Friday, May 6, 2005

   heh heh

^^; hello all!! Well, I'm a little better today. Last night Alayna called me and apologized! Buuuuuuuuuut we couldn't talk about anything, cause she was on her way to Flordia, cause her g-ma died. ....Sorry about that Alayna, even if you are unsure about your feelings!!! ^_^V heh, well...Dolly came over today and we went walking! .... UGH!! >.< TOO MUCH WALKING!! (lol...I'm out of shape! >.< GRR!!!!!) Uhh....annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd I drew this picture last night... ^^; it's a chibi, I might put it on orignal anime on here, but I might color it, dunno...I hope I don't though! >.< I'll ruin it!!...It's supposed to be me and Alayna, because last night...I couldn't get her off my mind. So I drew us in chibi form! ^^ She supposed to be holding a cookie, and eating it too, WHILE! holding me back, while I'm trying to get a peice of the cookie! >.< lol, .....Ain't I mean making her the bad person in the drawing for not sharing?? XD Well, that's it...Check out my fan art later and you might see it! buh-byes!

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Thursday, May 5, 2005

   ....

Ugh...I...I'm crying right now. At school me and (what I thought to be close friend) Alayna (defectiverose13) ....She doesn't talk to me. Not even a friendly little "hello". And today I went up to her said two little sentences. ....all she said was "okay" ... ....then it grew silent. like we were the only two there in the lunch room. I looked into her eyes, and saw emptiness...no feeling at all. I couldn't stand it. I had to walk away so she wouldn't see me cry. I walked away holding it in the best I could, because when I saw it in her eyes. I saw that she no longer considers me a friend. I felt like I just died. She was my best friend. I part of me still hopes that she'll consider me as a friend again, and everything is okay. and the other part...well the other part just wants to die. But it really hurt. To just stand there and believe she still actually thought of my as a friend. Shows how much I know...huh? ... It really hurts me to know, after how much we went through together...after how close we were, that we are gonna be like this for the rest of our lives. I tried everything I could...Even Dolly (sakura18) tried. and nothing helped. .... but now, I've given up. If she can't help the matter then...there is no point in trying huh? but right now I can't do a FRICKEN THING! .....but cry... I watch us being ripped apart...and all I can do is watch and cry. It's very rare that someone gets me to cry...and she did it... But...even though she doesn't seem to want to be friends anymore. I still and will always love her as if she was related to me...Because Her, Dolly and Kaite (other good friend) they are all three my sisters...and I'll never forget them. no matter how much pain it puts me through...now I must leave a cry some more...because I can't stop...Goodbye everyone.

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Wednesday, May 4, 2005

   who cares anymore?

Pfft! Life just sucks major ass....nothing is interesting anymore...what's the point in living? (even though I highly disapprove of suicide so DON'T THINK I"M GOING TO KILL MYSELF >.< or cut, do drugs or ANYTHING LIKE THAT DAMNIT) ....I went out roller blading for a little...killed my legs in doing so. >.< and this little girl on her boke past me up, poited and said Cool... O.o she was a preppy little girl too...*shivers* ....Ugh, and I'm starting to feel a weird emotion inside of me whenever I look at Hiei's pic. (XD The site REALLY HELPS, doesn't it?? ) This emotion is starting to feel like that I love him as if he's a real person, but he isn't and never will be... It just really sucks, doesn't it? and another thing that really bothers me at times...Is when friends sit there and try to comfort you saying that "they understand" when they truely don't. WHY say that they understand when they don't? I mean sheesh! >.< They know about what happened, but they can't really understand until they know first hand what happened....If they know how it feels to be in that position ....Uhh...enough of rambling about that! ^^; *ponders as to what to say* Well, now I feel HYPER!! ^_^ I'm in the mood to play with something or someone......hmmm...a string will do! hehehehehe Strings make me happy.... O.o don't ask me why..They just do! I swear I'm part cat or something! ^^ Well, that was just a weird mood swing. Oh well! that's it for today! buh-byes!! oohhh....and here is some pics!! ^_^V Hiei: 1: 2: 3: 4: 5: 6: 7: 8: Kenshin: 1: 2: 3: 4: 5: Kurama: 1: 2: 3: Now...I want you to vote, and tell me in the comments which ones you like best! ^_^V Like which is your fav. Hiei pic and fav. Kenshin pic ... and fav. Kurama pic. *shrugs* I'm bored...and I'm thinking about changing my wallpaper for my site...soooo yeah....buh-byes for now!

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Tuesday, May 3, 2005

boredom!! >.<

Ugh!! the day is so boring...and I have to go to school again tomorrow! NOO!!! *Whines* Hmm, well today I tried to paint a picture....not a good idea...I SUCK AT PAINT! >.< ...but it's okay for my first try...*shrugs* *heavy sigh* I think I'm going to die from boredomness...ugh! >.< And for some reason...no body like my fricken artwork... >.< I know they suck but still! Hmm....*yawn* today has been very slow, and boring.... .....hmm....uhh....Well, that's it....buh-byes!

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Monday, May 2, 2005

^_______^ heh heh

HI peoples!! I'm out of my bad mood into a good one...I got bored today (I'm out of school today!! and tomorrow!!! *DUN DUN DUN!!!!*) heh, don't asked me why I just am....hehehehehehehe anyways!! I got bored today and went wild with a pair of my pants!!!! ^___^V I wrote on them, cut holes, and puts yarn all over them!! hehe...my mom walked in on me when I was doing this to my pants and gave me the weirdest look like "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" ....hehehe but I don't care!! and the reason why I seem so hyper right now is because...I HAD CHOCOLATE CAKE AND OREOS!!!!! Soooo right now I'm wired!! This morning when I got up, I sat on the couch next to my mom and me and her got into a pillow fight....I had my hair down so I looked like cousin IT. Go figure!! Well that's all for now...byes!!! ^____^V lol... Oh!! And this only took me 2 minutes to type!!! hehehehehehehehe....BYES!!! XP

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Sunday, May 1, 2005

ugh....

Nothing really new today so far, I went to the mall yesterday with my friend (or sis) Dolly. ...Me and her went and bought new mangas, digital pet thingys (I was surpised they still made them) annnnd little plastic braclets! ^^ annnnd fake black roses. *sigh* but now the fun is over....and for some reason right now I feel like I'm missing something, there is this huge emptiness I'm feeling right now, and I have no idea why. *shrugs* Something is up with me, but I can't tell what it is....*sigh* Well I must go now, and if you didn't see what I looked like before here are the pics I took of myself again... That's with glasses... This is without glasses, and yes I know that my eyes are un even...they are always like that because I'm blind out of the little one...Go figure!! Well, I must leave now...Goodbye.

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Friday, April 29, 2005

Braclets?? O.o

I'm going to fricken kill someone...My mother just told me that she would prefer that I wouldn't wear these little plastic braclets...I asked why and she said that there was a porn video with people ages 12-17...The people who made it went to jail but ANYWAYS! People saw tha braclets and each color was supposed to mean something like Black was that you were going to have sexual intercourse, green was to mean like you get it in the rear end. and other shit like that. What the fuck is the world coming to?! ....She also said that if I was to wear them, the teacher might tell me to take them off because they are starting to ban them from school...I don't understand why the world is so fricken stupid now days...*shrugs* It's soooo moronic...Well...that's it for today. byes!

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Thursday, April 28, 2005

....boredomness...

Hello peoples...I'm just sitting here, doing hw....(for the past 4 hours) eat doritoes, anddrinking tea....instead of coke for once in my pitiful pathetic obsessing of Hiei LIFE!! >.< heh heh...Uh...Nothing new here, Just boredom...I had to right a paper, I wrote it about felianians (cat demons) and vampires! ^^ okay...and now I have to do my algebra hw...I swear..the teacher don't think we students have a life after class at times...oh well...I'll go finish it and I gues I'll draw after that...byes!

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

..Better!!!! ^__^V

hehehehe I'm better, WEll I'm still a bit depressed but I told myself thatI have to get over it and move on!! So now I'm better!! HAHA!! and I drew this AWESOME picture of Hiei!! I love it!!! Here it is... DUN DUN DUN!! SEE!!! SEE!! SEE!!! lol...I'm a bit hyper I've just had dark chocolate and It's finally kicked in!!! ^___^ ....and...this is what I look like...down there... That's with glasses... This is without glasses, and yes I know that my eyes are un even...they are always like that because I'm blind out of the little one...Go figure!! Well...see ya!! byes!!!! ....hmmm but I still ahve to patch things up with my friend...She was pissed at me...OH well!! I'll talk to her later!! BYES!!!!! ...again... <.< >.>

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hn.

Sorry I haven't posted in a couple of days...I haven't been in the mood to really post anything lately and I'm still not in the mood....so Goodbye

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