Tuesday, June 28, 2005

   here is a poem or lyrics w/e u want a call it which i wrote
i threw everything out with in,
everything we made was throw away for me to bare
the notes are torn the poems where deleted
i feel this range inside and its givin me the time to want to leave it all behind
my best friend i found out was only a fake that the past 8 years i knew her where a sistuation i soon now know was all to suriel to be real
my first love was like a game that we played he left one day haten me but came back the next day lovin me and this game went around again in circles we kept playin this game over and over again
bringing back all the things that im faced with
it was like a rock hit my heart and strung out the the pieces that needed to be mended...
and all that i waited for, was all ready there
we sat around waitin for nothing wasting time away, while people where dieing why friendships where breakin, people where changin, we where growing apart from the very start and all this time we where wastin time away like it was nothing new...
and oh my love ran dry to many times it left me cryin with devestatin tears
hopeless smiles i beggin to wounder if they ever where real,
all the friendships i made, where they ever made to still exsist?
people movin, people drifftin away from one another, another day
in a love hate sistuation, with time tickin slowly on are hands
is this what we made it in to? lookin back at the past that i feel somethin is missing
but what do i know? im sittin hear chockin it up!
and my love i had for him, all he needed to do was open a lil more up, i wanted to hear his voice out loud, he just needed to slow it slow it down, but he took my heart back and exploded it in to peices, now how could he go and do somethin like that?....
and love that was promised time and time again, never even came close to lastin!
but just for tonight i dont want to look back on all that, i want you to say to me that u will never leave, and if u cant promise me that at least lie to me and say u never will......cuz right now im sharing all of these things, and i riped my heart out just to bring this to you.
written by heather marie

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

   feelin hope
yesterday was an awesome day, i hanged out with cory, mike and dave and they played some rad songs for me...then suprisly nick stoped by the one that knows sean and he showed up with dudes one named zack and two another ones i didt know! ~ it was a pretty cool experience!~ and zack happend to be smokin hot! umm we hanged out for a couple hours fooled around, we had many laughs, talked...cracked jokes the usual thing to do!! it brighted up my day cuz the another day i was havin a bad day! cuz i miss alex so bad and all, and i didt talk to joey lately or ivan...and brad ignoring me and all, and chris krieg blockin me for no parent reason ( just for his fun ) ... and so forth in which i will not name, monday was a pretty bad day for me. but yesterday was not so bad!~ of cource i got into an argument with my parents for all the troble and screwed up plans, like dave was suppost to drive me home and he couldt ( there it goes another change in plans ha) but anywayz i had to call my mom and have her pick me up but she got mad cuz she thought i had a ride and didt feel like drivin out 4miles out of her way so... then i finally was talkin to zack to see if he would drive me home and all the mix plans made my mom mad and she said i couldt go to corys for a while!~ of cource i didt tell cory what she said, but zack didt mind drivin me home and bring the rest of the gang with him! but it was pretty rad, i had a pretty cool time...im just waitin for church im gonna see how it goes im gonna see if i can bring my friend heather! and hopefully me and joey will have time to talk and spend time together since i havent talked to him latley!...we will see how it goes....with all this forth play im kinda worried that there is gonna be some dramatic changes. one that i cant stand to have taken away, and this throb in my heart and its mackin me a bit worried, we will c how this goes! just maybe it will go away all in time and everything will be back in order in no time! ~ i guess just sometimes im scared to lose something i already have.
heather-marie
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Monday, June 20, 2005

   nothing to much
spending time with alex before he left was pretty darn awesome, we end up not hangin with brad of cource like i said its hard enough to get him by my house lol, sean and his band thing made us give a diff plans of cource in my life, you plan something and sometimes the plans change at the last min... so yes we end up hagin with alex, anna, brooke and ivan~ who is awesome... it was pretty darn sweet cuz i been wanting to meet him for quite some time! but the day was okay we all had to be home at a certain time so it was all rush rush rush threw out the day, thank god me and anna had time to stop and chill for a moment notice and get some chilli cheese fries and some cheese cake talk about awesome! yeah but we end up walking like a mile to meet up with ivan in my case it was my bike..but yeah! so that was the good part, the next day alex left which is the sad part he called me up before he left telling me that he was gonna miss me and all. of cource i went over the basic rules such has,... where ure seat belt, dont talk to strangers, and stay with ure group!~ but of cource i sounded like his dang mother but what can i say! im his best friend i need to look affter him! ~ well the rest of the day went pretty well talked to cory on the phone for some time and his friend cassie! then i talked to ivan last night online for a lil bit it was pretty super! everything went alright, finshed up my calls with a call to adam to see how he was doin of cource are calls are usually in silence for a bit and i do all the talkin intill i break the ice on him! but yeah right now my daddy got a new job so of cource i have to stay home and watch the kids for a long time so yeah this is my new life! but ill catch u guys all laterz

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

   what been goin on
umm yesterday was pretty awesome went to church! ~ but its been raining, latly and lookin cloudy we had some very bad weather! but church was okay i hanged out w/ anna,brooke,alex and sean it was pretty cool anna end up sleepin over! we talked half the night and the next mornin ended the day with a bike ride then she had to go home!~ marnia end up not goin 2 church change of plans but it really sucked cuz i wanted to hang out w/ her. this summer i have to make lots of plans w/ some of my buddys cuz im already begin to miss them! it will be pretty cool thoe!~ this saturday im suppost to hang w/ sean and his band and brad, anna, and alex we will see how this goes i havent seen brad in a long time, and i might be quite shy! and i dont think i really know seans band all that well so yeah...but its all good at least two of my buds might be goin that i know
pretty darn well!lol~ this should be a day! we will see how it goes my parents dont really like brad all that
much, i dont think they forgave him what he did a long time ago!~ long story, lets just put this way they
think hes a bad influence! but he has actually a pretty nice guy! there suppost to go to some band concert
thing so lets see if we catch them right on time! before they leave its already hard enought to get brad's butt
by my house with him hangin with another peeps and him livin like 15 min alway and everything! so i dk
i just hope it goes all good last time we planed somethin like this chris came back in town! suprisenly! and he blew off the plans~ brad is pretty awesome thoe and cute ha lol! but we will see how it all goes down!
well got to go love ya guys
heather-marie
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

   crap
umm today was the last day of school...which was sad!~ im gonna miss all my teachers and stuff! im ready i guess now! for high school but umm i guess i should just enjoy my freshmen summer...before im a softmore soon! but umm im tryin to get on webpages but it wont let me i guess i went to someone webpage and umm it gave me a virus how stupid shit is that! err! well im all set for marnia and anna and brooke to come over today to go to church well got to go catch u guys laterz love yaz
heather-marie
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Monday, June 13, 2005

   a lil sad
im kinda a lil sad and shocked right now that i only have 2 more day left of school! i feel that this year has gone by pretty fast....but i had so much fun this year bein a freshmen and all....im prolly gonna miss alot of my friends exspecially the ones who are movin or goin to a diff school next year!~ im gonna miss all the teacher i grew up with for the past 3years there the best! and the school!!....i had alot of fun times at the school! really funny moments! ha.....but if u got any funny moments plz feel free to share!....next year gonna be so diffrent where gonna meet new buds, new teachers a whole new diffrent building! i just hope me and my best friends still manage to keep n touch!...all i have to say is there is 3 more years left and i want to charish them with gold! lol if u know what i mean! so so we will see how it goes! for now its all good!~ because where the class of 2008! oh yeah baby! and where gonna rock you out of this world! ha....
and
p.s im gonna miss you alex so much when u leave this week to go to paris and england take lots of pics and dont forget to call me okay....omg im gonna miss you i dont know how im gonna surive almost 2 weeks w/ out you im gonna have to try to pull threw and manage a whole week and 2 days with out you ha! i love you alex! ~ and oh yeah anna ure super sweet gurl! and dont wry im fitin you in my schedule and i plan to hang with you alot this summer if that cool with you hun?...
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Sunday, May 29, 2005

   hello
hangin with the best dudes ever!! alex and anna banana!!~ sweetness gonna keep it short! comment me! and yo im a big fan oh the used they rock my world! so check them out sometime on www.theused.net! and get usto to it cuz this website gonna have a lot of it! and oh yeah my friends tell me im suppost to indroduce myself well well i live in michigan the very very nice area ( no kiddin) roseville! and umm i got really cool friends and im not really a big annimie fan i love hello kitty thoe if u count that has animie! so dont ever ask me about animie cuz i wont know shit but i guess i would like to know a lil bit more so fill me in wont you?....umm and u can call me heather marie cuz that what most peeps call me! im a freshmen this year and im trying to enjoy the most of the next 3 years i got!
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