Friday, February 2, 2007

New Camera--New Pens--New Life
My mom has just bought me a new digital camera. I'm happy (I think)that she did--but sad at the same time. I shouldn't have left my camera in the office in the first place if it were stolen--for she thinks that it was since it's very unusual for it to go missing when I always leave it out in the open to find easily. And I practiclly tore down my room looking for it, and my mom did a full office clean down.

Sometimes I think I'm loved to much in my family--not by people in general, cause I think I scare/intimidate people just by how I look. I'm told that I always look so mean and angry--but really that's my normal look--it get's more intense when I'm thinking. .. which is what I do alot.

But anyways--I think I'm loved to much by my family. They're always getting me things--or trying to. My nephew wanted to win me a digital camera from an art contest that was going on at his school. My dad and many others kept asking if I wanted them to buy me a new digital camera--which I declined. But my mom took the initiative of buying one for me anyways when she found one on sale at Fred Myers that looked exacly like mine. They're to kind. In a way--I'd say that I'm spoiled--but not spoiled in a sence where I act it--but spoiled in the sence where I'm given/treated as it. . . . did that make sense?

They probably treat me like this cause I've been told by them that I always look so. . . sad to them--and never happy. Funny. Everday people say I look angry and family says I look sad. =P I keep telling everyone I'm fine--I'm just indifferent. I don't get very happy over things to easily and I don't get sad/angry. I'm very. . . very. . . very. . . mellow. I think I have low blood pressure.

But anyways--I've been getting myself new pens lately. I've been having so much funn inking my work lately. Never thought I would enjoy it so much--but I am.

I'm kinda nervous at the thought that I'm going to be graduating from High School this year and being sent to college. I don't feel so ready. People keep asking if I'm excited that I'll be over with High School. .. but I'm not. Which confuses people as to why that is so. I enjoy High School. And I don't much care for the thought of 'freedom' once I get away from home and everything.

The way I think of it/figure it. Is that all though I'm a prisoner to my home and parents when going from Elementary to High School--I'm a prisoner to the world once I get out and start living on my own. I'd rather be a prisoner in my own home than the world--cuase I don't ask for much and am fine with what I get.

. . . Maybe I'm just being selfish/lazy. Because my parents work to keep this house and everything and support me while I'm still in school so. . . I must get out into the world and become it's prisoner like everyone else. To work just to survive everyday. Hopefully. . . I'll get the job I've always dreamed of. . . and it won't be so bad. . . I hope.
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Sunday, January 21, 2007

*sniffles* I want my digital camera back!! =
I do! I really want my digital camera back-- it's been missing for about a month now! D= I really wanted to take a picture of the snow we had at the beach since its such a rare sight to get snow. . . and to have so much of it on top of that. -_- It was a beautiful sight too. . . but I also want my digital camera back so I can take a picture of all my practice pics and get the best ones together in a collaboration pic n' stuff. . . but. . . I don't have my camera! I only have my friend to rely on to scan pictures for me so I can color them--but I don't want to bother her with practice pics. . . Despite how much I may love some of them--they wouldn't be worthy to bother a friend to scan so I can have fun with them than make a glorious peice of art work.

Where'd my camera go? I have to do school work now but I don't feel like. . . I don't want to read Buddha now. . . That World Religions book always makes me fall asleep. . . or wander off in the mind that I completely loose what I was reading even though I'm still reading it. Why couldn't the teacher give the class a more simpler read than this. Religion shouldn't be this complicated to read! ARGH! I swear! After reading the whole stupid 60 page chapter on Hinduism I could easily simplify it to just two pages or less than ten in no sweat. Stupid book. But at least Buddhism is a bit more intereasting to read than Hinduism.

I still want my camera back though. D= I've been drawing practice pictures (or pictures in general that arent practice but weren't drawn to be a great master peice) of Gaara and Lee like crazy lately. . . And I want to put some of them up. . . but I still don't want to bother my friend with things like this. Even though scanners can get lines out better I can still do a fairly good job with getting pictures taken with my camera and color it. Examples for pictures that I took with my camera would be "Lotus' Promise", "Join the Christmas Cheer", "New Years Celebrating", "Gaara's Cooking Something", and. . . "Hands Off" I can't think of any other right now--but those are some examples that I used the camera for before I started asking my friend if he could scan pictures for me to be able to do a finished peice with more ease. . . .

Come back to me camera~!!!! he camera was a birthday gift from my brother before I went to Japan. . . so it also holds sentimental value. I just hope non of my mothers guest stole it when I left it in the office. . . I have a bad habit of leaving my things in the office cause I live in the famiily business Inn (still in school high school) and I'm always doing my work in the office since it's the most quietess place to work in--and it's where the computer with internet is as well. . . it's funny--I work and spend more time in the office than my own mother. XD I'm in here pratically all day whenever I don't have school. D= I have to stop being careless when I leave the office and leave my things here. I once almost had a manga stolen because of my carelessness--so I shouldn't be surprised if my camera was stolen for the small moments that I leave the office. . . But around the time I lost it I asked my nephew if he seen it since the day I lost it. . . and he said he saw it on the counter last in the kitchen near my bed (yes my room is practically in the kitchen itself. O.O At least I get easy access to a midnight snack. XD). . . couldn't find it where he said he saw it--but him mentioning where he saw it last gives me hope that I didn't leave it in the office after all. =)
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Friday, January 12, 2007

Snow Days
Wow! I've been getting snow at the beach! *is shocked* It's the first time that I've seen so much snow here since I moved here in 3rd grade! OMG! We got two snow days and no school because of it! =D Usually we get flood days. X3 I'm glad we got the snow days--it makes up for the days where we could've had flood days but the school forced us to go over the flood anyways and it was the highest it's ever been in years. =( The school bus was cramped with other people than just students--there were nurses and teachers and. . . well. . . people who needed to get to work. That tweaked me out a bit. Where was my flood days!? >_< Evil school--snow and ice wins over joo! Ha ha!

Finally received the Naruto manga volumes 1-10--haven't started reading it yet though. . . I guess I should since I bought it. XD From what I've seen of flipping through the pages of the first manga and reading select parts that I have watched before--I like it more than watching the anime so far. =P Yay! <3

I hope they get through and translate more manga volumes by the time I finish reading all the ones I have--cause I don't think getting just two more wouldn't satisfy me enough---I'd need another round of 10 more volumes. X3
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