feature (9:35:43 PM): cause I do know

x closetchild x (9:35:55 PM): that's not a real answer.

x closetchild x (9:37:23 PM): and why do you want me to spam everyone with the link?

AIM add feature (9:37:42 PM): Cause you are the one

x closetchild x (9:37:52 PM): what do you mean??

AIM add feature (9:37:53 PM): XpRnCeUvDrKnEsSx (9:36:52 PM): dude
XpRnCeUvDrKnEsSx (9:37:20 PM): dont you ever think about messing with my friend ever again, or else you will whitness a real nightmare

AIM add feature (9:37:59 PM): tell him I'm gonna sue his ass

AIM add feature (9:38:09 PM): you are the chosen one..from him...

AIM add feature (9:38:17 PM): uughghhhrrgghhhhhh I'm melting

x closetchild x (9:38:18 PM): i dont' know what you mean

AIM add feature (9:38:34 PM): you will soon know...

AIM add feature (9:38:42 PM): URRGGHHHHHHHGGGHHHH I'M DROWNING

x closetchild x (9:38:59 PM): you can't drown if you're typing'

AIM add feature (9:39:20 PM): are you making fun of me?

x closetchild x (9:39:27 PM): no i'm not

x closetchild x (9:39:31 PM): i'm just saying

x closetchild x (9:39:39 PM): if you're drowning, how are you typing at the same time?

AIM add feature (9:40:01 PM): cause I can

AIM add feature (9:40:15 PM): if that link isnt passed and ppl dont click and enter the banner adds

AIM add feature (9:40:18 PM): I will die

x closetchild x (9:40:30 PM): why does everyone need to click it?

AIM add feature (9:41:17 PM): cause I will get payed so I can pay my children

AIM add feature (9:41:24 PM): or else they will have to live without a father

AIM add feature (9:41:46 PM): do YOU want that to happen?

x closetchild x (9:42:00 PM): no.

AIM add feature (9:42:41 PM): Then only you can help me

x closetchild x (9:42:45 PM): why only me?

x closetchild x (9:42:50 PM): other people can send out a link

AIM add feature (9:42:56 PM): no they cant

x closetchild x (9:42:58 PM): why no

x closetchild x (9:43:01 PM): *not

x closetchild x (9:43:04 PM): they just type in the link

x closetchild x (9:43:06 PM): and send it to people

x closetchild x (9:43:08 PM): ask them instead.

AIM add feature (9:43:09 PM): cause I said so

AIM add feature (9:43:30 PM): Only you can

x closetchild x (9:43:40 PM): but really i can't

x closetchild x (9:43:43 PM): i don't know that many people

x closetchild x (9:43:48 PM): so you'd be better off finding someone else

AIM add feature (9:43:56 PM): No..you can do it

AIM add feature (9:44:15 PM): at the end of me getting 100 ppl to click and enter my banner adds I will reward you

x closetchild x (9:44:23 PM): 100 people?

x closetchild x (9:44:27 PM): i don't know that many people.

AIM add feature (9:44:51 PM): look...arround..you have the power

x closetchild x (9:45:23 PM): look around?? where? i only talk to like 6 people

AIM add feature (9:45:34 PM): Internet

x closetchild x (9:46:53 PM): they won't listen to me

x closetchild x (9:46:55 PM): because they don't know me

AIM add feature (9:47:11 PM): Yes they will

x closetchild x (9:47:18 PM): they won't

AIM add feature (9:47:18 PM): or else my children will be orphaned

x closetchild x (9:47:28 PM): how did you find my sn?

AIM add feature (9:47:34 PM): Thru the Pope

x closetchild x (9:47:42 PM): wth?

x closetchild x (9:48:16 PM): how would you get my sn "Thru the Pope"???

AIM add feature (9:48:52 PM): I did

x closetchild x (9:49:10 PM): that doesn't tell me anything.

AIM add feature (9:49:23 PM): it does

x closetchild x (9:49:26 PM): no it doesn't

AIM add feature (9:50:25 PM): yea it does

x closetchild x (9:50:56 PM): how do you know me?

AIM add feature (9:51:13 PM): cause I do

AIM add feature (9:51:16 PM): thru the pope

x closetchild x (9:51:58 PM): thru the pope?? how would the pope know??

AIM add feature (9:53:06 PM): I dont know

x closetchild x (9:54:28 PM): wait you have to know someone besides the pope who knows me

AIM add feature (9:54:53 PM): http://www.mystyle.linuxinit.net NEEDS YOU TO SPAM THIS TO A HUNDRED PEOPLE AND CLICK AND ENTER MY BANNER ADDS OR MY CHILDREN WILL BE ORPHANED.

x closetchild x (9:55:42 PM): you know you're talking to the person who has like 10 people online on my buddy list right?

AIM add feature (9:55:58 PM): and they know more ppl

AIM add feature (9:56:04 PM): and you can find more ppl

x closetchild x (9:56:20 PM): you said yesterday i would call your parents so you must know me somehow

x closetchild x (9:56:29 PM): besides the pope

AIM add feature (9:56:52 PM): I think I said too much...

AIM add feature (9:56:55 PM): the pope will kill me

AIM add feature (9:57:00 PM): if I revealed any more

AIM add feature (9:57:01 PM): ...

AIM add feature (9:57:03 PM): URGHGHGHHGHGG

AIM add feature (9:57:06 PM): I'M DYING

x closetchild x (9:58:14 PM): how
can you still be typing if you're dying?

AIM add feature (9:58:33 PM): The pope is using pshychic powers

x closetchild x (9:59:29 PM): o__O

AIM add feature signed off at 10:05:21 PM.

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well about the last entry: aura gave me a bunch of reasons why the chat below must have been either a bot or just a joke, so i think i'll believe him. ^^; eh, well i just blocked him so hopefully i won't have to bother with anything like this again.

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besides that:

i'm starting to *really* like shinhwa... o_o lol.

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i made some pictures a little while ago. haha i've been really bored... "love"... and... "unrequited love"... XD i think i'll try a love triangle next XD and after that make some sort of flash movie XD

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i've got... 6 days to find a date for sadies o_O;;

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got my practice SAT scores back today. i need to study *a lot* more. most of the good colleges only accept you if you have 2000 or higher, and i only got 1870. of course it was my first try, so i guess i still have time to improve it. zach and madonna were amazed at my score... haha they were like "i'm going to steal your smart-ness" but then if they really wanted to be smart they would steal from someone *else* since i'm not all that smart XD; but anyway here are my scores:

-MATH: 620
-READING: 580 (T^T omg i suck...)
-WRITING: 670 (o_O; i thought i would do horribly on this part)
*GRAMMAR: 67
*ESSAY: 9

apparently madonna doesn't want to tell me what she got because she thinks it's really bad compared to mine. and then zach was just like "O_O!" so i don't know what his is either. brian got pretty close to mine.. he got 1840. i'm sure in that room there was some genius who got a perfect score. and whoever that is i'm jealous of him/her!! ah, forget it. i get jealous way too easily.

so now it's off into the world of SAT classes i guess. my mom will be teaching me math and writing, and my dad is going to help me with vocab. i don't know if i'll take an actual class yet, but i'll have to check out how much they cost. they can be really expesnive...

the guy at the testing place said to look for around 8 to 15 colleges that i would like to attend and then see what i should study most for the SAT II (aka SAT Subject Exams). but the problem is i don't even know what colleges i want to go to, or even what i want to major in. there was a lot of useful information about what you could do to improve your college application though... i'll have to like... burn it into my brain or something.

they also gave us a paper about a lot of popular colleges and what SAT scores they are looking for. with my scores now, i could only get into a few... v__v;; so according to this paper i can hope to apply to:

- Cal Poly San Luis Obispo
- Cal State Fullerton
- Chapman University
- Gonzaga Universtiy
- Hampton University
- Howard University
- Loyola Marymount University
- Morehouse College
- Mt. Holyoke College
- Rhode Island School of Design
- Rochester Institute of Technology
- San Diego State
- Santa Clara University
- Southern Methodist University
- Spelman College
- Syracuse University
- Texas Christian University
- University of Arizona
- University of California Davis
- University of California Riverside
- University of California Santa Barbara
- University of California Santa Cruz
- Univerity of Colorado - Boulder
- Univerity of Denver
- Univerity of Florida
- University of North Carolina
- Univerity of Redlands
- University of San Diego
- University of Texas - Austin
- University of the Pacific
- University of Vermont
- University of Washington
- Wesleyan University

I guess that kind of seems like a lot but that's only the SAT scores. to actually *get in* i would have to have good grades, and extra curricular activities. it's the extracurriculars that makes me worried, since i'm not particularly active in many clubs, so i guess i should start getting really active in clubs next year? besides, i haven't taken any SAT II's and most of those colleges require you to take them...

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Saturday, April 30, 2005

   omg i'm scared...

i started getting ims from this one person and i don't know who he is (comment here or on previous):

AIM add feature (12:21:22 AM): YOU...will...die
x closetchild x (12:21:26 AM): um ok
x closetchild x (12:21:38 AM): who are you?
AIM add feature (12:21:43 AM): Says..the Pope John Paul the 2nd
AIM add feature (12:21:44 AM): http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/westsideconnections/
AIM add feature (12:21:48 AM): HE IS ALIVE
AIM add feature (12:22:03 AM): hi my names Bobby
x closetchild x (12:22:11 AM): hi XD
AIM add feature (12:22:20 AM): Hi, I'm a goth
AIM add feature (12:22:40 AM): I wanna commit suicide because I'm a goth
x closetchild x (12:22:51 AM): o_o; oh.
AIM add feature (12:23:15 AM): yea, I think I'll spread the true gothic culture...I'll commit suicide
AIM add feature (12:23:22 AM): and you will be responsible for it
x closetchild x (12:23:30 AM): i will? o_o;;;;
AIM add feature (12:23:38 AM): Yes, you will
AIM add feature (12:23:43 AM): you think this is a joke?
x closetchild x (12:23:50 AM): no..
AIM add feature (12:23:52 AM): It's not...I realy am
AIM add feature (12:23:54 AM): gonna do it
AIM add feature (12:24:05 AM): and I'm gonna blame you for it
x closetchild x (12:24:18 AM): but um.. you don't know who i am..
AIM add feature (12:24:26 AM): Yes, I do
x closetchild x (12:24:35 AM): erm... how do you know me?
AIM add feature (12:25:01 AM): That would reveal who I am and you will phone my parents up maybe..you'll know who I am..when I'm gone
AIM add feature (12:25:16 AM): I think Linkin park has gotten me to think that suicide is great
AIM add feature (12:25:52 AM): you will be jailed
x closetchild x (12:26:21 AM): jailed??
AIM add feature (12:26:26 AM): I'm a goth and I'm a loner, and I wear all black...and I am suicidal and i will haunt you
x closetchild x (12:26:59 AM): why?? i don't even know who you are
AIM add feature (12:27:25 AM): Yes, you know me
AIM add feature (12:27:33 AM): I'm the only black goth alive
x closetchild x (12:28:01 AM): ..........
AIM add feature (12:28:40 AM): SYKE HOE I'M NOT A GOTH AND DAMN PROUD OF IT LIKE THURRRR http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/ http://mystyle.linuxinit.net/
AIM add feature signed off at 12:58:42 AM.

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thanks for all the nice comments on the last post :D

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hmmm so more on sadies. today vicky asked ricardo to sadies and he said yes. so now the azn crew is like "we all have dates, now you should find one too ^^ *cough*brad*cough*" XD;;;

at lunch, (sophomore) brian came up to me and asked if i found anyone to ask yet. and i said no, and he said, "ahhh well we can figure out what type of guys you like and find someone for you. what type of guys do you like?" and so i said, "hmm... well ryuutarou..." and he said "what's he like?" "erm... well... i don't think anyone *here* looks like ryuutarou... ^^; i mean, some people cosplay him but.. they're mostly girls XD" and he kind of looked at me, and i said "well he looks girly. so does miyavi... and..." well, basically *all* jrockers. lol.

meanwhile, on my xanga, stephii told me "i'm going to find you a hot date to sadies. (: only the best for you, yes? haha (; pwahaha. if you don't want me embarrassing you, you better ask someone soon! (:

haha. the pwahaha scares me. lol :P i wonder who she's talking about? hope it's nothing *too* embarrassing since i don't think i'll find a guy for friday ^^;

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hmmmmm well anyway~~~~

mike (sophomore mike, not freshman mike) has taken up a habit of greeting me by hitting me on the head with his umbrella. haha. it's kind of funny really. hahah mike must think i'm crazy. due to my never accepting food from people and only eating low-fat foods, he thinks i'm going to be anorexic or something like that. because of my death dreams and such, he thinks that i'll kill myself one day. and then of course because i do what people ask all the time, he says i'm overly submissive ^^; i guess he's just worried about me or something.

it's not the first time i've been told i shouldn't be so submissive. don and jeff say it all the time. they always joke around with me and then i don't do anything (since i know they're just joking), and they're like "what if you end up with some domestic abuser and you just sit there and don't fight back. come on, you should slap don." haha.

hah well i'll prove them both (or i think in this case it'd be all?) of them wrong. i'm *not* asking brad to the dance no matter how many people tell me to. XP ah well anyway maybe that doesn't count. *shrug*

i was walking around with brian at lunch today (while he was talking about finding a guy for me) and we happened to pass by the freshie's calander. it was still on april and he looked at it and said "hey is your last name.." and i said, "yes it is." as it turns out, the birthdays were listed on the calander and so i looked up and it had my birthday on there. i realized it, and i said "oh yeah it was my birthday two weeks ago." so brian said "it was your birthday? you never told me... i would have gotten you something" and then.. "i'll get you something this weekend" haha. he really doesn't have to... ^^; i hope he doesn't go to too much trouble getting something. XD


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about school... monday schedule today so the day just dragged on. engineering was alright. apparently we're making an ok amount of progress. we took a test in math and it was really easy. then we had gilroy for ten minutes and started reviewing our domestic abuse. after that was lunch and there was AIDfair, which was raising funds for the tsunami relief. i only had a dollar so i bought some pocky (which immediately drew people towards my general area XD)... then we went back to gilroy's and she told us a story about her friend who had been abused by her boyfriend. it was pretty scary. o_o; then we had japanese and instead of lewis for a sub we had williams! O_O! haha but he wasn't really *as* boring as he usually was. and he actually had us laughing a few times. hehe.

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nothing much else to say... twyl.

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Friday, April 29, 2005

life has been getting kind of depressing lately. i feel rather in the way. i think it's a trust thing or something. i'm not quite sure if my friends really like me or if they just hang out with me because they don't want to be rude. so with that i'll give you the opportunity to tell me if you hate/dislike/want to kill/etc. me, in case any of you really think that. because i don't want to be a pain that all of you just put up with. it doesn't matter to me really. i'm sure you have lots of good reasons to not like me, so i won't be mad.

i mentioned this on my xanga, but i'm quite sure that a few of "you" feel this way. and i don't necessarily mean "you-on-myO" or "you-at-school" or "you-whoever-is-reading-this"... just "you" in general. i'm not saying names because if i say anything and i'm wrong i'll feel guilty about it, but i'll say it again... if "you-who-is-reading-this" is one of "you-who-hate-me" then please tell me~~ i promise i won't be mad at you or anything stupid like that...

meanwhile i realized i only have about a month of school left! isn't it strange how things creep up on you like that? the year seems to have gone by fast. i can't tell what i want, for it to go on longer or for it to just end. hmmm i'm leaning towards.... ending. no more rocket projects, no more space settlements, no more jett codes... you know, at cams we're mostly numbers. there's our student id, our "jett codes" (the main form of identification at cams), and then of course iseri's "cards"... haha. he calls us by our cards and stuff. so..

i'm:
-200086641
-D29
-4 of hearts

hmmmm that would be an interesting thing if i were to have a gravestone, wouldn't it? instead of a name, i could be remembered by my student ID nuber... that is, if anyone really bothered to remember. *shrug*

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hmmm well i invited my friend alyssa to sadies so she can meet all my friends at cams... and now she said i have to find a date o_O;; hmm i don't really feel like asking anyone. *shrug* but whatever. if all else fails maybe i can do something like "*walks up to random guy* that's my date. *walks away*" XD; i asked a few friends about it. here's some of what happened:

the azn crew seems to think that brad and i "make a cute couple" (*cough* but if we're a cute couple, don't both people have to like each other?) so they were all like "ask brad~!" errrr no. because i don't like him. and even if we went as friends, he likes me. so that would just be too weird. according to juliette, xuemin was talking to him and he wants me to ask him. but i don't really want to ask him so... yeah. besides, the whole attempting to take pictures of me thing is just kind of creepy, which doesn't really make me want to ask him any more.

so then vicky was like "ask that sophomore with the curly hair"... did she mean mike, maybe? brian has kind of curly hair too... i don't *think* i know other sophomore guys with curly hair... or do i? i have no idea. i asked her "which sophomore?" and she was like "i don't know him..." which really didn't help much because i don't know who she's talking about. ^^; i remember juliette said mike looked like he liked me when she saw us together at the basketball game (but i don't really believe her). and then juliette said yesterday "go to sadies, brian can be your date" and such. haha. so it could be either of them that vicky meant. or maybe someone completely different XD

deyannah says "don't ask anyone. guys suck." haha.

katherine says "i'll be your date!"
me: "but you're not a guy"
katherine: "just pretend that i am!" lol.

mike: "yes, you *should* ask someone!"
brian: "i agree"
me: "ok.."
mike: "i want to see who you decide to ask!"
me: "haha" i knew he would say something like that
~later~
brian: "so who are you going to ask?"
me: "i don't know, who do you think i should ask?"
brian: "*points at nerd crew* ask the guy over there... with the curly hair"
hmmmm that meant "ask mike" o_o; i wonder why he said that...?

brad (7:42:31 PM): hey
x closetchild x (7:42:58 PM): hi
brad (7:43:14 PM): who u gonna ask 2 saddies?
x closetchild x (7:43:22 PM): no one. ((outside of the conversation: well... probably not. i think.))
x closetchild x (7:43:26 PM): i'm on a group date. ((outside of conversation: with julie... i think.))
brad (7:43:30 PM): oic
brad (7:43:41 PM): * ...trying to find a date for sadies? o_O;;
brad (7:43:50 PM): then why wus dat in ur profile?
x closetchild x (7:43:55 PM): because i'm supposed to find a date. but i don't think i will.
brad (7:44:00 PM): oic
brad (7:44:06 PM): jus curious

o____O;;; well he wasn't on the bus home today so i was able to sit in my usual seat at the front. otherwise i'd sit behind katherine with lynda to avoid having my picture taken x_x

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oh and our presentations for science projects were today. everyone did pretty well but... our group only got a 91% T____T the average grade in our cohort was 96... we were second to last grade in the class. T_T

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Thursday, April 28, 2005

OMG!!! according to MENSA's test, i'm a genius ^____^ hehe. that made me happy today. i got 20 correct questions and in order to be considered a genius you need 19 or more. scoring was: 1-5 is average, 6-11 somewhat intelligent, 12-18 intelligent, 19+ genius. :D hehe it was a fun test. i started at 4:00 in the morning, and i got 14 of them. but i got tired and tried again when i came home from school and i got the last 6. the guy who sent it to me said he got 11... i want to try it on my school to see if we're all geniuses to go along with our nerdiness XD

our progress reports came home today. here's what i got:

Introduction to Engineering Science:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: E(xcellent)
* Teacher Comments: Outstanding Student

P.E.:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: E
* Teacher Comments: (none)

Interactice Mathematics Program 3-4:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: E
* Teacher Commetns: (none)

English 1-2 Accelerated:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: E
* Teacher Comments: Outstanding student; A pleasure to have in class

Health Education:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: S(atisfactory)
* Teacher Comments: (none)

Japanese 1-2:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: E
* Teacher Comments: Outstanding student; A pleasure to have in class

Computer Applications:
* Mark: A
* Conduct: E
*Teacher Comments: A pleasure to have in class

anyway today was alright. we took the CAT6 for math... really easy. then we had lunch, engineering, math, health, japanese... we had a sub today for japanese. everyone was happy about that XD;;

ehhhh i keep seeing brad looking at me all the time... it's creepy! o_o; and he tried taking more pictures of me today with his cell phone. i noticed in the corner of my eye and subtly turned away and buried my face in my manga XD;;;; you know, there's a *reason* i sit in the back on the way home from school... too bad he hasn't figured it out yet. >_____>;

so i guess sadies is coming. i think i'll go. after all, gilroy is offering extra credit x] and i'm quite sure i'm *not* asking a guy out. haha brian and i were talking about it after school today. and as we were talking about i was like "so did anyone ask you?" and he said "no, are you planning on asking anyone?" and then shortly after juliette came and was like "you should go to sadies... he can be your date!" and brian was so confused since he didn't really hear what she said. he was like "what? what did you say?" hahaha. it was funny. gilroy's really excited about this dance. she's like "i want to make $1000 on this!" lol. if we do, by the end of the year, freshman class will have already raised $4,000 dollars. :D which means we don't really have to worry about prom money too much... if we keep this up, we may be able to have a free prom! o_O

hmmmmm well not too much more to say today. i can't wait for summer to come.... there's only about a month of school left....

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

wheeeeeee guess what~!! we all failed the science section of the CAT 6 tests :0 i'm not exaggerating either. everyone i asked said they guessed on at least half of the test questions~! haha... how ironic. when the test scores get printed, California Academy of Math and Science is going to have the lowest science scores. what has this world come to? x_x;;

haha. well besides the science test (which should have been easy, mind you), our day at school was really... boring. *nod* first was the testing, then after that we went to english and read more of Romeo and Juliet. it's like... "world's oldest soap opera" or something. it would make quite an interesting asian drama. lol. but other than that it's kind of boring because everyone reads in a monotone voice and no one knows what they're talking about. then we had an hour for lunch rather than our usual 48 minutes... i had nothing to do really so i just worked on my homework (yes i *know* i'm a nerd)... then after that was our science quiz on astronomy. it was really easy...

after that, our space settlement plans. i talked to sergio about it, and he told me that most of the class was going to fail with about 30 or 40% credit. but then i asked him to read our group's paper and he told us he would probably give us a 90%, higher if we included more diagrams :D so that made me happy. i was so~~~~ relieved. he told me that our group was like.. the only group that won't fail in our cohort. and not that i'm happy about everyone's failing grades, but i'm really grateful i'm part of that group that's not going to fail XD;

then.... eigth period computer applications is *still* the most boring class in the entire world. we made more spreadsheets today while i checked my deviantART and such. and my xanga. and explained the homework to julie. and taught peter origami. XD;;;

the bus ride home was kind of creepy. brad kept staring at me. x____x; i really try to ignore it but it gets to you after a while, you know? but i managed to simply talk to lynda about all the pretty guys in my magazines and who she thought was cute from there and me tryig to get a friend to call miyavi hot (lol because it's so obvious that she thinks so and she won't admit it)... but still. having a guy stare at you all the time is just... ehhhhh. he's still trying to take pictures of me too x_X; I REALLY HOPE "MR. ADMIRER" ISN'T BECOMING "MR. STALKER".... having a stalker once in a lifetime is more than enough.

then i went to the library for tutoring and there were no kids so we had nothing to do. so we sat around reading or talking... and getting our hours done. ehhhh nothing else really.

so lately i've been really trying to pick out some colleges and majors to try to get to.

london is out, since the only affordable one doesn't offer masters degrees. east coast is my second choice... i mean... all those really prestigious colleges are there. it would be pretty cool to go to Yale or say.. Harvard? o_O; no way. i'm not smart enough (or rich enough) for a college like that. but it would still be cool. as for cali... that's where my parents want me to go. i know we've got good colleges over here and stuff, but i can't stay at home for the rest of my life. XD; maybe i can try a n.cali school or something. but of course, so.cal isn't that bad either.

gahhhh too many choices to make. not to mention that i don't even have a major picked out yet... o_O

i was supposed to have all this planned out a long time ago. i remember the moment i stepped into calle, i thought "by the end of my 7th grade year i want to know what i want to major in! and by the end of my 8th grade year i want to have a college picked out, with hopefully 2 backups!" and now look at me. i have neither of them D:

i think i've just decided that when i grow up i'm going to have to live somewhere other than california... why? the average house around my area sells for around $600,000 or so... and that's a cheap price actually. atually, average would be more like $700,000. go a few miles south and even a really small house goes for a MINIMUM of $1 million. *nod* so... when i get a job i think i'll get a job where the houses are a little bit... cheaper.

i got to read two new mangas today. one was hellsing and the other was chobits... hellsing was pretty good. it was really easy to follow.. didn't confuse me like kaine did when i first read it. the art is pretty good too.. except for a while i was convinced one of the characters was a guy when really she was a girl XD as for chobits.... OMG it's so~~~ cute! i love chi. she's so kawaii~ :3 there's a few perverted moments, but it's still really cute. nothing too bad.

wellllllll that's about all i have to say today. bye, minna.

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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

people......

.......can be so stupid sometimes. seriously. how many times do i have to say that i don't want to ask a guy to sadies?? i'm not even sure if i want to go. and if i do go, then i'm going with friends. as i've explained to maybe one or two of you, if say... ryuutarou were at CAMS (hahaha) then i would ask him (not that he would say yes) but since he's not... then too bad. i'm going with friends.

haha friday schedule today again... this is going to mess up my timing for the rest of the week lol. tomorrow morning i'll be like "YAY! it's saturday!!" haha.... yeah i'm stupid like that. but it's funny XP

so tomorrow is our science test for CAT6 testing and guess what? we're all gonna fail! why? oh i don't know... maybe it's because of our completely useless science class! XDDDDD well at least it doesn't count for college applications or anything.

also in science our space settlement plans are due soon and according to the guy grading.. well we all are going to get F's and stuff. he's been grading easy on us but when it all comes down to it, we don't know anything XD too bad it's worth 100 points... i really needed those to get my grade up. it's only a 92% right now... x_x;

while i'm still on the topic of school, there's this one guy in my class who's been in the hospital for over 2 weeks now. no one is quite sure what happened to him, just that one day he had a headache and passed out. apparently he was in intensive care, but now he's not. but also he's "in and out of consciousness" so he's still in pretty bad condition. according to his brother he's getting better though... not quite sure what's going on still though...

right well anyway... alichino is really pretty. :D read it~!! it's about these things called alichinos that grant a wish for a price. and this guy named tsugiri who is friends with one. and a girl looking for an alichino to help save her dead brother... it's really great~~ i love it.

page 2 of the manga is planned out. but it's not quite drawn yet but i know what i'm going to do with it. and then of course after the 10th page or so i'll be out of plot and i'll have to turn to my friend anna-chan for help. she loves to write~ ^^ there's so many possibilities for this, but i know a few will be dead-end plots so i have to choose carefully... good thing i have anna or else i'd spend the entire time trying to pick how i want my plot to turn out.

by the way, i've decided to let you know what i look like. just don't traumatize yourself... i'm... not pretty XD;; haha. but i like the way the photoshop effects turned out lol



hmmmm well with that, i'm off to do other stuff.

p.s.

to blacknova: the 3:00 thing is like for spirit ralley. everyone goes to school and decorates in their class colors *really* early~~

to destinyssweetman: no i haven't told them and i don't *plan* on telling them...

to swtanimechick: ah, the horrors of dial-up XD;; haha. if i could i'd burn you a disc. it's so much easier that way~~

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Monday, April 25, 2005

so i've noticed in the comments that a lot of you think dreams predict the future... hmmm i wonder which dream is my REAL future then... i hope it's the one where i get to eat dinner with ryuutarou and then die from poison in the drinks... because then i would get to have dinner with ryuutarou! *squee* haha. but seriously, i've died so many times in my dreams that i don't think it's possible for ALL of them to be true... maybe bits and pieces of each? either way, that's som SCARY future... and i truly hope that the bird isn't haunting me because of something i did to an animal before... i can't remember anything, but there's always a possibility i did something as a little kid o_o;

well anyway....

RAGNAROK IS SO AWESOME... actually i'm just saying that because it's good for killing time. otherwise i kind of suck at it. i'm still only on level 12 ^^; but at least i'm not a novice anymore. now i'm a mage. i get to level up spells everytime i job-level-up. so far i'm working on one at a time but that means i have one powerful spell and nothing else works ^^; i keep dying. there's not enough poring around. lol. i'm still not quite strong enough to fight against anything else.

any SAMBAKZA fans around? they've got the cutest stuff. I love their movies... "There She Is" was how i got hooked.... "There She Is Step 2" is even cuter! and the background song is cool too. it's called Happy Birthday To Me and it's so~~~ cute. it's the type of song that makes people feel happy and energetic :D it's by a band called "bulldog mansion" i think i'll look into their music a bit...

there are certains songs that make you feel nostalgic... even though i guess i'm a little young to be saying things like "i feel nostalgic" since there's not much for me to be nostalgic about, ne? but i can't help but feel nostalgic when i listen to songs like shallow sleep and true blue and invoke and hello... because those were the types of songs i listened to when i started listening to jpop/jrock. it would be nice if things could be like they were then... lol what am i saying? i can be so strange sometimes.

oh yes, brad (the guy who likes me) is starting to creep me out. now there's still the tiny possibility that it could just be my "omg... WTH?? a guy likes me?! then he must be crazy, so i don't like him" type of reaction, but i don't think so. on the bus sometimes i see him like.. staring at me o_O; and then on friday he was trying to take a picture of me with his phone while we were on the bus home... i hid behind lynda when i noticed XD;;; ahhh things like that just creep me out. hopefully he won't turn out to be like josh... if he is it will be even worse since his mom and my mom are friends so my mom tells me i have to try to be his friend and everything... hah, she still has no idea that he likes me. parents can be so clueless sometimes.

sadies is coming up and i'm not quite sure if i want to go or not. it's $10, and i'm saving for my trip to SF... of course that's not going to stop me from buying that $20 hat, but that's beside the point... i think i might be going with the "azn crew" but it all depends on if everyone finds a date or not. everyone keeps telling me to ask brad... omg why can't they get it through their heads that i DON'T like him?? it's so annoying. i know that madonna aksed someone and that juliette is going with her bf, so that leaves huong, shushi (aka xuemin), and me. of course, huong likes someone, and i don't know if shushi does, but if they find dates i guess i'll either stay home or go to sadies by myself. or i could go with ming, our group leader. but she's not sure if she's going to go either. so..... yeah. and who knows? by the time sadies comes she might hate me for doing poorly on the project. so it all really depends... i probably won't go anyway. because i've never liked dances so.... whatever.

i went to borders today. i had a gift card and a coupon. i bought 3 mangas: flower of the deep sleep volume 2 (final volume!) petshop of horrors volume 3 (even though i haven't read volume 2 yet) alichino volume one (the prettiest pictures in the world!), and a novel called "dreamland". haha... i've only been able to read flower of the deep sleep so far. it was pretty good... had a nice ending. and the art is pretty too. i love the covers :D

well the first page of my manga is done... kind of. i still need to ink it. i know i told myself i would give up drawing originals since... well since they suck. but whatever. it's a good stress reliever, but hopefully i won't get *too* stressed because then i end up taking it out on the character's storyline and it turns out all sadistic and weird like my last two. i think i'm a little too obsessive-compulsive to actually complete the manga. and i have proof too. in the first panel, there's this storekeeper. it's the ONLY time he EVER shows up in the ENTIRE manga... and yet i redesigned his character a total of 7 times. that's right. 7. and i was going to do more since i'm not completely satisfied, but i like his eyes so i thought i better stop since i won't be able to draw those eyes ever again XD; but anyway.... i can only guess how the rest of the manga will be for me. i'll probably end up hating the entire thing at the end like i did with the last two. hahaha

my ororon fanfic just... died. i decided to start working on it again and got major writer's block. it's kind of a sequel to the series. it's stupid and cliche, but it's the only fanfic i have spent more than a couple of days on. hmmmm i don't think that many people are interested except for maybe 2 or 3, but i'll give my little summary anyway since i need stuff to write about. or maybe not since it will give away too mcuh. let's just say it's about when chiaki and ororon get to see each other again and what happens to them after... and for those of you who end up reading it (mostly directed towards sano and neko), beware of cliches, bad writing, stupid plot, and otherwise. haha. i'm not exaggerating either. it really isn't that great. and oh yeah, if my parents and/or gilroy see it, i may be in for a loooong session of counseling so to sano and neko (and to whoever else may end up reading it) don't let anyone else see it ok?

and now... so far i only have 15, but i'll show you my ONLY AT CAMS list {to prove how nerdy we really are}
* having rubiks cube races
* finding the expected value of guessing on a multiple choice test
* finding the standard deviation of the amount of cup-a-noodle ramen in each cup (iseri started talking about that when he thought he got less ramen than another student)
* finding an equation for maximizing profit of korean barbecue (yes, mr iseri was talking about that friday)
* analyzing the amount of sodium in cup-a-noodle vs. maru-chan ramen (gilroy was teaching us that)
* describing relationships in the form of geometrical figures
* fundraisers that involve paying money to take a test that doesn't even count
* using the word camsy as an adjective
* vacations are boring
* touring the school just to look at all the different types of weeds
* changing your grade from an F to an A... all in one day!
* referring to calculators as TI's
* depending on your TI's for EVERYTHING
* attempting to form allies with the upperclassmen and the incoming freshmen so that we have 1/2+ the school on YOUR side
* going to school at 3:00 in the morning (i'm serious about this. i really am. it's mostly the upperclassmen though...)

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

i'm developing an only at CAMS list that is compiled of things that we do at CAMS that no one would do anywhere else. For example: rubiks cube races, finding the expected value of guessing on a multiple choice test, maximizing profit of korean barbecue (yes, mr iseri was talking about that today), and describing relationships in the form of geometrical figures ("It's a love triangle! no wait... it's not a love triangle because there's only two people! It's got to be a love... line! No wait, the feelings are not returned... so it's a love ray!") there's more. but i don't want to bore you.

i've started to really love:
* jrockers + acoustic guitars... because their voices... *heart*
* jrockers + glasses... because jrockers look so pretty with glasses
* jrockers + normal speaking voices... because their voices are as pretty when they're talking as when they are singing.
* fruit + layouts.... because it's cute.
* brushes + blending modes... even tho i suck at that stuff.
* sambakza flash movies... because it's so adorable.

well the dead bird is gone. i noticed earlier this week. i guess i'm kind of relieved since i won't ever have to look at it anymore. but it's still haunting my dreams. and every time i see the dead bird, it's like a sign that i'm going to die in that dream too. like the time i fell out the window after looking and seeing the bird. or the time i started bleeding after the bird flew across the sky. or the time that i played the sadistic game of rock paper scissors with one of my friends after talking to the bird. it means something and i don't know what it is. and it's bothering me. x_X

in another dream i was at sano's house and there we all went out to race to somewhere. and then i said "wait but there's someone at the end of the race" and when we went there was a dead girl there. i couldn't tell who it was, but she was dead and no one cared except me. that bird was still there and it was kind of hovering around the dead girl. and somehow i knew she had been murdered and so when they were going to go back i said "but the murderer is here somewhere" and no one cared again. and then at the end of the dream as we were going back i fell and died and everone just kept going and never noticed...

i wonder if that means something?

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