Thursday, October 7, 2004

Where the heck did he go? T_T
Okay, my crush works at the library on-campus, but I've been there every single day this week, and I hadn't seen him there once. Sigh. The people at the library's Film and Music Center already know who the heck I am because I've been there everyday these past two weeks, and I think it's obvious to everyone that although I try to play it off like I'm watching the films for my classes, I'm really there to instigate conversation with HIM.

I do know two of his classes since he told me, but during those times, I also have classes way across campus, so I can't plan to "accidentally" bump into him wherever his classes are after they end. So my only option so far has been to stake out the library whenever I'm not in class.

And it hasn't worked at all this week! Hmph! I can't believe I'm going all out for this crush. I'm actually making myself talk when I don't usually do that, and I'm actually trying to run into him when I usually hide away. I don't know what else I can do when I can't seem to figure out how to get a hold of him except to find out his phone number, and I don't think I'm brave enough to even ask for that just yet.

I don't know what else I can do. Sigh. It would be a whole lot easier if he could be attracted to me, too, but with my luck, he will never ever like me back, or he'll already have a girlfriend.

Sigh. Well...I'll dress up tomorrow and go back to the library, and stake out the place until maybe 5 pm. If I don't see him tomorrow, I'll probably end up wallowing here LOL. Sigh. Why must pursuing a crush be so difficult? And why is my campus so amazingly huge?! With lots of hills? and trees? and deer?? Sigh.

Today, I hung out with a guy that had confessed to me a couple of weeks ago that he had a crush on me (check my previous posts for details). Hanging out with him again, I really realized that I feel nothing but friendship for him, but he was definitely trying to get closer to me, and he kept trying to get me to stay with him when I said I had to get back home to finish my homework. Sigh. How do you tell a guy that you just want to be friends without hurting his feelings?

Damn, I didn't mean to make this into a place where I complain exclusively about my love life (er...the lack thereof), but since I typed all this stuff up already, I may as well just leave it instead of erasing it all.

UGH, this is why I wanted to stay single for a while. I didn't have to worry about these things. But no, I had to go ahead and have a crush on somebody who's impossible to run into on this huge campus. UGH. I need some sense knocked back into me.

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And here's something I stole from cory xD

(x) I have been drunk
() I have kissed a member of the opposite sex
() I have kissed a member of the same sex
() I crashed a friend's car
() I have been to Japan
(x) I rode in a taxi
() I have been in love
() I've had sex
() I've had sex in public
() I've shoplifted
() I have been fired
() I have cut myself on purpose
(x) I have been in a fist fight
() I've had a 3-some
(x) I've snuck out of my parent's house
() I have been tied up
() I have been caught masturbating
() I have been arrested
() I've made out with a stranger
() I've stolen something from my job
() I've celebrated New Year's in Time Square
() I've gone on a blind date
(x) I've had a crush on a teacher
() I've celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
() I have been to Europe
(x) I've skipped school
() I've slept with a co-worker
() I have thrown up in a bar
() I have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I have eaten sushi
() I have been snowboarding
() I have been snow skiing
() I have made a snow angel
(x) I have been happy with myself
() I have met a movie star
() I had sex in a pool
(x) I went to a prom
() I've bungee jumped
(x) I have been to a pop concert
() I have dated someone for over a year
() I sold naked pictures of myself
(x) I have been in a car accident
(x) I have slept in the nude
(x) I've eaten cheesecake
(x) I've had jury duty
() I've hated someone without knowing them
() I have been to Maine
() I've shot a real gun
() I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles
() I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
() I've done ecstasy
() I've gotten my ass kicked
() I've been caught smoking
() I've milked a cow
() I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
() I've cheated on someone
() Lied one time in this survey
() Lied more then once in this survey
() Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
() Partied every weekend for the last month
() Sniffed markers to get high
(x) Slept for more than 15 hours at a time
() Petted a live tiger
() Kissed someone in the snow
(x) Found a four leaf clover
(x) Gave your parents the finger behind a closed door
() Gotten drunk in Germany
(x) Cried in public
() Cried in public in the last 5 days
(x) Been hit on by a member of the same sex
() Been asked to perform oral sex by a complete stranger
() Have unknowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
() Have knowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
() Hates the SuicideGirls.com banner

Cory added more to make this interesting!

(x) Bitched at someone
(x) Been bitched at
(x) Saved a friend from a bad situation
(x) Went to a baseball game
(x) Went to a football game
(x) Went to a basketball game
(x) Spent the weekend at a friend's
() Sucked my thumb
() Purposefully failed a grade
() Got picked on in school
(x) Dressed like the popular kids
() Joined the military
(x) Been to the beach
() Had a TY Beanie collection
(x) Had a blonde moment
(x) Love your mom
(x) Love your dad
() Gotten along with a step-parent
(x) Gotten a piercing
(x) Told a friend you didn't like their boyfriend/girlfriend
(x) Confronted your parents
(x) And lived to see the next day
() Liked Barnie -
() Liked Teletubbies -
(x) Bought a friend a gift
() And still haven't sent it yet
() Is innocent
() Is perverted
(x) Bought something but never used it
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