Thursday, May 18, 2006

   summer break
well... school is done for us... so I will check as soon as possible... but there is a small issue with getting on in the summer... so... I hope to talk to you all as soon as possible... thanx for all your help... and


Shaun... Love Ya, koi!
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

I Swear
Nothing Else Really says how I feel about my boyfriend... Love Ya!

All 4 One
I Swear



i swear by the the moon
and the stars in the sky
and i swear like the
shadow that's by your side
i see the questions in your eyes
i know what's waiting on your mind
you can be sure i know my part
'cause i stand beside you through the years
you'll only cry those happy tears
and though i make mistakes
i'll never break your heart

and i swear by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there
i swear like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there for better or worse
till death do us part
i'll love you with every beat of my heart
and i swear

i'll give you every thing i can
i'll build your dreams with these two hands
we'll hang some memories on the wall
and when (and when) just the two of us are there
you won't have to ask if i still care
'cause as the time changes the page
my love won't ever age at all

and i swear (i swear) by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there (i'll be there)
i swear (and i swear) like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there (i'll be there) for better or worse
till death do us part i'll love you
with every single beat of my heart and i swear

and i swear (i swear) by the moon
and the stars in the sky i'll be there (i'll be there)
i swear (and i swear) like the shadow that's by your side
i'll be there (i'll be there)
for better or worse (better or worse)
till death do us part i'll love you
with every single beat of my heart
i swear i swear i swear
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   Hopefully some of these can make up for that other post...


To My Awesome Boyfriend...














DEFINITLY ME!!!






SO CUTE!!!









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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

   Apology
I wish to issue a heartfelt apology to those of my male friends that are NOT pigs... I realize that that statement before hand was a bit sexist and also was stereotypical... *which I hate* my apologies...
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Friday, May 12, 2006

Holidays
I have found that the more used to not having a father in my life, the closer I get to my friends, and the independent that I get. I've had alot of people tell me that they are sorry on the loss of the guy that called himself my father; both of them, actaully. I've found that I am much happier and more successful without a father.
Although in my opinion, a father is someone who should be there for you, and should help you with your problems; and he should be a man, not a boy. The guy that claimed to be my father left my mother the day that he found out that she was pregnant... leaving her with a baby on the way, 3 little one, and a teenger (me). Trust me, it's not easy for her... I know that. But I do the best I can... despite the getting out of the house every time that I possibly can, and having a bad attitude about everything... she has always supported me... now Mother's Day is coming up, and I dunno what to do. I hate most holidays, b/c I usually forget that they are coming, and then people like my boy friend (glares) give me gifts... and then I go *oh, $hit!* and scamble about and rush aroun to get hem things...


OMG... this is a long post... and I still have a full 5 page essay on NASA to write, so I don't fail! That's due in an hour... *sighs* I hate NASA... well... I'm gonna go now, and do the stupid essay and go stalk my friends, and freak them out... and then jump out at a random moment from behind a wall and scare them... wish me luck!
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Thursday, May 11, 2006

School Kareoke
Our music teacher sang this song... did quite well... and know I can't get it out of my head... any ideas?


Savage Garden Lyrics
I Knew I Loved You Lyrics


Maybe it's intuition
but some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant
And there it goes,
I think I found my best friend
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only the sense of completion
And in your eyes, I see
the missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound
more than a little crazy
but I believe...

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

Thank you
I just wish to extend a sincere thank you to my friends, who have been more supportive than 99.9% of the people that live here in the city with me. JD, Grif, and others... you know who you are, and I hope you know how much your friendship and support means to me. Thanks guys! ^_^
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Monday, May 8, 2006

Means Something to me...
both of these were lyrics that were given to me...


Richard Marx Lyrics
Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you





CROSSFADE LYRICS

Cold


Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
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Friday, May 5, 2006

Funeral and Viewing
my god. I was fine all through the viewing, and most of the funeral. but, right before they closed the casket, my 9 yr. old cousin looked up at my uncle and asked if he could give him one last hug. He layed there for about 15 minutes, and when they tried to put the casket down, he freaked out and wouldn't let go. it took me and my cousin Amanda to get him off and hold onto him. My uncle had gone out. After they took the casket, we let him go, and he just turned around and buried his face in my shoulder, and we both lost it. Amanda was fine, she didn't even blink, just walked away. But the both of us, just, lost it. he was sobbing harder than I was, but still.

I now have 9 blood red roses in my room from his casket, and one out getting dried. This might sound callous, but I'm glad that this is all over and done with.
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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

COOL!

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