Wednesday, April 6, 2005

>.< I HATE MY STUPIDITY!!!!

DANG IT!!!! DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!! >.< I could of went out today and I didn't...Because I'm the kid who is a goody goody! >.< WHY MUST I BE THIS DAMN PERSON WHO ASKS THEIR PARENTS IF THERE IS SOMETHING I COULD DO FOR THEM!!!!!!! *sigh* I'll never understand myself...now THAT is sad. But right now...it's 10:20pm....I'M WIRED!!! hehehehehehehehehehe lol. Sorry peoples!! Right now I'm listening to Chop Suey by System of a Down. If you people do NOT know the song then here are the lyrics : (We're rolling suicide) Wake up (Wake up) Grab a brush and put a little makeup Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup (Hide the scars to fade away the) Why'd you leave the keys upon the table? Here you go create another fable You wanted to, Grab a brush and put a little makeup You wanted to, Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup You wanted to, Why'd you leave the keys upon the table You wanted to, I don't think you trust, In my self righteous suicide, I cry when angels deserve to DIE!!! Wake up (Wake up) Grab a brush and put a little makeup Hide the scars to fade away the (Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup) Why'd you leave the keys upon the table? Here you go create another fable You wanted to, Grab a brush and put a little makeup You wanted to, Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup You wanted to, Why'd you leave the keys upon the table You wanted to, I don't think you trust, In my self righteous suicide, I cry when angels deserve to die In my self righteous suicide, I cry when angels deserve to die Father (Father), Father (Father), Father (Father), Father (Father)! Father into your hands, I commend my spirit, Father, into your hands, Why have you forsaken me, In your eyes forsaken me, In your thoughts forsaken me, In your heart forsaken, me oh! Trust in my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die In my self righteous suicide I cry when angels deserve to die... I love this song!! T-T But I have no IDEA!! As to why they called it Chop Suey... O.o and The world may never know...DUN DUN DUN!!! Lol...Well that it's for right now peoples!! BYES!!!! ^_____^V

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^_____^

Really nothing much here...I've been packing my shit...There's nothing IN MY ROOM EXCEPT FURNITURE AND BOXES!!! IT CREEPS ME OUT!!! >.< Anyways...I FINALLY TALKED TO ALAYNA!! AND WE DIDN'T FIGHT!! T-T Me is soooo happy!!! ^_________________________________^See?? Lol...Well...QUIZ TIME!! *DUN DUN DUN!!!* Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care for others over yourself. However, many people appreciate your caring side and would rather stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and take advantage of you. You always try to see the good in everyone and try not to hate. Also, you have sharp insight and a great personality. Calm, serene, and understanding, you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to people in need. Don't change your sweet nature, your constant being-there can save a life. I suggest your go into a field that centers around working with others such as a doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard, or Teacher. If none of these occupations interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that there are plenty of oppertunities out there for you. What type of teenager are you? brought to you by Quizilla Wow...that' s ^ up there is different for me... Your Heart is Red What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla O.o Why am I getting these results all of a sudden?! AHH!!! You are the warrior anime girl.You are the type that can start a fight and win.You are very strong and can beat anyone up (but just don't ^_~) and some people can be afraid of you but alot of people admire your strength and want to be just like you well the people that want to fight.You can defend yourself very easily and can probably handle some kind of weapon.You have a short temper(like me)and get angry easily but you can be really nice at times ^_^and once a fighter always a fighter. If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only) brought to you by Quizilla Cool! One more!! Okie dokie?! You are the Spirit of Sadness. Deep pain and sorrow lie within you, betrayal, jealousy and rejection rule your life. You cannot make friends as you are too scared at the prospect of being hurt again and you can't take that risk. You wish more than anything to have a steady person there who loves you unconditionally but you are too scared to find them. Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!) brought to you by Quizilla Umm...this does not match the other ones...does it? @.@

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Tuesday, April 5, 2005

YAY!! 101 people!!

YAY!!! 101 people have visited my site!!! ^.^ Total Visits 101 See?! Popularity Ranking # 4353 (out of 24,027 active sites) ._. My site isn't THAT popular... Total Members 119,486 AND THAT'S A LOT OF MEMBERS!! oh well..gotta go now peoples...byes!

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._. ME IS SOOO BORED!

Well, nothing really has happened today. I had a creepy dream last night. But what night's do I go without a creepy dream. *shrugs* I haven't really packed any today. My grandma and my mom keep barking orders at me IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!! Once I find something to do "Ej could you do this for me?" It's sooooo annoying! *sigh* Well...I haven't seen our new apartment yet, but I should on SAturday because that's the day my mom is going to sign the thingy for it. *sweatdrop* But I haven't really done all too much today. *sigh* >.< IT'S SO BORING! I guess I could type something I dunno...^.^ I drew another picture!! But I don't feel like putting it on here, because some people might think something. O.o *gulps* Umm....I dunno what to do right though, probably just sit around getting fat. -.- Well, that's it for today! BYES!

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Monday, April 4, 2005

HI!

Hello peoples!! Nothing much here...I said I'd post something later, but the one thing! I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO POST!! besides this drawings I just did recently! ^.^ Lol...Well...Enjoy! In the first bubble the girl is thinking. "There's the remote to the television.It's been in front of my face the entire time and I didn't see it." *she grabs the remote and realizes there are no batteries in them.* *We see something on the table though* "Now where are those batteries?" *They are right in front of her face on the table* ^.^ QUIZ TIME!! Your word is: Helpless. You have so many emotions bottled up inside and you are at the verge of a breaking point. Life is just too painful nowadays and you don't want to live it more. You secretly wish someone would show their love for you and save you from your dark thoughts. You feel there is nothing you can do and may turn to self-harming to relieve the stress. You are also often depressed and may have thoughts of death. Life didn't turn out the way you wanted it to. What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes) brought to you by Quizilla Your connection with darkness is through your depression. Hated, sad and often feeling lonely, there is only a few that appreciate the real you. You tend to keep to yourself and away from the world since you don't want to be hurt and betrayed again. Music gives you the understanding you need to get through, it's your "therapy". Or you express yourself through art or writing. Chances are you're also an anti-social person, who only likes being with close friends, if even that. The world has finally showed it's true face for you and you wish life wasn't this miserable to live through. Maybe you'll find happiness in the future, but right now you're just hiding away from the world. Who needs people anyway? What is your connection with darkness? (pics) brought to you by Quizilla You are sad because of your grief Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people brought to you by Quizilla Well...That's it for now...BYES!! ^.^

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Nothing

nothing much here, I've been packing alot. My room is almost nothing! It has all of my furniture in it and a lot of boxes. BUT THAT'S IT!! There's nothing on the walls but white!! It frightens me!! >.< Well that's it for today!! I'll post something up later. byes!

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Sunday, April 3, 2005

boredom

>.< NOTHING IS INTERESTING RIGHT NOW!! LIFE IS SOO FUCKING BORING! I HATE IT!! *ahem* okay..that's it for today...goodbyes!

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Saturday, April 2, 2005

Hey everyone! ^.^

I am much much better now...^_^ I got it all out of me...I'm not depressed anymore...(still a little upset about cetain things like me being stuck in this apartment all week until I move!!!) Okay...now I'm wide O.O awake...but I am soooo tired at the same time. *yawn* Last night I had a mental break down...and after it was over I was fine. ^.^ I was bwling my eyes though last night which is very rare. ^___^ hehe...but now everything is peachy!! and not the bad peachy either! ^_^ And I'll be moving on Sunday...not tomorrow the Sunday after that tomorrow! So my computer will be disconnected that Saturday before it! ^.^ But I'll tell you when that is? Okie dokie? Well....that's it for now! Byes! Have You Ever? Created by voidedINK and taken 10172 times on bzoink! Have you ever hit someone forcefully? Yes, with my older brother Have you ever thrown anything at a moving car? Yes! Have you ever been in a fist fight? Hello...I have an older brother. Of course! Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? Yes! Have you ever hit an animal on the road? O.O Who would want to? Have you ever seen a Beatles film? O.O No...and I never will Have you ever cussed? Yes! Have you ever been on a subway? Yes! Have you ever taught a little kid to cuss? No Have you ever cheated on a test/exam? Of course, who hasn't Have you ever skipped school? No Have you ever egged someones house? No, but I've always wanted to! Have you ever gotten a computer virus? ...No! Have you ever cried for no reason at all? Yes! Have you ever missed someone? yes...who doesn't? Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! PAST, NOW, FUTURE, THIS & THAT. Created by voidedINK and taken 249 times on bzoink! PAST How many people have you dated? 1 How many of those were serious? 1 but now it isn't When was your last serious relationship? -.-; a few days ago...YOU'RE MAKING ME UPSET AGAIN! Who was your first true love? Never had one Was your first kiss with them? yes When was your first kiss? I don't know! Do you give or recieve? -.- Give or recieve what? NOW Are you with someone? Nope! If so, how long? -.- WHAT DID I JUST SAY! If no, why not? Because...I don't know!! If no, do you have a crush? Yes! buuuuuuuuuut he's not real *sigh* Who was the last person you kissed? Not saying... -.- you futher mucker! The last person you hooked up with? WHY DO YOU WANT TO KNOW?! Are you in love? NOO!! THE FUTURE Do you want to get married? Yes When do you want to? I'm not sure Do you want to have kids? yes If so, what would you name them? Umm...I'll wait for that one Where do you want to get married? I'm not sure... Who would you want to spend the rest of your life with? That depends THIS OR THAT Kiss or hug? Hug! Screw or make love? Make love! Dumper or dumpee? Dumper! Walk in the rain or walk on the beach? Walk in the rain! Be wild or be boring? Be wild! Hook up or be with one? Wha? @.@ Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! Randomize; Part 1 Created by voidedINK and taken 234 times on bzoink! Who are you? Elizabeth Jacleen Looksfar Frietch Are you male or female? female... Where do you live? Kentucky What do you look like? -.-; a short person with brown eye/hair and tan skin What do you want to say to the one you love? I don't have one that I love anymore What do you want to say to the one you hate? FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID MOTHER FUCKER, GO TO HELL!!!! What do you want to say to your best friend? Umm....I dunno What's your best quality? @.@ I don't know that one! What's your worst quality? My short attention spand! *zones out* O.O Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Hmm...I don't see myself What's your attitude towards drugs and alcohol? Umm...They can be good but they can also be bad... What's your secret? Who's keeping secrets?! Do you have any special talents? I can draw and play the flute very well What does love mean to you? I'm not sure What does friendship mean to you? >.< HOW THE HELL AM I TO KNOW! Are you a strong person? Yes! What makes you angry? You! What makes you happy? Umm...my friends!! ^.^ What makes you sad? Death Where would you rather be? outside in the rain (if it starts raining) What's the worst thing that could happen to you? to be alone withoot my friends or family How do feel when you think about your happiest memory? I wish it would come back How do you feel when you think about your biggest mistake? I WISH I COULD FIX IT!!!! What are you looking forward to in life? I dunno! What are you afraid of? The dark, spiders and clowns! O.O What are some words to live by? UmmmI don't live by any words. Do you go to school? Of course! When was the last time you cried? Last night When was the last time you kissed someone? Umm...I dunno! @.@ When was the last time you hugged someone? Last night when I hugged my mom and I was sucking up to her!! Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

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Friday, April 1, 2005

confusion

I am soooo cunfused right now. I'm not sure what's what, who's who...I am really blind. I've been crying...I've been thinking about blood a lot! >.< What the fuck is wrong with me?! I can't take this...it's too hard. But that's just life. *sigh* I know I'll pull through this....I feel like something is missing...and I'll find it on of these days. I long for someone...somethng...It's just I have to fight through live to get to it. Heh...And even though...I really didn't eat that much at school, I pigged out when I got home!!! @.@ I'm sooooooo fat!!!! >.< I need to exercise more then what I do...;_; lol...I couldn't help it. I'm not that depressed anymore. ^-^ Actually...I'm a bit happy...@.@ I dunno why...maybe it's just teenage hormones. Ya' never know. This spring break is gonna suck major ass!!!!!!! >.< I have to pck all of my shit because I'm moving at the end of the week...pfft! What a Puuurrrfect fuck spring break huh? Oh well...I'll live! It's can be worse...I could be sitting on my ass right now not on my computer because it'd be broken or something!!! THAT'D BE HORRIBLE!! I'LL DIE WITHOUT MY COMPUTER!! *hugs it* @.@ Damn...I should eat chocolate when I get depressed more often...lol...well...that's all today byes! GREEN ??Which colour of Death is yours?? brought to you by Quizilla Here's a quiz I took!! ^.^ Isn't it lovely? Oh!!! Sad news just came up! Jennifer92 is in a coma! If you don't know all ready from all the others saying it. I don't know her, but I hope she wakes up...I really do.

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Thursday, March 31, 2005

Depression

Hello...Nothing much today...But...I'm starting to go into a state of depression....Last night I tried to cut myself...I was about to. I had scissors in my hands but then I remember I promise I made to my OB dad...Then I'm twisting around in my sleep all the time. I'm having a hard time of it right now. I'm starting to eat less and less...I'm starving myself. I've never done that before, but everytime I look at food. I don't want to eat it. I have to force myself to. Because I don't want others to worry about me. Also today, I drew a picture it was of a girl with cat ears and a tail. She was drying blood. And the paper it said 'I'm sorry for what I've done. Please kill me now. Save me from this torment and kill me. Right here right now.' My sis (Sakura14) Tried to take it away from me, but I stole it back. When I got home I just ripped off the writing and kept the picture. *sigh* I'm not as hyper as I was...and If I am then I'm only putting on an act because I can't stay hyper. *sigh* I hate this...but I can't get out of my depression no matter what I do no matter how hard I try....it won't work. *sigh* But...don't anyone worry I won't kill myself or anything. I know that doesn't solve a thing. All About You!! Created by xxunloved248 and taken 7053 times on bzoink! The Basics Name? Elizabeth Jacleen Looksfar Frietch Sex? Female Birthday? Novembeer 16 1990 Location? Kentucky Height? 5'0 and a half inch Weight? N/A Hair Color? brown Eye Color? brown Social Life Who is your best friend(s)? Dolly Alayna Katie Would you rather be alone, hangout with one other person, or in a group? alone What would you consider a typical Friday nite? on the computer How often do you go out on the weekend? during the week? barely Would you rather spend the day with your family or friends? friends Love Life Are you single? yes If so, do u have a crush? yes...but he's not a real person What is his/her name? Hiei If not, what is his/her name? Umm...Hiei... How long have you two been together? He's not real you bastard! This or That Night or Day? night Cat or Dog? cat Ugly and Sweet or Hott and Mean? ...neither Hot or Cold? hot Tall or Short? short Prep of Punk? punk Winter or Summer? summer McDonalds or Burgerking? mcdonalds Hard or Soft? soft Yes or No? Do you drink? With my mother's supervision Have you ever gotten drunk? When I was 6 XD Do you smoke? Tried it didn't like it Have you ever gotten high? no Are you prude? no Are you a virgin? yes Are you smart? not really Are you ugly? yes Are you pretty? no Are you trustworthy? yes Random How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? none How many pairs of shoes do you have that actually fit? 5 What size bra do you wear? That's personal Have you ever colored your hair? no What pieces of jewlery do you wear everyday? a couple of necklaces Do you have a cell phone? yes Name three things you "can't live without" my friends, my cat, air Who do you talk to the most on aim? phone? aim What color(s) is your room? white...but I want it black Do you have a computer in your room? no What time do you usually go to bed? wake up? 11 pm/ 6:30 am What's your favorite clothes store? Hot Topic Do you wear makeup? at times Do you paint your nails? at times What size shoe are you? 6 1/2 - 7 Did you like this quiz/survey? What do you think? Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

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