Wednesday, October 6, 2004

   This post will remain Title-less as I don't feel like giving it a name.
Ha, it seems silly little me is just throwing crushes around at random innocent bystanders. I think it might just be me being somewhat lonely, but for some rather odd reason, I'm seeing crazily hot guys around the campus, and I hope to God that the ones that I've seen aren't Frosh because I really can't handle someone that young because a lot of the time, they act younger than they are. Besides, I tend to go for slightly older men.

But damn, seriously, what the hell? Did they all just decide to drop into the campus my last year in university? I've had to go through the three previous years of seeing nothing but pansy-ass hippies with a one or two exceptions that whole time, but now, the hot guys have flooded the campus, and I'm just like filled with the urge to get all dolled up and pretty.

I usually hate getting all dressed up because, hell, there's no point, but now, with the influx of amazingly hot guys with nice hair, I actually sort of want to make that effort. Yesterday, I did get slightly dressed up, and this random guy in the library actually paused in front of where I was sitting, looked me up and down (wtf am I? a piece of meat?? u fucker!), and waited until I looked up at him in irritation before he gave me this amazing smile and winked.

What the fuck? Why can't guys smile at me like that when I wear my normal jeans and hoodie? Although I hate getting looked over, smiles just soften me like butter. Because of the responses I was getting yesterday, I'm now in the mood to keep on dressing up nicely and wearing that horrible make-up even though I hate it. UGH. I don't know.

In any case, there's only really one guy that I want to attract, but it's getting harder and harder to really find things to talk about with him because we can only talk about film for so long, and I usually end up blushing crazily if I stay there talking with him. It's so obvious I've got the hugest crush on him, but like I've been told before, a guy needs to be hit on the head before he realizes when a girl has a crush on him. I guess I have to be more direct, but I don't want to scare him. Ha, I don't know what to do.

You know, it'd be cool if he ended up liking L'Arc~en~Ciel, too. I think I'd be in love if that would happen LOL.

In any case, I should go. I need to pick out an outfit today for class...

...and I can't believe I'm actually saying this stupid shit. I shouldn't care about what I wear...What the fuck is wrong with me. Sigh.

One thing to look foward to: I've preordered the new L'Arc DVD, and I can't wait to see what's going to be on it!!! I can finally see the Otakon performance, and although I'm still bitter as hell for missing it, at least I'll get the opportunity to hear how awesome Hitomi no Juunin turned out. From the reviews I've heard, Hyde sang the song flawlessly at Otakon, and I'd give anything to see that in real life. But I'll just have to settle for seeing it captured on DVD. It's such an awesome song and everyone should listen to it.

Or die.

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Ha, I ended up deciding to wear jeans and a hoodie LOLLL. I found myself looking at my reflection while sort of dressed up and I kept thinking, "Do I look fat?" Ugh. So I said, "FUCK IT!" and threw on a tshirt and a hoodie LOL xD Yay!

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