yeah. Life sucks
It probably gets better after it's over, so????
School starts tomorrow, and the stress is already on. The same, "what am I doing for the future" and whatnot. It's part of my personality to worry all the time. That's why I always have headaches. Like right now. I can't think of anything to post right now that's worth mentioning. I haven't had time to build my development site lately. And I've been working, cleaning, and playing the wii all the time. I have to get it together, but there's no way that will ever happen, because I lack motivation and ambition. I never feel like drawing to try to finish my manga planning and writing my books. And my movies, and everything else. Maybe I should just concentrate on one thing. I'm too creative for my own good. It will be my own undoing. What a waste of a life. The more I read the novel Welcome to the N.H.K., the more I can relate to the way the main character lives his life as a hikikomori. And that's sad. I'm always too depressed and bored to work. Whether it's my creations or flippin McDonalds....
I want to die, but I can't.
"So now what?"
I ask myself...
IDK, that's all I ever say. HAH!!
Maybe I should spend less time correcting myself online in front of you all and more time writing... It's funny how I type as I think, and never delete the stupid shit I say.
So now you all just read five minutes worth of what it sounds like when I think to myself!! Isn't that cool!??!?!?
Not to me, cause I gotta hear it all the time...
So, I'm not going to post anymore until I have a good reason to. No more spilling my heart out onto this blog for you to waste your time with.
Sorry for the waste everyone!
Maybe I'll write a short story, or include something from my comedy manga next time.
I figure if I try to keep up with setting my own deadlines and motivating myself to meet with them, I might be able to break the habit. And this site and everyone's support really helps, so thanks and sorry again!!
I'm only one person, so what do you expect from me?
A horribly stupid and confused sort, that's the worst combination.
It's who I am! So bye bye!!
This is not a suicide note.
yet
jk, have a nice day and eat candy and other healthy things!!
gah
So, I'm making a website I think. Gotta figure out the HTML bs, and get a host site. I could probably do it here on Myotaku using a different username. But no, I want to make my own.
If you haven't heard, it's a site on how to develop your own manga art style. Yeah, yeah, it's not a site where I teach you how to draw. I show you!! I have it set up so I can personally share my experience in a different method so that the viewers can learn and develop their own skills. Whether they can't draw yet, or they can, and just want an easy way to get better or learn more about manga style art. I have a lot of different learning categories like basic character structure, clothing design, and what's this? The almighty Zack will show you how he draws those amazing mecha!?!?! es, it's true, don't get too excited. I don't plan on having a large audience. It's going to be easy to find and I will have my email address open to questions for people who don't get certain parts, or anything they need to ask. Except how babies are made. Ask your parents kids.....
I'm actually kinda happy that I thought of this. Many people and companies already do that, but it always helps to see how other artists with a unique style draw manga. I think my method will be simple, and easier to understand. My main goal is to at least help other artists develop their own style and break away from the simple generic otaku style if they want their art to look different than everyone elses. Without them having to purchase one of those wierd how to draw books written by an american artist who doesn't know shit. I did it without the books. And I'm not saying I'm the king just because I can teach it. I know a little bit. Enough to help out. So I'll do what I can, as I believe it is a responsibility to fellow manga-ka to help...
Yeah, that's about it for now. I have to write the script for the site and then find a host thingy, however you do that... IDK, there's always the internet to look it up///
someone asked...
The answer is yes, I will post some of my important character sketches in my portfolio. I guess..... If you really want to see them. Nothing special.... I think Adam should make a newer portfolio so we can easily organize and build our mangas. That would make life a lot easier....
Aight then... So this year, I'm gonna get some shit done... I have quite a list, but some of it might take more than a year, so maybe just one major goal this year.
Here is what should be done by 2009...
1. At least write the script for the world's greatest zombie movie.
2. Complete the necessary components of my indie kung-fu hustle(time to put the martial art skills and fight choreography to work)
3. most important! Write the entire story of my manga, kuroda no kage.
quite a list I know. I'm determined, but I don't know how I'm gonna do this. I don't have enough motivation. I have quite a bit to figure out... It's really hard to explain, but, I'll do my best. Thanks for the support up to now folks. Who knows? You might be the only reason why the next greatest manga was drawn in the future.... Hah, imagine that.. Someday people!!!! That day will arrive for all of us. I'll do my part.
I got your back all the way.
You know where to find me....O__)
hah! thanks!
adios e'rbody
hey
Once Adam changes our thingy, will all our saved pms get deleted? Im a sentimental wuss, I have a hundred saved from friends who left that I dont want to forget about! What will happen? Id ask Adam, but he never replies to me..... Comments (1) |
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Wednesday, January 2, 2008
what to do...
Gonna start a fanfic on Gundam 0080: The 08th MS Team. But I'd rather type it up first then copy and paste it into my account on fanfiction.net......
IDK it's been a long time since I did one of those.. Maybe this one will be a bit more serious...
As of late, I have been redrawing a number of characters I made years ago. And also changing some of their background stories as well... I'm so bored, I need some software to work on CG versions of my manga and characters... Life is tough yo...
I just realized I don't know when I'm going back to school. I might not even have classes to take. I'm also not sure if my payment went through for my next semester, so I don't know if I will be taking classes. I really don't want to work at McDonalds full time.... shit...
You kids have a wonderful day, but before you go, let me know what's good yo Comments (3) |
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008
happy christmas, happy new year
whatever the case, I missed it here. I didn't post at all... no shit. Hope you all had a wonderful break, and holiday season.
Did some new fan art I'm going to scan. It's one of my most favorite characters from naruto.
Temari of sunagakure
So what did you do during the holidays?
get anything worth mentioning? A PS3 maybe?
hah
My family from new york sent me a wii.. It's pretty cool.
Bout time I got one, now I need Super smash brothers brawl.
What are we going to do this year huh? Anyone got something new to bring to the world this year?
I think 2008 should be the year of development. Let's all become better at whatever it is we had set our minds to. Whether it's getting better at drawing, flying a plane(hah), or something whatever.
My main point is I'm wondering how we're going to make 2008, 2008 times better than 2007. How? Let's think real hard.
I'm planning on making a website on teaching how to develop your own style in manga art. That's one small goal this year. I still want to get better at drawing manga. Let's not push it, but how well can you play an FPS online? IDK, do you even know what that is? Hah! noobs.....
anyway, let me know what your new years RESOLUTION is if any.
How can we make this a better year on myo? Or the whole internet for that matter?
add this
I just made this picture now. I thought of it while I was at work last night. I was thinking of all the people in the world that need help but never get any. I had the only answer there is to such a situation. When no one will help you, or can reach out to you, there's this...
Please copy this and use it if you want. I'm the original artist, so I don't care if you take it.
Tell your friends.
This is all I can say to those who I can't help because I'm far away.
excited? Yes
If you haven't seen it yet, here is the video of the new Myotaku.com.
Yeah, lots of new features, it's been a long time with no change. The site's been the same since I joined three years ago. I remember visiting Theotaku.com a long time before I joined, that was how I used to get my outlaw star pictures. I love this site, it's literally a homepage, like a home on the internet. Well, enough of that emotional bs, I got a question...
If you could feed a shark until it is full, what do you think it would do afterwards? Hypothetically you're safe in the water, and no other sharks are around.
This isn't a riddle, I want to know what you think.
Aight, catch me next time where we mix Kunai and Dolphins. What kind of wierd thing would that look like? Idk, until I draw it.
Well that was exciting
Yo yo yo. That game in my intro mechquest is pretty simple. Almost like a level 1 evolved flash game. More than a squirtle, but not wuite a Blastoise if you know what I mean. Yes, a Wartortle. Pokemon references are getting old, I know. F it...
Anyway, I was just reading Kanye West's blog and he got more than 600 comments on his last post in November. Can you believe that? I'm lucky to get one! I wish I was famous, just so I could get a billion comments on my blog. F the money hoes cars and clothes... Jk, Money sounds good, I want some new stunners.
A dope ass beat
Well, off to do some more art for submission.
If you recently added to your portfolio, let me know, I've got time before I gotta go to work!
Updated finally.
Got some new fan art I scanned yesterday. Actually it's all original. They should all be characters from my series I'm working on currently. I really need that cg art program thing that everyone uses to color their drawings. I wonder what that's called now...
This one is my favorite of the whole lot: Kuroda 3 | Hosted By theOtaku.com.
This is shark from hishyama, or the warrior formerly known as. Now he's Kuroda from Kuroda no Kage! Comments (2) |
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