Tuesday, March 22, 2005

*yaaaaaaaaaaaaawn*

I feel really really really tired right now...I went to bed at 10:30 last night though! >.< But...I think I know the reason for me being so tired. I went to sleep while I was meditating...*sigh* Stupid me. I started at 10:30 pm and woke up at 4:00 am to realize what I've done...Let's see what happened today...Nothing too much...Just the same old thing everyday. I hate it! Life is to boring...No excitment...*shakes head* but...oh well...Umm...I finally got a 100 on an algebra paper! ^_^ I normally get 50's - 80's .... o.o I've never failed or have come close to failing a class in my life! Before Algebra! >.< *sigh* Nothing really has happened though...I've had a guy call me a dork today, but I'm used to being called names. *shrugs* That's been happening since a was little. I've never let it bother me. In other news: My older brother finally moved away from me for good!!!! ^___^ I hate my older brother. And people out there don't say anything like "You should love your brother" and things like that. You wouldn't say that if you knew what happened between me and him. I'm not accusing you of saying it, but STILL that's only if you do. Last night, I had another strange dream. It was different. I was walking alone, hearing this voice calling out to me. ._. I hate it when dreams start out like that. I finally started screaming at the voice, because I couldn't understand what it was saying...and I got no reponse...Then I saw Dolly, Alayna and Kaite...Talking to each other. I went up to them and they didn't even notice me! I started to get pissed, and tried to slap them but then something grabed my hand. I pulled and pulled until I finally look at what was holding me...But...there was noone there, I looked at my wrist and it was red as hell. As if someone just gave one painful indain burn. (don't you hate those?!) I looked back at my friends, and they were walking away from me, then I heard a different voice saying "Friends are a crutch for the weak" (XD HIEI QUOTE!!) I yelled "Yeah...well...pople who don't have true frined norammly die off because without them I'd be lost! I'm not weak, I except them and they except me for who I am, no matter what! So just shut the hell up because you know nothing at all!" After that, I looked down, and saw blood all over my feet. I tried to see were it was coming from, and it was coming from...my throat. O.o But...I couldn't feel it...I just saw it and then it was gone. Then everything went black. And I was with my friends again. Yelling at them to Say something to me! and they looked at me like I was crazy. They finally noticed me...but...I'm not sure...because when I turned around...I saw clowns! (MY WORST FEAR!!) I screamed...and...I ran through Dolly. That's when I realized...I was...dead. I didn't understand this one...but then I heard Dolly... Talking about me. I was waving a hand in front of her, and nothing was happening. She was saying "Man! It's not the same without sis!" I looked around and then felt my throat again. Looking at the blood. I didn't know what was going on anymore, but Alayna was starting to feel sick to her stomach and Kaite was looking around. I was screaming. "COME ON! I CAN'T BE DEAD!!!" I tried to hit them...I tried to kick them but everytime I did I wentr through them. After I kicked a final time, They went away because they said they were getting super cold in that area. So...I tried to float...It didn't work. I thought to myself, "How am I a ghost if I can't float?" I shook it off...then I found out that...I had a chain on my wrist. I was staring at it in awe. I ran after them yelling for them. Then Dolly tapped on Alayna's shoulder and asked, "Do you hear something?" She shook her head. I couldn't do a thing, I had blood on me, a chian...and they couldn't hear or see me. Then...I saw my steckbook laying on the ground...I could tell it was mind because of the pics on front. The wind opened it to a page full of chibis. The chibis were drawings of me, Alayna, Kaite, and Dolly...all having fun. Then it turned to the next page. Which had Me and Alayna at different sides of the page, and then all four of us at different corners of the page...the page then flipped to a colored page that was blood red. and then to a page. With little chibis of us...Well, of them. It had them all happy, and me watching them...not with them, but behind them. They were laughing and I was bleeding...then the page flipped again. and it had them. ARound them was....fire. and then......then I woke up. I dunno...stragne dream I guess...Well...that it for now...I have to eat! byes!

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