Saturday, March 4, 2006

   Greetings again...
Ah. It's been forever since I last visited this site, and I figured I better update once more just to let people know that I am still very much alive.

What has happened since I last posted? Nothing much, if truth be told. It seems I've stopped watching anime completely and have taken up the hobby of watching JDorama...or Japanese dramas, haha!

Let's see. Ah, yes, and I also got to hang out with one of my favorite Japanese bands in the past month...which only elevated my silly little crush on the vocalist into the "I-really-like-him!" territory as I got to find out more about who he really is. As we talked, I even forgot that he was a musician I had deeply admired because we were clicking so well, and I just ended up seeing him as another normal person that was easy to talk to. It didn't hit me until after I was on my way home that I had spent the whole time talking to someone I had crushed on as a fan, but now really, really liked. Alas...I didn't close the deal and failed to leave any contact information with him, so ha! I really regret it because he's someone that I really could fall for, and I haven't met someone like that in a very long time. But...would it really have made a difference? He's a rockstar and lives an ocean away. I'm just a normal girl...

Sort of reminds me of Kaikan Phrase (or Sensual Phrase as they call it here), haha! The only difference is that Aine and Sakuya live in the same area and speak the same language. My Japanese can get me by, but I'm by no means fluent (especially when it comes to the written aspect...I can't remember all that Kanji for the life of me), and his English is pretty good, but there were still times when we were slightly confused, haha.

Ah well. It was a wonderful dream that happened to come true for just one moment in my life. I hope that maybe one day I'll be able to experience something like that again, but I'm not delusional. I know that things don't happen so well in reality, but it doesn't keep me from hoping. At least I've got one wonderful memory to hold on to. It reminds me of that one song by James Blunt called, "You're Beautiful" because the lyrics are so true to my situation:

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful it's true // there must be an angel with a smile on her face when she thought up that I should be with you // But it's time to face the truth // I will never be with you..."

I hope next time I update, I'll write about something less depressing, haha.
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