Tuesday, September 7, 2004

Lyre
Today I was listening to some lyre music. I remembered the soothing times where I had once had an instroment to play. Unfortunately while growing up my family experianced poverty very often so when ever an insterment was bought or given it was almost always sold soon after. I'm just glad that the heirloom violen has never been sold, pawned several times, but never sold. The wood it is made out of is very pretty and it was made exactly one hundred years before my birth. I'm going off topic. What I mean to say is that I miss having a musical instrument around. I wish to strum my fingers over strings of a lyre. The sad yet beautiful music that sounds from the instroment is like a lullaby. It makes you think while you enter a state of calm.

While listening to my music I heard my sister, Emily's voice. She's the one I can't get along with no matter what. I realized that all of my pent up hatred is just frustration. I love my family, I truly due and that's why I must leave them. In order to prevent further pain to myself and them I must leave as soon as possible, get away and cut ties. I won't completely ignore them, I'll call them from time to time, possibly have coffee with my parents every now and then, see my brothers and sisters on the holidays. And with this thought I'm comforted. I finally have a goal in life that I can strive for.

I have become employed as of today, on Monday I start training for the cell phone company of Virgin Moble. The pay is decent and hopefully I can stick with it long enough to get my own car, a place of my own, etc. I believe after I have established a living place I'll change my name. I wish to change my current name to Kamyu Ataraxia. It sounds odd and all but I enjoy it. I believe I'll also buy a lyre...

Shinigami asked me for my screen name on deviantart.com I'm known there as I am here, Hiso-chan. If anyone wants a direct link to my front page there then just ask and I'll supply it in the next entry.

I got an Okita-san picture up here, as well as a wallpaper that I made from scans from the Peace Maker manga.

I know I haven't really commented on anyone's journals recently but finding a job and all is a bit time casuming. I'll catch up on comments soon, so please be paicent with me.
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