Thursday, March 31, 2005

Depression

Hello...Nothing much today...But...I'm starting to go into a state of depression....Last night I tried to cut myself...I was about to. I had scissors in my hands but then I remember I promise I made to my OB dad...Then I'm twisting around in my sleep all the time. I'm having a hard time of it right now. I'm starting to eat less and less...I'm starving myself. I've never done that before, but everytime I look at food. I don't want to eat it. I have to force myself to. Because I don't want others to worry about me. Also today, I drew a picture it was of a girl with cat ears and a tail. She was drying blood. And the paper it said 'I'm sorry for what I've done. Please kill me now. Save me from this torment and kill me. Right here right now.' My sis (Sakura14) Tried to take it away from me, but I stole it back. When I got home I just ripped off the writing and kept the picture. *sigh* I'm not as hyper as I was...and If I am then I'm only putting on an act because I can't stay hyper. *sigh* I hate this...but I can't get out of my depression no matter what I do no matter how hard I try....it won't work. *sigh* But...don't anyone worry I won't kill myself or anything. I know that doesn't solve a thing. All About You!! Created by xxunloved248 and taken 7053 times on bzoink! The Basics Name? Elizabeth Jacleen Looksfar Frietch Sex? Female Birthday? Novembeer 16 1990 Location? Kentucky Height? 5'0 and a half inch Weight? N/A Hair Color? brown Eye Color? brown Social Life Who is your best friend(s)? Dolly Alayna Katie Would you rather be alone, hangout with one other person, or in a group? alone What would you consider a typical Friday nite? on the computer How often do you go out on the weekend? during the week? barely Would you rather spend the day with your family or friends? friends Love Life Are you single? yes If so, do u have a crush? yes...but he's not a real person What is his/her name? Hiei If not, what is his/her name? Umm...Hiei... How long have you two been together? He's not real you bastard! This or That Night or Day? night Cat or Dog? cat Ugly and Sweet or Hott and Mean? ...neither Hot or Cold? hot Tall or Short? short Prep of Punk? punk Winter or Summer? summer McDonalds or Burgerking? mcdonalds Hard or Soft? soft Yes or No? Do you drink? With my mother's supervision Have you ever gotten drunk? When I was 6 XD Do you smoke? Tried it didn't like it Have you ever gotten high? no Are you prude? no Are you a virgin? yes Are you smart? not really Are you ugly? yes Are you pretty? no Are you trustworthy? yes Random How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? none How many pairs of shoes do you have that actually fit? 5 What size bra do you wear? That's personal Have you ever colored your hair? no What pieces of jewlery do you wear everyday? a couple of necklaces Do you have a cell phone? yes Name three things you "can't live without" my friends, my cat, air Who do you talk to the most on aim? phone? aim What color(s) is your room? white...but I want it black Do you have a computer in your room? no What time do you usually go to bed? wake up? 11 pm/ 6:30 am What's your favorite clothes store? Hot Topic Do you wear makeup? at times Do you paint your nails? at times What size shoe are you? 6 1/2 - 7 Did you like this quiz/survey? What do you think? Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

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