Friday, October 8, 2004

   Week 2 - Mission: FAILED
Well. Nothing has come out of my staking out the library this week. All I've gotten each and every single day is a sore backside from sitting in the library for 5 hours straight studying my ass off. The great thing about it is, I'm finished with all the homework I needed to do for the weekend.

What I found out was that after a Film Theory class, one of my film buddies actually talked to my Library Guy this week about what we film majors like talking about: the comparison between G5s and G4s and which editing system is really the best, the latest cameras, etc. Library Guy might actually just be a Film minor, which would explain why I hadn't seen him in any of my film classes at all.

In any case, there's this one guy in my senior seminar class who's been really friendly to me even though I've never ever talked to him before. Every time I come into the classroom, he's usually the first one there and he always says hi to me, and he doesn't do that to anyone else whenever they come in. And this week, in the library, he's there whenever I am, and although it's been quite obvious I'm looking for someone else, he's really making that effort to talk to me.

Now a part of me wants to figure out what the hell he wants because I don't really know him, and I've never really talked to him before, and a part of me is actually sort of happy that someone seems to want to talk to me, even though I'm quite boring.

I'm so confused LOL. I don't get what guys want. I don't understand them in the slightest. I mean, when I watch "When Harry Met Sally" I remember distinctly when Harry says that guys and girls can't ever be friends because there's always that attraction. That guys are nice merely because they want some ass. I was never too sure about that because I do have a few guy friends, and I don't think they look at me like that, nor do I look at them like that either. I dont' know...what do you guys think? Can girls and guys ever really be friends without having to worry about sexual attraction? Is Harry's theory completely true? Do guys just want to be friendly for ass? LOL.

In other news, I've been listening non-stop to L'Arc's SMILE lately, and no matter how many times I listen to it, I just can't get into the track "Eien." I don't know how many times I've read on forums that people absolutely love the song, but I don't get it. I really don't. It just doesn't speak to me at all. I mean...it's okay? It makes me wonder if people really are so blinded by their love for Hyde that they can't admit when some of his stuff isn't that great.

I can sort of see where they're coming from though because I react the way they do when anyone mentions Yukihiro-san.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I guess I'm just rather frantic as I have to be on campus like right now with a 10 page paper, and I've only tuped up 5 pages. LOL. Ugh.

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EDIT: OH MY GOODNESS. Just when I thought I was going to go through the week without seeing my Library Guy...

I was heading to my screenwriting class, and I was in a tshirt and jeans because I barely finished my film treatment in time, and I just threw whatever on. So as I was running into the communications building (I happened to be one of the earliest people there -_-'') I almost ran right smack into Library Guy. I was thinking, "SHIT! WHY NOW WHEN I LOOK HORRIBLE?! Is my hair okay?!" But he recognized me and gave me this nod in greeting and smiled. I smiled back, and I was blushing so badly. I mean, hell, it took me a full week to see him again, and then I did the stupidest thing.

I walked right smack into a wall. The effort to make my frenzied entrance seem cool was completely botched. I couldn't even look at him as I hurried on to my classroom and hoped to God that no one else saw it. -_-"

So yes. That was my exciting day. T_T;

I can't believe I got to see him today only to make myself look even more like an idiot -_-' Ugh.

Good news is, the L'Arc~en~Ciel SMILE TOUR 2004 photobook came in the mail!! *happy dance* It's all nice and pretty that I don't want to strip the cellophane off of it.

But ugh!!! I'm still so happy that I got to see him and got a smile, and yet, I feel so stupid for walking into a wall. LOL.
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