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I feel well not soo happy and not soo proud.....
I'm sad and I truly hate my self because I feel that I'm just a stick in the road that is in many peoples ways... And I hate my self and I'm sad because of many things...
One thing is that many people call me gay.. and I'm not and I find it mean when people do.. One person sad that they had proft that I was gay... One sad That there mom thought I was gay and hated me..
A Second thing is...Many people hate me in my school. Thay always I guess.. One Time there kids in a week wrote power point on how I was a bitch or some thing on that line.... and for a long time I did not care but the one person that I truly love the one person that was always was kind to me and the one person that said truthfully somthing kind to me... She was the first person to tell me that I was truly a wonderful person... But she went to live in New York again and I don't see her and don't talk to her for a time and because of that I'm sad.... Because my fear is coming true that we will forget about each other and we will never talk to each other again... For I never want to forget her for I love her and she loves me...For we love each other not as a friend and not as a lover for we know that we would never be a good couple... But we have a realationship that is very close..For we would always help each other oin the hard times... and help in the good too.... But because of that fear becoming true I'm sad to say that I'm very depressed and I'm sorry if I'm not in the best of mood because I feel hurt by my haters and hurt by not hearing from a friend...
And I'm scared for finnals...
But I try to talk to her but she is always gone from the house and her e-mail does not work...
I think I will post the chapter one of Dragon's rain, Demon's fire sooon... Oh, do you like the gif wallpaper I made it...
I hope you like my wallpaper even if I did not work hard on it....
I'm sad and I truly hate my self because I feel that I'm just a stick in the road that is in many peoples ways... And I hate my self and I'm sad because of many things...
One thing is that many people call me gay.. and I'm not and I find it mean when people do.. One person sad that they had proft that I was gay... One sad That there mom thought I was gay and hated me..
A Second thing is...Many people hate me in my school. Thay always I guess.. One Time there kids in a week wrote power point on how I was a bitch or some thing on that line.... and for a long time I did not care but the one person that I truly love the one person that was always was kind to me and the one person that said truthfully somthing kind to me... She was the first person to tell me that I was truly a wonderful person... But she went to live in New York again and I don't see her and don't talk to her for a time and because of that I'm sad.... Because my fear is coming true that we will forget about each other and we will never talk to each other again... For I never want to forget her for I love her and she loves me...For we love each other not as a friend and not as a lover for we know that we would never be a good couple... But we have a realationship that is very close..For we would always help each other oin the hard times... and help in the good too.... But because of that fear becoming true I'm sad to say that I'm very depressed and I'm sorry if I'm not in the best of mood because I feel hurt by my haters and hurt by not hearing from a friend...
And I'm scared for finnals...
But I try to talk to her but she is always gone from the house and her e-mail does not work...
I think I will post the chapter one of Dragon's rain, Demon's fire sooon... Oh, do you like the gif wallpaper I made it...
I hope you like my wallpaper even if I did not work hard on it....
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