Monday, February 16, 2004

I AM HOME!!!!! *jumps around*

Hello everyone. Indeed, I have returned. For those of you who didn't know, I went to my grandmother's for our 4 day weekend. This time was quite possibly the best time I have had at my granny's. On Friday, my mom and I drove up there. We made it just in time for my appointment at the dental office from hell. Actually the whole filling-thing wasn't that bad. First I got X-rays taken...not so bad. The bad part was when she said "Oh my gosh!" while looking at my X-rays. Apparently within 1 week, my cavity went from not-so-bad to really bad. Not cool. SO I get 2 shots...*shudder* to numb me up. She starts drilling away...no biggie. Then she has to get a bigger drill because it was really really deep. Turns out, the cavity was right by a nerve. You have no idea how bad that hurt, even with Novacane. She kept bumping it. And I refused to take more shots simply because that would mean more shots. Silly me. Being deathly afraid of needles really is quite a pain. But in the end, everything turned out ok. Every now and then, I forget that I have a filling and that it is all sensitive and stuff, so I take a chomp on some ice and WHOA BUDDY! Talk about ouch. ^^ On Saturday, we stayed home all day and played Canasta, this card game. So much fun. Oh yeah, When I say we, I mean me, my mom, my grandmother, my aunt, and my cousin. Sunday morning, the day I was supposed to come home, I was woken up at 6:30 by my cousin. She kept saying "Look outside!" and I kept telling her to shut up and kicking her. Then I finally looked outside...and what did I see? SNOW!!!!!! I haven't seen snow since I was in the 5th grade. BUt this snow was so special. It wasn't just a few flakes. It was 4 inches deep! and still coming down! In the end we got about 5 and a halfinches of beautiful white bliss. I had forgotten how beautiful it is. Everywhere we turned it was pure white. The trees where coated and all pretty like. It was awesome. And to make it more beautiful...we were out on a farm. My grandmother owns 40 acres of land in northern Mississippi. It is gorgeous land, made all the more pretty by snow. ^^ I was so excited. We went outside and made snow angels, had snowball fights, rolled down the big hill, and walked a mile to the barn. It was hilarious. My cousin, my aunt, and I were all fat. ^^ I had on 3 pairs of sweatpants, pajamas, 4 turtle necks, a pair of my Uncle's size 2XL hunting coveralls, his hunting jacket, and his ski mask. ^^ I could barely move. It was great. Also on sunday I went bowling. YAY! I broke 80!! lol. On the first round everyone had like 104,102, and 105. I however did not. I had 78. >__< Then on the second game, I was doing sooo good. I had 84 by the 4th round. I was so happy! Then they made us stop playing so that they could close down. >__< I was winning too! I was so angry. My mom and I drove home today. We were having lovely mother-daughter bonding type things going on. Both of us were singing to the radio, dancing in our seats, and laughing lots. Good times. But then something awful happened. We were about an hour away from home. Then some lady ran out on the road and crashed into a bridge. I didn't see it, but my mom did. The car flipped and a lady and a young boy were thrown out of the car. The boy apparently died instantly, while the woman just passed out on the side of the bridge. It was awful. We called 911, and they came pretty quick. There were more people in the car. I don't know what happened to them because we left before they were taken out of the car. I was crying. The little boy...he had to have been 6 or 7. His head was bashed in on one side. It makes me want to throw-up just thinking about it. So I will stop now. My doggie was glad to see me when I got home. She went all crazy and stuff. I'm glad to be home. Unfortunatly, I seem to have lost my ability to type when I went to mississippi. >__< I keep having to go back and fix things. Not cool. But it is all gooood. ^^

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Thursday, February 12, 2004

Without A Trace....

Anybody else watch the tv show Without A Trace? Tonight's show was quite possibly the most moving show I have ever seen. It starts out with this boy named Eric disappearing. I think Eric was inh the 4th or 5th grade. The FBI is looking everywhere for him. THey talk to all of his classmates, but no one knows anything. Eric's best friend, Daron, tells the FBI how this one kid gave Eric a swirlie a week before and almost drowned him. Horrible stuff. But it gets worse. There is this girl, don't remember her name, but a few days before Eric called her dog. He siad "What's up Dog?" and when she answered he said you must be a dog if you answered and laid a doggie bone on her desk. All of the other girls decided to teach Eric a lesson after that. One of them, Brandy (whom Eric is in love with), got Eric to meet her at some horse stables for a "date." When he got there, she told him to take off his clothes, which he did, then she proceeded to tie him to a pole. Then all the other girls came in a were throwing dirt at him and calling him "loser" and all this other mean stuff. The show progresses and they find that Eric felt alone and out of place. He was continuely told how much of a loser he was and that thing with the girls was the last straw. Towards teh end, he called Daron and told him he was going to kill himself. They find Eric with a rope around his neck trying to kill himself outside of Brandy's house on her swing set. The show ends with them reaching him just in time. All of that to a young kid. The show left me on my couch bawling and my father blinking back tears. How could anyone do that? And the scary truth is...it happens all the time. People pick on other kids simply because they are different; because they are outsiders who aren't allowed into certain cliques. I try to keep from doing that to people because I know how it feels. I know how it feels to be left out and alone. I know how it feels to be made fun of because you are different. And nobody can say that it only happens when you are young. I am in high school for Christ sakes and it happens there. People shy away from the special-ed kids because they are different. A few months ago this girl, whom I went to elementary school with and who is also a mentally challenged (she has not changed since the first grade. Her mentality is the same and I fear it will always be the same), dropped all of her papers out of her folder. Everyone just sneered and walked around her, not even bothering to help her pick it up. No one did anything. Then some football player, who would've thought it of this guy, yells out for everybody to stop walking, since she spilled them in the middle of the stair doorway. He then proceeds to help her pick them up and make sure she got them all. Then of all things, he took her heavy back pack and said, "Come on Tina.Let's get you to class." He walked her to class, just to make sure she got there without any further accidents. I was floored. I couldn't believe that one of the kids from the group most likely to make fun of everyone else had done what I had just seen. It is these random acts of kindness that make me believe that maybe our world isn't doomed to selfishness and hatred like everyone thinks. Maybe some good can exist in everyone. Or maybe even, good exists where we least expect. OR better yet, maybe we should all just stop the stereotypes. You know why I was floored when that guy stopped to help Tina? Because he was a jock. Plain and simple. He is a preppy, oh so popular, football player. When I think football guys, I think of guys who only care about what's new in Abercrombie magazine or which girl looks hottest today. I never stop to think that maybe they, too, are feeling alone. Maybe they, too, are just trying to make it out as themselves in this crazy life. Since high school started two years ago, my opinions have changed alot. I learned that not everyone fits into those clear-cut groups that we had in middle school. Not everyone will stay the same as they always have been. I think the best thing for me has been the fact that I have taken advanced courses. Putting me in classes with upper-classmen has done a lot for my perspective. I mean, they are all so different from all of the sophmores I have known since 6th grade. They all have these different traits that I never got to see in older people. Maybe it was because my class was always at the top in middle school, since the school was new and all. We were always the highest grade, so we never knew that people where different from what we were. It's crazy, but then....that's life. I say that I learned alot from upper-classmen and how they are different, but I guess I learned some from kids my own grade too. I had all these ideas about what teh preps that went to middle school with me were all about. I knew that all they cared about was being all slutty and popular. How wrong was I? I found many new friends who used to be those girls that I had always found so disgustinly full of fakeness. First off there was our schools most popular girl, Brianne, or should I say Bri now. I always thought that Bri was all ditsy and that profiled popular girl. Then I got stuck next to her in English class. Boy was I wrong. She has opinions about everything, and surprisingly enough, they are well thought out and planned; detailed and concise. She has changed a bit too I suppose. She has become incredibly smart, something I deemed impossible before. Scary that the head-cheerleader turns out to be one of the coolest people I know, huh? I guess it shows that as we grow older, we change. We learn lessons that we would have never expected 3 or 4 years ago. Life just keeps on shoving things in our direction. And if we can't get by with them or use them well....what are we living for? Meh. Don't know why I just typed all that. I got on a roll, and couldn't stop myself. Just thought you might want a touch of my new-found philosophy to think on. ^__^

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I'm still sick. Ugh...I had forgotten how much I hate sickness. Oh well. Tomorrow I leave for my grandmother's house. I have to go get a cavity filled too. -__- This is my first cavity ever. I am so mad about it. But what can you do? Not much happened today. I started a new thread to show off my web graphics. ^^ So far the comments are good. Urgh....dinner time...sorry.

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Wednesday, February 11, 2004

I feel like crap! I am sooo sick. It sucks so bad. I went to school today, but my daddy came and checked me out at 12. When I got home I took like a 3 hour nap. ^^ Naps are gooooood. That's all I really have to say. Oh! Let me make this shameless plug...Go post in my thread...it is lonely. >__<

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Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Hiya everybody! Kind of early in the morning, but that's ok. I still love my layout. I keep looking at it. ^^ Did anyone notice that I added a pretty little song to my site? It is the theme from Halloween Town in Kingdom Hearts. That is such a gooood song. Life is pretty much at a stand still right now. The only thing that is really happening is that tomorrow I will finally own my own anime. woot! For those of you who don't know...I have zero anime of my own. I just don't have any money to buy it, and I am too lazy to copy people's stuff. I did download Gravitation...I just never put it onto a CD. It sits there in my download folder...just hanging out. BUt Tomorrow I will have Cowboy Bebop!!! WOOT! ^^ I gotta go get ready for school >_< now. Bye!

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Sunday, February 8, 2004

NOW it is complete. I like my new layout. I will probably change the background though. This one was supposed to be angel wings made of stone on the right then a bunch of blue swirlies on the right. I did not make it. Instead I cut it out of an existing paper. I don't like it though. So I will change that in a bit. Probably once I get done with this post. ^^ I do like the layout though. It is pretty. Grey, Red, and Black have always been one of my favorite groups of colors. Not much has happened. Went over to Cameron's house. We watched 7 episodes of Cowboy Bebop! woot! So fun. I am going to get Cameron to copy Ben's DVD's of it for me. So gooood. Those will be my only anime that I own on disc. Heh. No, I do not own anime. *shock* All the anime I have seen has come off of the tv, downloading, or someone else has it. Poor me. Check out my deviantart account! ^^ I put up 3 previously unseen wallpapers on there, and have gotten good results. I will soon put up yet another. I put the link for my account in my website address link on the side bar. I am XLikeWhoaX. ^__^I might post one in my art thread, but only if someone posts first. I put the banner *points to above* that I used in my header in the thread. But no one seems to want to reply. For those of you who don't know, I was recently in a battle with dear Kinetic, whose skills rock. Needless to say he won. >__< heh. I'm not really sad about it though. His wallpaper was teh awesomeness. And mine was...well...crappy. But then of course, they all are. Perhaps if he had had some type of stock image instead of all those crystal-like things that I am unable to do, I would have done better. *writes out note to self: do not accept the challenge of people who use those crystal-like things that you are unable to do* Lesson of the day: Kinetic roxors. I....do not.

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*gasp* New layout coming up tomorrow. Look forward to drastic changes. So tired! Must sleep now...goodnight all

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Wednesday, February 4, 2004

Books rock...

Before I start I want to say thanks to Sasuke for the help with my earlier question. Thank you father-in-law! Anyways. I am bored with this layout. I want something bright. Maybe even a bit retro. And by retro I DO NOT mean hippie stuff. *shudder* Well actually....I mean something new age. heh. How quickly my mind changes. But yes. Something bright exciting and such. Maybe something with those graphic crystals folks are always using on their wallpapers. Maybe even a wallpaper in itself. Is that possible? hmmm...don't know. School life is boring. It has finally started to get back into that monotone thing like at the beginning of a new year. I daydream sooooooooooooooo much more in class now. I just want to go outside and write. Or read. Reading is betterer. It is almost Spring now. It only gets cold in the mornings and evenings. So that leaves the daytime open to outsideness. yay. Ijust finished this book Born Blue by Han Nolan. It was really good. My only problem was that it was in this (pardon teh expression, for I am about to break my names rule...I don't like the word, but it is the only way to describe it.) "wigga" language. The girl is white, but likes to think her father was black, since she doesn't know who he is. The grammar is horrendous. So I am glad I have moved onto something more gramaticly correct, Anthem by Ayn Rand. If you have never read Anthem, I suggest you do. This will be my 3rd time reading it, but I still love it. It changed everything about how I look at the world, myself, and my life. It is simply amazing. Pick it up somewhere if you can. So if you take nothing away from this horrible post, take this: I love books. I could have gone on through thousands of books. Be lucky I didn't. If you don't like books....get out now. Or else I will hunt you down, and force you to like them. ~__^ heehee. Just kidding. But seriously, if you don't like them, WHY NOT!?!?!?!?! Silly goose, books are life.

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Sunday, February 1, 2004

La Li Ho!!!!

I hate my life. ^__^ This is the third time I will have typed this. -__- SO this weekend my family came down. And by family I mean my grandma, aunt, and cousin. They brought thier new puppy, Molly. Needless to say, my dog (Mattie-a rat terrier) did not like it. On saturday, Mattie bit at Molly when she came to close to her(Mattie) while begging for food. So everyone kept saying how mean Matie is, etc., etc. When they started being nice to each other, they would play fight. Everyone, except my father and me, kept saying how much Mattie was hurting Molly and stuff like that, which was not true. If anything it was the other way around. Molly left bite marks and scratches all over my baby's head and chest. Not cool. Thankfully, they are gone now. No more dogs running around fighting. On the plus side, I finished watching Gravitation yesterday. It was sooooo good. I hated the ending though. Made me cry in episode 12. It really did. If you have not seen the show, I recomend that you do. It doesn't have much to do with yaoi. It just focuses on things with Shuichi and Yuki. No in depth stuff of course. It just lets you know what is probably going on...like clothes all over the floor and stuff like that. I thought the animation job was amazing. For all you computer people...If I have downloaded video files onto my computer, is there anything special I have to do so that I can put them on a CD? Do I need a certain program I need to use? I don't know anything about computers. ^__^

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Thursday, January 29, 2004

*sigh* *angst* *and all that jazz*

Heya all! I am glad to report that life is once again good. Even though I was in a bad mood last night, I was still able to have an awesome time with my Naruto group buddies. ^__^ Love you all guys...and girls...^__^ I am hooked....scratch that....addicted to Gravitation. I am on episode 9, and am about to die from suspense. It has made me laugh so much, cry a bit too. Awesome show. And I mean really awesome. I am downloading the rest of the episodes tonight. And I have already downloaded a bunch of the songs from the show. My favorite songs would have to be "Lights of Euphoria" which is the intro song and "Sleepless Beauty" which would be that awesome song that Nittle Grasper sings. ^__^ goooooood stuff. The field trip yesterday was awesome. We went to a court house and watched 2 cases. Then we spoke with the US Marshall from our district and a deputy Marshall. Then came the court Clerk. Then came several lawyers. Then came a lady from the Probate office. Finally we spoke with the "head" judge. It was awesome. *sigh* I must go eat and then finish my English paper. Thank god it is due tomorrow!

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