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myOtaku.com: hishyama shark
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Monday, January 7, 2008
yeah. Life sucks
It probably gets better after it's over, so????
School starts tomorrow, and the stress is already on. The same, "what am I doing for the future" and whatnot. It's part of my personality to worry all the time. That's why I always have headaches. Like right now. I can't think of anything to post right now that's worth mentioning. I haven't had time to build my development site lately. And I've been working, cleaning, and playing the wii all the time. I have to get it together, but there's no way that will ever happen, because I lack motivation and ambition. I never feel like drawing to try to finish my manga planning and writing my books. And my movies, and everything else. Maybe I should just concentrate on one thing. I'm too creative for my own good. It will be my own undoing. What a waste of a life. The more I read the novel Welcome to the N.H.K., the more I can relate to the way the main character lives his life as a hikikomori. And that's sad. I'm always too depressed and bored to work. Whether it's my creations or flippin McDonalds....
I want to die, but I can't.
"So now what?"
I ask myself...
IDK, that's all I ever say. HAH!!
Maybe I should spend less time correcting myself online in front of you all and more time writing... It's funny how I type as I think, and never delete the stupid shit I say.
So now you all just read five minutes worth of what it sounds like when I think to myself!! Isn't that cool!??!?!?
Not to me, cause I gotta hear it all the time...
So, I'm not going to post anymore until I have a good reason to. No more spilling my heart out onto this blog for you to waste your time with.
Sorry for the waste everyone!
Maybe I'll write a short story, or include something from my comedy manga next time.
I figure if I try to keep up with setting my own deadlines and motivating myself to meet with them, I might be able to break the habit. And this site and everyone's support really helps, so thanks and sorry again!!
I'm only one person, so what do you expect from me?
A horribly stupid and confused sort, that's the worst combination.
It's who I am! So bye bye!!
This is not a suicide note.
yet
jk, have a nice day and eat candy and other healthy things!!
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